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My child is fine.

Your child has spent all weekend creating a Notion aesthetic that has zero actual content.

#I literally spent 8 hours yesterday building all my pages #and then I told myself I was going to fill out ONLY my morning and night routine pages #and then spent 3 hours redoing icons and cover art and only got the barebones of my morning routine page done #amazing 10 outta 10 for me and my ability to hyperfixate on making things pretty #caro rants #notion #but also if you have deadline driven work or school tasks Notion is amazing #just like create one when you can dedicate a good work or so to understanding how it all works #dating myself with this statement but I broke out the old myspace coding toolbelt and felt oddly proud

Ugh... Look’s like the pain medication did get the best of me after all. I just pre-ordered a special 20th Anniversary Edition Harry Potter and the Philosopher's Stone – Slytherin Edition (which is freaking beautiful, please and thank you and I don’t regret it one bit, except for the fact that I’m in love with the Ravenclaw Edition as well [as I consider myself a Slytherclaw and because it’s blue, my favourite colour ever], but hey, you got to work with what the queen chose for your house and since green is my second favourite colour, I’m fine with that).

The reason as to why I’m angry about it, is because of whatever reason, I bought it over the Bloomsbury Online-Shop located in England, which means I have to pay taxes and shipping costs, eventhough I found out through my local bookstore that those Editions existed! My brain must’ve been mush when I suddenly landed on the Bloomsbury page and ordered it from there. I could have saved some shipping time and costs, but now I at least now that the correct book is going to appear on my doorstep in June, making it the perfect birthday present for myself. :D (which is, as I just realize, my 20th birthday and those are the 20th Anniversary Editions... THOSE BOOKS CAME OUT THE YEAR I WAS BORN?!)

#personal #random #caro rants

Can I ramble about a metaphor in Samantha Hunt's The Seas?

It's early in the book and the main character is still unnamed but desperately in love with Jude, an older man you get the distinct feeling she should very much not be in love with. And the metaphor is that some nights she wants him so badly that she imagines she's giving birth to him. This book is full of little poems like that.. Sometimes you have to leave the line unrealized only to find out dozens of pages later what it meant. But this one hit me like a ton of bricks.

There's the obvious innuendo of having him within her. But it's so much more than that. It's the idea that she's created him. That the Jude that exists isn't quite the one that she's dreamed about. And the Jude she's dreamed about feels partially of her. There's a reversal of the age difference. She and Jude are connected , but still misaligned even in her fantasy. She's skipped pleasure and gone straight for the pains of labor. The fantasy betrays her naivety - considering sex and birth as interchangeable events that define a woman. Both painfully breaking open this non-relationship by attributing both events to a singular person. The mysteries of labor and sex so foreign to her that they're singular aspects of womanhood that she's trying to be. It's the fallacy that when she's more grown up, more mature, she'll be enough to care for Jude. That she can become the woman who can nurture or tend to the attributes she already perceives as lacking in him.

And let's not forget about how this fantasy strips Jude of his ability to reject her. At this point in the book, he's rejected her small advances. It's not outright flirting that's getting rejected but it's close. He's also not verbally rejecting her, but taking small steps (literally) to avoid having to be in a position where he needs to do that. By imagining him as a baby, she's gotten rid of that obstacle. She's artificially created his need for her.

It's been 45 minutes since I've ended that chapter and I can think of nothing else. I'm full-on losing my mind over this tiny, tiny scrap.

#samantha hunt #the seas #caro rants

another caro weekly update (kind of) except its 5am and i just got home

• expanding on just getting home. how is it i’ve managed to get into an accident of a sort twice within 10 days ??? and this time i deadass almost died But lowkey the power of yearning for evan’s music saved me (not really) (I’m okay but. I’m coping)

• this rain came out of nowhere? initially i wasn’t complaining until we’re driving home on a spare in the middle of a hail storm. Like okay Also the whole thing was the storm’s fault anyway

this car might be the unluckiest thing (the two accidents + the battery dying ON THE NIGHT of my birthday 😭) but i’m glad i’m in one piece. my sister is in one piece. The car (thankfullyyy, because we managed to not crash into the tree that we almost flipped into) survived but i think tomorrow i will instead be staying in my bed with my cat and a vanoss video. thank you very much

not much more to update than that.. i haven’t written a lot because i’ve been very dedicated to finishing my actual schoolwork but i yearn to draw. to write.. i just need my inspiration

lowkey i am going to pass out now. it’s 5am. i’m sore. this adrenaline is long worn off. it’s time for sleep. i’m ending with a video and it is yet again hayley williams because i (as previously stated in my other post? probably? or at least implied) absolutely adore her. goodbye

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i gotta do a weekly update post but

• i’ve been writing a lot more recently.. it’s nothing complete yet but i’m hoping for this fic to really go somewhere? i’ve been serious about this like. I got designs. i’ve been drawing and planning designs for this.

• on the topic of writing this might lead to me getting a bit sidetracked BUT i have a one-shot story planned. cus i realized i don’t gotta stress out with full stories for each idea and as much as i love this idea? it’s not something i could write any more about than a one-shot..

this song is related and i need an excuse to post it. i love u crane wives

ALAS, i am locking in on actual work alongside this ✍️ both my education and getting the real bucks.. i’m hoping this summer will be the hobbies lock in of the century (and this hyper fixation needs to last just as long)

i post art wheneva i feel like it, evidently, but i’m really hoping i can make my 2026 debut on the big ao3… it’s been too long (6 years!!) since i’ve published my writings so i hope the improvement since then actually motivates me…

🫡 i’m not posting this for anybody.. my targeted audience is myself.. also i just realized how many times i use “…” My bad bruh it just feels right!! im hoping to make a real contribution to the fandoms i’m in once that motivation kicks in because i really do love sharing my stuff.. no matter how shit it can be

i’ll end this with hayley williams glum - park edition because i love her and this performance is currently on loop in my mind https://youtu.be/_NXLlMAMwDU?si=aeENE26mRysTZFFW