#celiac vent

[kiwikreates]

I wish my body would work. I wish food was accessible and affordable. I want my pain to go away.

Hot take. I wish they would take gluten friendly off every fucking menu out there. Make it celiac safe or not have it at all. It’s not like I can go out and eat anyway.

[hillbillyoracle]

Got glutened by a hot chocolate of all things.

Wish I had a gluten detection dog honestly. So tired of not being up to pick up a lil treat while I'm out.

Also got me thinking about the first person to ever suggest that I might have Celiac's. It was a college student I worked with just after I dropped out. She had Celiac's and over heard me complaining about crazy bad fatigue and some GI symptoms and she asked if I'd ever talked to a doctor about it. And I remember looking it up and all of the examples had weight loss listed as a symptom and I was/am fat and couldn't get my weight to budge for anything so next time she mentioned it I dismissed it on that basis; "It seems like most people with Celiac's are skinny and I'm the opposite. I can't lose weight at all." And to her credit she told me I was wrong.

It would be another few years before I cut out gluten, when I was 25 (7 years ago - WILD). But I really wish I could thank her for mentioning it. I still don't have an official diagnosis because I cut it out years ago and a colonoscopy at this point might not show the usual signs. But when things got really bad, I remembered what she said and committed to cutting it out and things pretty streadily improved from there.

Still learning a lot though. Like I'm running a low grade fever and I didn't realize that getting glutened can cause that. Means that the bad joint aches I get are the only what I've got to even begin to tell the difference between gluten and a virus (and there still overlap).

Health anxiety is really high today. Getting glutened also seems to make my OCD much worse. Like I had a sleep paralysis nightmare where I became terrified of even thinking of 666 but it was also all I could think about. Thats super not my usual and really intense to boot.