And maybe that’s why I’m constantly empty, bored, and unfulfilled. This life is not enough for me, not enough to hold my imagination. Sometimes I feel like there is a gift or ability or something locked in my mind. They say we only use 10% of our brain’s capacity. I often wonder what difference 1% would make to my life. Maybe then I wouldn’t feel so empty - maybe I’d even be special? Maybe maladaptive daydreamers are so caught up in their own heads because they’ve used 1% more of their brain. Maybe they’ve tapped into the time and space continuum. Maybe their realistic dreams are alternate universes. Maybe multiple personality sufferers have unlocked the key to the human body. It’s fact that the personalities can altar body chemistry according to the specific characteristics. What if the reason they are so feared is because they are the road to evolution? Maybe borderline sufferers are empaths - not emotionally unstable. I mean, look at the state of the earth. The bad outweighs the good, maybe borderlines just have keener sensitivity to that. Maybe sociopaths and psychopaths and schizophrenics are more in tune with the world; they see it for what it really is. Maybe the government are all lizards and maybe the moon is a hologram. Maybe everyone is a liar and maybe I’m special after all.
And maybe I’m not. Maybe I’m just sick. The world, my family, and myself it seems, believe in the latter.