getting in one last ask game kinfession before the year ends (and hopefully not procrastinating so long that it'll take until 2026 for the queue to spit this out).
for kin frequency, this is actually my only fictotype. idk, I just don't kinfirm often. I've got a handful of paratypes and hearttypes, but only 2 kintypes total. unless that cat hearttype turns out to be a kintype, but I think it's just a really strong hearttype.
for canon deaths… well. that's debatable. I might have been technically medically dead on the way to Lotho Minor, but I'm not sure. it was kind of a blur. when I read of Darth Sion, I saw myself in him immediately — resisting death itself so long as I focused my pain and anger into a will to survive. I, too, watched empires rise and fall. I, too, only let myself die when I grew too tired to cling to life (and found a worthy opponent to fall to). hey wait I just remembered that in the memory-dream-vision that first gave me the strong conviction that I was Maul, I saw a suspiciously Sion-y-looking face that I vaguely understood to represent me. I remember thinking it was what the ravages of time had done to me. what does that mean. hey. I do remember using a double-bladed lightsaber, though. what does it all MEAN
anyway, canon switch-ups. I have… complicated feelings on Mother Talzin. some say I was stolen from her, others say I was bartered. I suppose it's a bit of both, but mostly the latter. Sidious certainly pressured her, but it wasn't as if I was snatched away while her back was turned. and yet, she sacrificed so much to get me back. namely, my brothers. Savage and Feral have far more right to despise her than I do — and I wouldn't blame them for resenting me, too. I never got to meet Feral, but I didn't treat Savage with the respect and care he deserved. you were not an unworthy apprentice — I was an unworthy brother. anyway, that quickly devolved into self-loathing, which is not only totally killing the vibe but also too broadly canon-compliant to count for this ask game. I have my problems with Talzin, but… no matter what galaxy you're in, family is complicated. if I could return to the time of the clone wars with what I know now, I'd tell her everything, warn her of Sidious' plots and hopefully prevent her death, but also — STAY THE HELL AWAY FROM MY BROTHERS.
I fell asleep about halfway through writing that last ask game answer, but I'm still mulling over my Darth Sion… paratype? that's what I'll be calling it for now, until/unless playing through kotor ii for more information (kinformation?) reveals it to be anything else. just gotta find a damn disc drive for my copy… in the meantime, I wish anyone who's read this far a happy new year of freedom and self-actualization.
