#caspa thoughts

[cheesyandsourpancake]

A wave of fanfics is coming as i finished up a bunch of them that i procrastinated on, including 3 first chapera(one arleady on ao3) and writing a chaper three for Twinvincible

[cheesyandsourpancake]

Anytime some form of media i like gets a new thing, i have to start to treat the whole internet like it's radioactive until i finish it, it doesn't help that tiktok's filter is ass

[cheesyandsourpancake]

I was joking about the ao3 curse but this is the 6th or 7th time my nose is bleeding in 3 days, please stop

[cheesyandsourpancake]

I just was polishing up a draft for ao3, and then i went to the bathroom for a piss break

And then i got a nosebleed, it is the 4th one as of the last 2 days, so i just use some paper to not bleed all over my phone or floor, now a minute later i try to put on a new one, usually it's just a normal out with the old in with the new process, not this time

I pull awaly the paper and blood comes gushing out, now i'm slightly pissed that there's blood on my floor phone and also toilet paper roll,

I clean it up, while switching the paper above sink the next times, i clean the floor, i text my mom i got another nosebleed(i got proof anxiety, i feel if no one in the moment knows no one will belive me later)

And then it all goes to shit, i've bleed through the paper so, since i finished my buissness, i decited to try to wash it of with cold water i look in the mirrow and uh oh, it won't stop bleeding, now i'd been having it for quite some time, and it's not slowing down

I yell for my brother, tell him to get mom for me, i don't wanna touch my phone i got blood on my hands, i get ignored despite screaming a bunch, so i call my mom finally using my phone, she comes in and this is what she sees

Me hunched over the sink turning to look at her, blood around my nose down to my chin, blood sprayed on the sink, soap dispense and the wall(it looked like a bad horror movie set) for for the next minute or two she helped me wash it off me and then clean the blood off the surfeces of the bathroom while i hold something cold to my face and paper to my nose,

Now i'm not saying the ao3 curse got my ass again, but i'm just saying i was finishing up a chapter to post

[cheesyandsourpancake]

I'm waiting for my sibling to finish playing some Mario cart game on our new this day gotten Nintendo switch 2, cuz i just bought tomogachi life and it's downloading and i wanna make fictional characters kiss me

[cheesyandsourpancake]

I keep mocking the Ao3 curse and than it fucking blows up in my face, i need to learn,

First my laptop gets broken after posting 2 fics,

Posted another fic, laptop two issues

Now posted another fic, my dad is in the hospital, my dog had to have surgery, and i am in the mental state of a tornado, what next m i gonna fail school?

[cheesyandsourpancake]

What is my life anymore? So i've started writing myself little fics on paper at school, to have something to do while class is happening and i finished tasks, and during English class yesterday a guy who i have a friendly rivalry in English noticed and wanted to SEE it, now i could say no and 1. Be a party pooper 2. Make him want to see it even more, so i allowed to see him the like 3 and a half pages i wrote of a Suki x Avatar!Yue, and he made a comment "Aang doesn't have hair"(cuz i wrote 'the white haired girl' about the avatar, he also doesn't really know the show just like basics basics), and why did i name a girl Suki(it means b*tches here) he said few more things, and than gave me back it, so i thought nothing about it, he'd file me away as a weirdo in his mind or smth

Now the next day, i kept writing during glass and finished 4 or 5 sheets, and during English class he wants to read the rest, and i let him, while i work on the last page i have, now i finish the page and say "I don't have anymore paper." Cuz i use the paper from the nice notebooks the ones, the checkered, and all i had were stripes notebooks or the shitty waxy notebook,

And he, he tore a page out of his notebook and gave it to me so that i'd keep writing, loves my yuri game CANNOT BE THAT GOOD, anyways i kept writing on the paper he gave me, it wasn't one of my nice and cut to dimensions papers but i admired his dedication to seeing how it'll keep going, so yeah, that's how my lifes going, we got a teenage boy (mildly)interested in my fanfiction

Also honorable mention when i said i wrote a different Avatar Yue fic he asked me if i'd show him it too, i told him it was written on a computer and not on paper, he was disappointed