dear Caesar,
it's times like this I really, really miss you. these past few months have been god awful and I wish you were here to joke around with or even just to hit me upside the head and tell me to stop worrying so damn much.
you always knew how to make me feel stronger, braver, and I don't think I appreciated it when I had it.
I wish I'd been more honest with you - about a lot of things. I don't know if I'm ever going to find you again and there's this pang of regret constantly for never telling you how I felt about you, and for not being strong or smart enough to stop you.
Even now, I still blame myself for what happened to you. For being a stupid 18 year old who didn't keep his mouth shut.
You deserved so much better. We were way too young for what happened to us.
to any Caesar that may read this: I love you so, so much. Take care of yourself, dumbass.
yours,
Joseph Joestar☆ (JJBA)
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