"I want to protect you." with Carapace and Alya (just normal alya, not Rena rouge) I love so much your djwifi writing ~(and all the other ships with these two Kiddos <3)
Thank you so much for the ask! Sorry you had to wait, I was a bit busy… But here it finally is! One JadedAlya coming right up ;)
I’m actually a bit sorry this turned out so angsty…? But hm…It does have potential for more. Maybe I’ll continue on it, let’s see ;)
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“I want to protect you…”, he mumbled while tightening his armsaround her waist.
“I know…”, she whispered back, burying her face deeper on hisshoulder, “I’m sorry…”
He nodded, starting to sway from side to side a bit to soothe her.
“I just don’t want anything happening to you… I couldn’t bear-…”,his voice hitched and she pulled his hood down, one of her hands burying itselfin his short, brown hair.
“I’m so sorry…”, she repeated, unable to suppress her snifflesanymore as she felt him beginning to tremble underneath her hands.
“It was too close… Too close today… The Akuma already got you…”,he stumbled over his words, “If-… If Ladybug hadn’t-… Wasn’t there and-… Icould’ve never-…”
Her hands stilled and her fingers in his hair clenched to a fist.She didn’t pull his hair but just held him tighter.
“I’m here-… I’m here…”, she mumbled and his breath hitched, his fingersdigging into her shirt.
“… I can’t lose you…”, he finally said with a thick voice, “I can’tlose you… It was t-too close today…”
She nodded, still remembering way too vividly the feeling of airrushing out of her lungs as the Akuma had thrown her into the Seine. The impacthad almost knocked her unconscious and the cold water had immediatelyimmobilized her, her body sinking like a rock as she had watched the bubblesfloating up to the surface.
Her eyes had closed as she had tried moving, had tried swimming upagain, but the light had vanished behind her eyelids. The darkness and cold hadpulled her deeper and soon, her weak attempts to fight her fate had died out,her limbs going slack. She had opened her eyes again to see the sun one lasttime but she had already been too deep down. Just as she had accepted theinevitable death, though, a red shadow had dived in after her, grabbing herhand.
She had barely recognized Ladybug before already resurfacingagain, the superhero pulling her on land. She had yelled and screamed but Alyahadn’t understood a word. She had stayed there, on this spot, soaking wet andon the verge of losing her conscious, just barely able to concentrate onbreathing. It hadn’t taken the four superheroes of Paris long to defeat theAkuma after that but for Alya it had taken an eternity until the MiraculousCleansing light had washed over her, taking the wet and the cold but not theshock.
She faintly remembered Chat Noir bringing her home and telling herparents what had happened to her before being tucked in and cuddled to sleep byher entire family. She faintly remembered her mother’s tears and her father’s worriedfrown as well as the warming hands of her little sisters before giving in tothe exhaustion and dozing away.
When she had woken up her family had brought her to bed and they hadgone to sleep themselves. She had sat up and recoiled at the golden eyes behindyellow goggles that had watched her.
And now she found herself in Carapace’s arms. Her secret boyfriend’sarms.
“I know…”, she mumbled yet again, “I know… I’m sorry…”
He gently parted from her, not stepping out of the embrace butleaning back so he could look at her. His eyes were sad and his gaze was searching.
“No…”, he whispered, “You don’t know… I was terrified…”
He softly brushed a strand of hair out of her face and watched hisgreen clad thumb vanishing behind her ear.
“I-… I’m sorry…”, she forced out but his pained gaze let her wordsstick to her tongue. She really didn’t know what he had gone through.
“Alya, I-… I c-can’t do this… I just-… I just wanna protect you…”
Her eyebrows furrowed and she pressed her lips together.
“I-…”
“Please don’t say it again…”, his voice was quiet as he brushedover her lips with his other thumb, his hands holding her face turned towardshim, “I-… I just-…”
He deeply breathed in before he spoke up again, his handsbeginning to tremble.
“I need to keep you safe… I can’t be with you anymore…”
Her eyes widened but he silently pleaded her to hear him out soshe closed her mouth again.
“I-… I can’t be with you anymore… Please, you have to understand-…I don’t trust myself to keep you safe. I-… What if someone finds out about us?What if Hawkmoth finds out about us? It’s-… Too dangerous.”
She knew this gaze on him. She knew that no matter what she said,he wouldn’t budge. And-… The thought did horrify her. After all, she still hadfamily. Her little sisters.
And even if he meant the world to her, she knew she’d hurt himmore by pleading him to stay with her. She wasn’t dumb, after all.
“… I-… I understand…”
He nodded and already hinted to stepping back as she held himclose, her hands unmoving in his hair and on his back.
“Just-… Just two things, okay?”
He leant towards her again, resting his forehead against hers.
“Anything, Alya…”
“I want you to know that I love you. I’ll always l-love you…”, sheforced out, a lump forming in her throat, “I love you, Carapace, no-… No matterwho you are… I love you…”
“I love you, too…”, he replied hoarsely, his thumb brushing overher cheek while his palm cupped her jaw. She breathed through, enjoying thewarm breeze of his breath washing over her chin.
“One-…”, her breath hitched and her voice threatened to break butshe cleared her throat and her eyes locked onto his gaze again, “… One kiss.One last kiss. Please.”
She hoped he wouldn’t be able to go. She hoped he wouldn’t be ableto leave her arms anymore because he couldn’t resist her.
Sure enough, just a second after she said it he already dippeddown, his lips softly brushing over hers. She already felt him pulling away butshe went after him, locking their lips together and wrapping her arms aroundhis neck. He replied immediately, his arms steadying her around her upper body,his fingers clenching around the soft fabric of her shirt. She pressed herselfagainst him, tears slowly building up in the corners of her eyes. His chest armorpushed against her as his breaths became heavier, their kiss deeper. One of herhands found its way back into his hair and held him close, keeping him fromescaping.
Tears rolled down her cheeks as she felt him gently pushingagainst her, letting her stumble back to her bed. His grip kept her uprighteven as her legs gave up. He slowly let her sit down on the edge of themattress and she pulled him down with her but he stayed standing. Only as herlips began feeling cold in the nightly breeze, only as her arms were empty andher eyes full of tears, she understood why. He was gone.
Her hands sank and a painful sob formed in her throat as shepushed herself off the bed and ran to the open window, curtains fluttering inthe gentle Parisian wind. She just so saw a green clad boy running over therooftops against a quickly darkening sky. He didn’t hesitate, didn’t turnaround to her one last time while she watched him become smaller until hefinally vanished.
As the imprint on her eyes where she had last seen him was fadingas well she sunk to her knees, sobs overtaking her body. She leant her headagainst the hard windowsill and began sobbing loudly before a scream left hermouth.
When her mother and father stormed into her room, in pajama andwith disheveled hair from sleeping, they found their daughter slumped againstthe wall beneath her window, shivering and crying violently while above her,the window was opened and the Parisian wind let the curtains flutter.
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