Jotting down thoughts on illness in translation, death as biography, bodies that survive, minds that are (not) remembered—and Blanchot, always Blanchot. “To be dead and still be waiting for something that turns you into the memory of death.”
Thoughts on outside perspectives and how meaningless they are when smuggling light as memory out of houses with slanted roofs, how easily we have adapted to a life without the other, phantom rain sounds, the wind tonight—and my own voice, echoing somewhere in the Galloway forest.
Cella Serghi, somewhere in the past, writing: “I wish I had not gone through life in vain. The rain that now falls on the eaves, on the window and on the asphalt, the rain that smells and sounds like summer, I want it to remain here, on this page, like a fabric made to last.”
That was the dream: to surround ourselves with things made to last—come rain, come thunder; rooted in meaning, with arms outstretched to the eternal, always following some kind of poetic idea(l). And then, Blanchot again. “Our intimacy is this very night.“