Hey imaging if Forever actually confessed to Philza again. And I mean a more casual confession-
They stand outside of Philza house, they are joking and laughing. It's been so long since they've interacted. They last saw each other in purgatory and they had weeped in each others arms. Now they had returned home, he was working on N.I.N.H.O 2.0. He looked at Philza, he looks at the sign that's hangs above the house. It mocking him in the way it says Philza and Missa. He has no bad will towards Missa. He knows, how much Misaa respects Philza.
But Forever watches the way Philza laughs, and the way he looks at him. His heart can't stop racing and when he sees him he hears music. He's tried to move on and maybe the heart does grow fonder with distance. But he couldn't live with himself if he didn't truly try once more, and he steels himself. His knuckles go white as he clenched his fist into the railing of the bridge over overlooking the island. He doesn't look at Philza, his usually bostrus voice is gentle.
"I- Philza I want you to know...how much I.." And the words get stuck in his mouth and it's so easy to speak the words in portuguese. But now as he speaks in English, his words are a mess.
"I- how much I like you." The words rush from Forever mouth, his neck grow lushed with the moment. He hears Philza laugh, the gentle bump of his shoulder.
"Aw, I like you too mate." Philza says it back with such ease Forever knew his meaning either didn't get through or was ignore. But he closes his eye and he turns to Philza.
"No, I mean- I like you as in I want." His words fumble as he see Philza body language change. He could see the walls coming up.
"Oh no, I thought we were over this Forever-"
The panic claws it way through Forever chest and up through his throat.
"No- no please- listen it has nothing to do with the past or Burmin. It's just you-"
The last time he had tried this it ended with his heart broken. But now time has past and looking back on it. He couldn't help but cringe, but now it was something different. And something in the air must have shifted, played in Forever favor because he watches Philza's shoulders relax if only a little. As if Philza was holding the door open.
Silence falls between them and Forever eyes meets those ocean blues. "You owe me nothing, I wanted the truth to be said.. I wanted you to know how important you are to me."
And how you make my heart sing, but those words would stay tuck away.
"How I lo- how I love you."
"Oh Forever..." Philza mouth open as the momentary shock that graced his eyes pass. A breath leaves his lips, those eyes soften. Forever watched as Philza arms uncrossed, holding onto the railing.
Forever knew this moment would be the last time he could ever say this. But the words feels like a weight being lifted from his chest.
"I'll love you as friend, I'll love you as comrade, I'll love you even if you simply breath near me." Forever watches the red crawl up Philza neck and to his ears. He watches as Philza turns away, a hand coming up to guard his face. Forever takes a step forward a hand reaching out.
"You owe me nothing but I must if only this final time, will you hear me?" A gentle hand outstretches brushing against Philza hand.
"Jesus-" Philza turns away, his back blocking Forever. But that wasn't a no, Philza was not running. Some amalgamation of hope and admiration filled his heart.
"Forever- what am I suppose to do? What am I suppose to say to that?!" Philza spoke up.
"Something? Nothing? Tell me you love me back?" It's a rush, it's mess the way he holds onto that hope.
Forever watches Philza back tense, and the worry that those walls may come crashing down pushes him to move. Gently grasping Philza hand, he tugs if only to get Philza to look at him again. And he does-
"I like you, but I'm married-" Philza begins
"And?" Forever grip tighten slightly on Philza hand.
"Forever!" Philza turns round and yet he did not pull his hand away. Those blue eyes were finally on him, baring into his soul in astonishment, disbelief graced Philza lips. That made the corner of Philza lips turn up, and a chuckle leave his mouth. Philza shakes his head, leaning back on his heels.
"If I said, I needed time?" Philza said those eyes like ocean that always drew Forever in.
"I'd wait centuries for you."
(Was this meant to turn into a mini fic? No, I'll find this up at some point and post it on ao3 lmao!)
