haha um so i thought i'd bring up a dream i had last night,,,
so i've been having a lot of thoughts about my ex
our relationship ended really weirdly...like, we broke up because he said needs time to help himself
and he actually cried telling me how much he loves me
but still, i was so, so heartbroken
because i didn't think he was going to just up and leave like this
because that's what he did :))
he asked me if we could always still talk and i said yes
but now, if i ever try to talk to him, i get left on read
...but then he can snapchat me whenever he feels like it
i feel like i'm being toyed with !!
RENJUN has apparently been my friend for a lil bit
and he's...well LOL he likes me a lot
realizing that fuck man i have feelies for renjun
and so me and my ex kept fighting because he was being possessive.....
even though HE broke up with ME,,
but then he pointed out that he said that it was because we needed time to help ourselves, but that we still love each other......
and then here's renjun, being there for me and always supporting me :')
so BASICALLY my ex was upset bc he could tell that i was moving on
and yanno what?? it felt good.
but my ex was making me feel awful.
but then, renjun was telling me that nobody can control my happiness. if i'm happy, then that's nobody's business to mess with like that.
and bitch now i DEFINITELY knew that i had feelings for renjun
so when i said i didnt want to start anything for a while until i was sure what i wanted and didnt want
he :(( was so :(( sweet :((
he said that he would stick around because we started as friends first
and then we hugged and we kind of mutually kissed and bOY OH BOY I COULD FEEL THINGS
but we just kinda giggled and watched some animated movie afterwards but yeah 💞😂💓
and it was weird,...,, it was like there was a moral of the dream that was kind of written down somewhere?
'if it's meant to be, it'll be'
and i have NO idea who or what that's directed towards LOL but yeah!!
that's what i dreamt about earlier HahA
also this is 100% true though i'm not playing