Jan 16, 2024
Sex is so mid, im not even asexual I dont think, but i think we live in such a sex obsessed patriarchal culture that as a amab person indoctrinated me personally into thinking having premarital sex would fill the hole in my heart but i feel empty baby. I feel voidfull and vacume pilled and bottomless pit coded. Ive gained a lot of confidence over the course of this year and girls flurt with me sometimes or will think im flirting with them and we exchange information. Nothing comes of it because I dont even care and I just dont connect with most people. I could force connection for the sake pf having sex, but thats not a motivator for me anymore. I want real connection but most everyone just bores me
#greysexual#celebat#celebate#volcel#dont even get me started about all the men tryna holler at me lately#like one of the most impossible groups of people to connect with on every level#i feild men without a second thiuyght alnost every time#and Im pretty sure im bisexual#but like. it ain't worth it#even if sex mattered to me like that#men are so closed off emotionally