Came home to take my lunch break and saw my new ethernet cord just got here, so I decided to plug it in and see if it works. Which it does, very well.
but new cord = Wiggles and Max’s Must Destroy senses have activated and they are more determined that I have ever seen two cats be to play with it and destroy it.
So half of my lunch break has been spent cursing at the cord clips as I fumbled with trying to hammer them into the wall and screeching angrily at them to leave the cord alone because god forbid they fucking chew through it as soon as it gets here. Because that would totally happen. >:T
Who wants two cats? I’d talk them up, but they’re assholes. Just giant assholes.
man, having a constant friend shaped hole in my chest is really starting to wear me down.
Like I'll live and im already in therapy about it. still it aches. like to not having any friends to just talk about even the smallest things is like so incredibly isolating.
like at some point it is really hard to not assume that there is just something wrong with me, cause otherwise how do i always end up alone. like the only pattern is me so i must be the problem and im tired.
but alas, tomorrow comes and i will keep living and trying. what else can be done.
Its absolutely insane living with a chronic condition thats underresearched. They really just hand you just about any pill to see if it works.
I'm on my like 7th medication trial for just 1 of my conditions. 4 in on another. On a break with my migraine medications cause a lot of them don't mix well with my current med. Current med makes me dogshit tired. But hey I must admit muscle relaxants are kinda neat and like the only thing that has even slightly helped, even if they do turn me in to the sleepiest critter in the world.
[*Flops face first onto a couch and deflates like a desolate beach ball*]
So turns out that my now former 'doctor' violated HIPAA not only once, but twice. Once with my information, and once with a different patient's. I know this for a fact because they outright told me with one instance, and I was physically holding the evidence in my hands with the other. Not to mention that they were withholding valuable diagnostic information from me, which I was entirely unaware of. The only way I found out about Any of this is because I had a 'last visit' meeting, where all of this came up without the person realizing how bad what they were saying was.
Needless to say, I am extremely shaken up over this. My heart has been pounding out of my chest because of it. ABSOLUTELY a VAST majority of professionals are good and well intentioned!!! Far, far more good outweight the bad! This professional had good intentions, but still violated the law and caused me to lose all trust in them and their entire office. For some people, this could run the risk of a patient having little trust in professionals moving forward, and cause them serious problems because of previous trust issues.
This is the first bad professional I've met so far in my slew of seeing countless doctors. But I had red flags going up about this person for quite a while. Listen to your gut, and listen to the red flags. Absolutely, trust your doctors, that is SO important! But first and foremost also trust yourself and your gut!
I’m just really sad about beastie rn bc she’s started urine marking - when I’m next to her, so it’s clearly a “I’m annoyed with the cone, mom, take it off” - and she’s done it twice now (the second time I yelled at her before she started it). so rn she’s locked in the bathroom with her litter box until I see that she’s done some kind of business in it. but I’m just stressed and sad, because I know that she’s sad bc of the cone, and I just wish I could tell her in a way she understood that the cone is for her own good :-( I’m just really upset, I don’t like having to close her in there....
but i guess everyone has problems and some people have even worse problems so i probably shouldn't complain since i have a roof over my head, a family, and wonderful friends which i honestly don't know where id be without
