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Sorry I have been MIA. Lots going on in my head, heart, and life. Said goodbye to my last grandma today. Both grandpa's are now widowed in a span of 3.5 years. I have fallen behind in housework because my head has stayed a mess. That and my ADHD does not help matters 🤪 Life is good but emotions are hard and it's crazy how much it can affect daily life. I plan to post more both here and on the mom page I just started a little over a month ago. Ciao!

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Been a while since I've gotten on here. The Christmas season is busy and my brain goes in hibernate mode.

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Thanksgiving and/or the holidays can be complicated for many. If you are in that boat I completely understand. Be grateful for the good, and don't fixate on the bad. Look at those babies faces and don't stress today❤️🦃

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I am almost caught up on housework. Dishes are done, clothes put away (except one basket) and yet I worry I'm emotionally neglecting my kids if I am. If they cry I answer, stop what I'm doing to cuddle, kiss a boo boo, grab a snack for them, etc. I constantly worry I'm not doing enough. I know I need to get on the floor and play with them more. Tomorrow I plan to focus on doing just that and laundry. There's plenty of time in between loads for me to do so. My almost 3 year old repeatedly asks me the same question every. single. day. It's "Where key doe?" and translated that's "Where the kitty go?" We have a sweet, lazy, fat cat named Samson. He mostly hides from the littles. Even when my child KNOWS where the cat went he will still ask. I will tell him he asked me that five minutes ago and he'll smirk. He wants to interact but is limited with his speech. It gets annoying but I have to understand from his perspective. Still figuring out this mom thing, only almost three years in.

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There needs to be scream classes where people individually and collectively scream together and then share with each other what's on their mind. I would ersonally love that!

I feel like (not even related to the kids) Having that escape to let out everything built up inside would be so cathartic and healing.

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These are the days.

This morning I put in my contacts, applied a little makeup, and got the kids up. Although it's been a series of tantrums, my oldest hitting his brother, and time outs (as most any day) There have also been quiet moments and I have gotten to do some embroidery. I love how supportive my husband is and how he doesn't have unrealistic expectations for what I am supposed to accomplish in a day. That really helps me especially in the season I find myself in of crippling overwhelm. (Although some days are better than others with that) He jokes that as long as I keep the kids alive that's all that matters to him. Isn't it nice to lay down the expectations and to be light hearted?It's an easy enough task to keep the kids alive, fed, and cared for. Well except when I'm chasing my toddler around the house trying to get him dressed, lol. But I need to remember that if caring for my kids is all I have accomplished in a day I am not failing. I do try to do things around the house throughout the day but if I find that it's near impossible or I'm finding myself getting irritable then it's best I give it a rest so I am not raising my voice with the kids. They are what it is all about. THE most important work and I think sometimes since I never get much of a break I can take them for granted. And I was just talking to a group of Mama's yesterday that said that they find themselves doing the same. There's a quote that's going around that says (Paraphrased) "I will go back to these days in my head when I am 80." SO often we miss out on the best days and we don"t even realize they are because we are so tired and fixated on our challenges.