Downward Spiral||closed
@thecondemnedandhunted
He had a look on his face...
...by the look on his face it was clear he had something to say. He looked over at his brother, Mac, but said nothing, before looking away but the agitation was very clear. It wasn’t that there was something he was avoiding saying to Mac, he was just too angry for the words to come out just yet. His hands fiddled with a Zippo alternating between flicking it open and closed and tapping it on the wooden table top. His pack of cigarettes were sitting in front of him on the bar but he hadn’t even taken one out to smoke it. Once he looked away from Mac he stared straight ahead, bouncing his knee up and down. After a long period of silence he said, “She’s avoiding me,” he didn’t look at Mac when he spoke them, “After everything I’ve done for her...she’s avoiding me,” He chuckled softly before breaking out into outright laughter. Three out of the four brothers were utterly insane but Murphy was a bit more unpredictable emotionally. He used to go to Daryl for advice on these things but....Murphy wasn’t stable enough to take his advice. He’d tried. Murphy had good days and bad days and today...certainly wasn’t a good day. The train of stability has left the station and Murphy was just walking the tracks of insanity descending the slope of madness. He’d waited for her to stop avoiding him. It was the waiting that was driving him crazy. It started with little things, small bits of irrational decisions and thoughts that soon got bigger and bigger. It seemed like she’d been gone for months. It wasn’t really that long but Murphy easily lost track of time when he got like this. It could have been a few days or two months he forgot to check. It had been more than three days...that was all he knew...he’d been awake for three days. He only knew that because he watched the sun go up and down three times, “The ungrateful bitch...” he bit off. He had cuts and bruises up and down his arms...he had no idea how he did most of them, he couldn’t feel them, it was another side effect of his declining mental state, he showed little regard for his physical well being.
















