#certain individual

[balaclava-trismegistus]

Can you please stop talking about someone I love's extremely traumatic past while name dropping them publicly. I actually did not know that about them, although there were signs/its been hinted at. I assume that is something they wanted to tell me in their own time. You claim to be so fucking gentle and tortured yet do shit like that, literally what the fuck. Please at least try to get where *I'm*coming from, deeply loving this person. Also-this is between you and me. They do not know I'm messaging you and would probably prefer I didn't but holy shit, fuck you. Also I'm not positive exactly who is sending you those asks but we have a guess but it's not worm. But that goes against the story you've been telling yourself and the entire internet I guess and it's not like you'll believe something else anyways. I'd appreciate if you didn't post this publicly but I'll take the risk to tell you to go fuck yourself

You and Hayden can go fuck yourselves. I am so goddamn sick of being expected to just shut the fuck up about the shit other people did to me because it's inconvenient to them. Hayden was absolutely an accomplice to Worm. Yeah, they were a victim in their own right. That sucks. They were also a perpetrator of all this shit, and integral to Worm's ability to do these things to people. They deliberately fucked up every part of my life they were in contact with once I left the compound. They had a major hand in fucking up the lives of numerous people. I spent literal years trying to reach out to them, even after becoming aware of how they personally fucked me over, and they completely refused to take any amount of accountability. You don't get to do that and expect everybody to shut up about it just cuz you got some shit yourself.

There are at least two other people they roped into Worm's compound, and I was told there were two more who got their whole lives fucked up and ended up homeless for 6 months after Hayden tried to get them to move in.

Late 2019, they got their friend Mark to move in with Worm. Mark needed a place to stay, evidently away from family. After a while, Worm did the same shit to them as they did to me. Wouldn't directly communicate any problems to them. Just talked insane shit, probably made a bunch of shit up, did everything they could to just socially eradicate this person, calling them, essentially, a fat lazy slob who stole food and wouldn't do anything to help anyone at all. Hayden was integral to that. Hayden backed up everything, going as far as to say they "weren't even really friends" after the matter. All to just erase this person and make sure nobody talked to them, cuz Worm didn't like them. Again. Same routine they both did to me.

Hayden introduced me to Worm. Hayden talked me back into moving in when I had second thoughts because of Worm's behavior, seemingly lying to me about how worm doesn't act like that at all in person. I moved in with Worm in 2022. Hayden fed worm our private conversations after I caught Worm literally trying to gaslight me, after they knew how bad I was fucked up by getting gaslit in the past. Hayden and I talked every day for SIX MONTHS after the matter about Worm doing things like trying to steal from both of us, even shooting at both of us, lying about literally everything they told us about themself, manipulating us both about everything from the moment we met.

This all happened while worm was isolating me and not giving me promised accommodations that were seriously affecting my health. Hayden corroborated many the abuses I experienced. Then, when I left, Hayden went around sharing a fucking 14 page Google callout doc that Worm wrote about me. It was full of shit Hayden knew wasn't true. It denied shit we had talked to each other about experiencing. They still went around sharing it with all my friends, even people they hardly knew. Went around lying about me to corroborate all the bullshit Worm was saying about me despite straight up contradicting a lot of it in our messages; which I still have!

Hayden was the chief executor of Worm's harassment among my personal network of friends. Worm wasn't talking to any of those people anymore. Hayden was. Numerous friends told me they were sent that bullshit by Hayden, and Hayden tried saying I was "misrepresenting" things, trying to make me out as irrational and hysterical and shit. Hayden tried to make me a pariah, while I was already going through hell with my deteriorating health and getting fucked over by doctors, when they had already validated and corroborated most of the shit Worm was doing to me. They even said themself that I was getting it worse than them because I was more vulnerable. Then they just did a complete 180, and evidently went back to believing worm's stupid fucking tragic mercenary backstory.

Around the same time, they moved their partner back into the compound. They broke up, I'm told because of something Hayden did. Not my business. But Angel is still there. Angel is, as I'm told, essentially, trapped on the compound. A situation Hayden pulled them into.

I spent literal years trying to make excuses for Hayden, trying to believe that they're just all mixed up. I reached out to them repeatedly, particularly after I had heard they were kicked out and had a bunch of their shit stolen by Worm. I kept open communications with them the whole time, at risk to myself, on the basis of just being there for them when they needed it. I kept finding out they were saying shit about me. They kept ignoring me. They refused to take any accountability for their actions. I eventually realized; every single time I trusted Hayden, they fucked me over. Every chance they had. They never took any accountability. They have a repeated pattern of doing this to people. They did it to me. They did it to Mark. They did it to Angel, from what I've heard.

They are a victim of a lot of shit. That sucks. But they also caused a lot of harm to people who didn't deserve it, for no good reason at all. You don't get to just hide from that because you experienced shit yourself. I am so goddamn sick of this fucking "im just a little guy" teflon bullshit to try and dodge any accountability. Christ alive.

And by the way asshole, the harassment I've been getting for three years has repeatedly contained information that could ONLY come from Worm, like going after my partner's personal shit, taunting me about specific people leaving my discord server, straight up just saying shit Worm said to me all the time. People around Worm have told me it's obviously coming from Worm. They told me Worm would send them my fucking blog posts all the time. It often comes at the same time of day Worm would always wake up when I lived with them, and just before the time they would go to bed. It contains their mannerisms. They were my best friend for four years. I know how they think, I know how they type, I know it's them.

Eat my shit. Both of you.

[balaclava-trismegistus]

Here for the circus? Read this!

[balaclava-trismegistus]

I feel like posting this as a matter of record. I'm certain this is Worm -- my former bestie/housemate and current harasser since I moved out in 2023 -- because of the number of specificities. Stuff about my faking my disease or otherwise not actually being disabled, and casting me as a "cult leader" targeting "15 year old trannies", (interesting projection coming from somebody who, to my eye, has attempted to groom teenagers, and is legit engaging in cult control behaviors) and the stuff about me living in their house for free and whatnot.

It's all things I got in the past during the height of my harassment, all the same sentiments and shit Same targets of attack. Apparently other people who lived with them also thought they were harassing me. They would evidently go around showing people the messages I was receiving (which I would often receive at the precise time of day they woke up when I lived with them, might I add) and allege I was sending them to myself.

This account got deleted quickly and then it popped back up. Another instance of the same blog went back up. Seemingly deleting and remaking so I can't just block them. I tried reporting it to @staff a second time and couldn't since the account was deleted by the time I submitted the request. I'd contacted them about the harassment before but was told they can't do anything about it.

The second blog also screenshotted a post from months and months and months prior with a tag saying its from one day ago, so they've absolutely been creeping on me for some time. This comes after the recent uptick in messages, like calling ky a "quirk chungus," as well as some stuff aimed towards me.

They're also going after Ky. Reblogged one of their selfies and said "His girlfriend who should also be investigated." Again, vitriol being pointed towards Ky. In the past, Ky received hate with information only known to Worm and a couple of Ky's best friends. Worm sexually harassed me about them, and had some kind of serious problem with them. Worm, who I believe is the one sending me this stuff, had some strange sexual possessiveness around me and the harassment began shortly after I entered my relationship with Ky.

I've talked about the situation before. Lured me out to their isolated compound by manipulating me for four years, leveraging my fucked up situation against me. Lived in in uninsulated shed without the accommodations I was promised, which I needed for my physical health. Had me do labor for them, uncompensated, then smeared me when I was too disabled to do the labor they weren't even asking me to do. Tried to control my diet, tried to control how I dressed, tried to control who I spoke to, tried to make me sell my shit and cut off my family, among other things. Since it was their house and it was isolated, they controlled who I saw, and made attempts to isolate me, made it hard for me to get out and do shit like getting groceries. Shot at me on their range one time. Has been harassing me for over two and a half years now. I believe this is them.

[balaclava-trismegistus]

This situation is so fucking insane.

My corner

six+ months of daily messages with Hayden talking about the situation where much of what I'm experiencing is being corroborated

numerous other people experiencing the same things as me in a repeating pattern

three years of near-constant harassment utilizing specific details only known to the individual in question

person who is evidently Hayden's partner who I have never interacted with ever coming out of nowhere to send me hate for something they didn't like in my personal post where I recount my life at 4 in the morning because I said Hayden's name

multiple people surrounding Worm telling me they believe Worm is harassing me and telling me they experienced the same things

a copy of the google callout document in question and numerous screenshots of Hayden sending it to my friends while telling them I'm being irrational/manipulative

Their corner

Nuh Uh

Shut Up

You Stink

[balaclava-trismegistus]

You guys really don't understand how funny it is that these people keep insisting that Worm isn't harassing me. Not only have numerous people around Worm told me that Worm keeps going around showing people my personal posts. Not only have people from the compound told me they believe Worm is certainly the one harassing me. The only genuine expression of worm's personality was harassing people. They would turn literally any social space they entered into a cliquey shithole. They just started shit on tumblr constantly; if you'll remember them, they were burnawaytheflags-beginagian for a long time. (I believe that's how it was spelled.) They killed three arma groups we played with. It's my understanding that they got kicked out of the PSSRA. They would regularly talk about having a "bullying instinct" and would often say their real hobby is getting in fights online because they "can't get in gunfights anymore" (a gesture to their fabricated Tragic Backstory.) Literally anyone who knew this motherfucker can tell you they're the most toxic little literally-mald manlet you will ever have the misfortune of meeting in your life. (I will note as they always said: "being a manlet is a mindset.") And they just got away with it by always going "I'm so nice. everyone says I'm so nice" and then using a bunch of therapyspeak before compulsively bullying people into exile. They have a genuine psychological dependence on holding an individual in contempt. They would talk about Mark for years. Somebody reached out to me well over a year after I left and told me Worm would bring me up at D&D sessions. They are genuinely obsessive. They are a for real predator.

[balaclava-trismegistus]

what is going on with this harrassment thing? callout post?? what were you accused of? this all sounds utterly insane

so here is the post that more or less set things off. This is all regarding the Worm saga. Basically I've been talking about the shit I experienced in the worm compound and been getting harassment for it. Hayden's apparent partner sent me some bullshit for just mentioning Hayden was involved.

I'm considering posting the callout post they claim I'm lying about because it's really funny and completely insane. Overall it was just accusing me of being a self-centered lazy asshole who was a piece of shit to everybody and didn't lift a finger to help anyone. Meanwhile I was having daily seizures and had something much like a stroke that prevented me from walking straight for months, which I still haven't fully recovered from, over three years later.

I haven't read the whole thing but I know it contains some bullshit about me destroying a target that a housemate was meticulously maintaining for years "to make a meme video." What they're referring to was me taking a 25 cent cardboard silhouette target that was left out in the rain for multiple days, which I stapled back together, and threw a big rock at. It also contains shit about Ky being an asshole for not paying for gas, when they straight up stopped Ky from paying for gas with their card in-hand and told them not to worry about it. It's all that kind of thing. Pure manipulation and fabrication.

Also, in now-deleted comments, this person was claiming I was just "making shit up" about Mark. But.

I have no reason to believe any of those details are true after Hayden started saying this kind of shit about me.

I'm reluctant to make this into some kind of open shooting war but at the same time i literally have screenshots of hayden talking about this shit I'm being accused of lying about. And I have had numerous people around Hayden and Worm telling me that Worm is harassing me. Like. People who lived with them. So.

These people have fucked up my life as much as they can and I just want them to fuck off and stop trying to hurt me lol. Trying to just stay silent about it just let them do whatever they wanted and cost me a ton of friends. Starting to talk about it made things better. They're literally just trying to keep me quiet to avoid consequences. Seemingly so they can continue to rope people into this shit. So. Lmao.

[balaclava-trismegistus]

Wait I think that stuff is about worm that you posted? I'm referring to hayden but I'm not sure who you meant. Regardless in the past you still did that with stuff hayden has been through so my point still stands.

Really love that this person couldn't figure out what I was saying and just got mad, fully believing that my account of Worm's Tragic Backstory had actually happened to Hayden.

News flash, dumbfuck: everything I've talked about Hayden experiencing has been our shared experience! You don't get to keep me from talking about shit I've been through! Drop dead!

How'd you even find out about my post, anyways? Could it be, perhaps, that certain individuals have sent you my personal blog posts to get you all riled up about what an asshole I am?

[balaclava-trismegistus]

i haven't been on the internet really in any capacity since like 2021-ish due to a lot of things but holy shit i feel like a fool being duped by worm's constant fabrications of EMS stories and trafficking and shit. how absolutely vile and insane it is to lie about that. holy hell. i'm glad you got out.

HAHA hey who is this? Mark is the only person I can really think of who up and disappeared around that time. But some of my memory is pretty fuzzy. It'd be interesting to talk with whoever this is, the whole thing got NUUUTS.

But, yeah, I distinctly remember doubting some of the shit initially and thinking they'd have to be an idiot, and a really awful person, in order to lie about something like that. The big thing is literally every single interaction with them reinforced this narrative. They constantly appealed to it, they constantly mentioned it, they used it to explain why they had specific gear or know things they talked about. In total absence of a truthful personality, they simply performed this identity with every waking breath. I felt dumb for it at first, but it's something they put a LOT of time and effort into. It was where all their effort went. Plus I appeared to be the first person who realized none of this shit added up. They also had multiple people around them reinforcing the whole thing the whole time I knew them. Part of why I say Hayden is integral to Worm's ability to go around doing this to people. They validated everything Worm claimed, up until we made that gc where we both poked holes in everything worm talked about amongst ourselves. Then, once faced with consequences, Hayden just rolled over and went back to validating/triangulating everything Worm said, evidently.

They really are vile. I remember when I first started getting close to them, they claimed they went through foster care. Said their brother was their foster brother. Also told me for a long time that they had DID when they were younger. I now realize they brought that up after I talked about my DPDR diagnosis on my old blog, so I think they did that to one-up me and deepen their made up Tragic Backstory. Both of those facts seem to have been bespoke, for my consumption. By the time I was leaving, they were literally doubling down on all the features of their tragic backstory as they told them to new people. Their made-up abusive coke dealer boyfriend who trafficked them and used them as a teen enforcer underwent mitosis and turned into two abusive coke dealer boyfriends. They were also not just a skater, and a street racer, and a jeet kune do practitioner, but they also became a surfer all of a sudden. When they were telling somebody from the SRA this stuff, I asked when they got into mercenary work. They said around 2010. I smirked, because, at this point, I had found a local news article from their home town from 2010. They were performing a rapping Shakespeare medley at the time. Not the kind of thing private security contractors do. What's interesting is they still regularly struck the crossed-arm pose from the photograph in the article. They'd do it to punctuate jokes about being cool, at times.

Again, though, what's fascinating about this is how everyone believed them without any actual evidence. They just manipulated everybody. When they'd talk about "moving bricks," they would specify the "bricks" were weed when around their wife, and cocaine when talking to anyone else. They said not to bring up anything about security contracting to their wife because she "doesn't know." Same for their mother. They'd lie about being into the same bands as everyone around them, but only one-on-one. I remember watching worm doing that with the guy they replaced me with, pretending they were some Linkin Park super fan and then going "oh I can't remember any of the albums names haha but trust me Im super into them." That was their trick. They'd use their tragic story about being a teenage addict with DID to say they don't remember the details of anything. But they'd also tell me that I'm lucky to have amnesia, because they "don't get to forget." They'd do that with everybody, about everything, the lying about being into the same things as them. When I first met them, they said a bunch of bullshit about being big into the bay area punk scene, which they absolutely weren't at all. Their wife was a big John Waters fan, and Worm would constantly pose as a John Waters fan, and I know they would actually for real freak the fuck out if they watched Pink Flamingos, cuz they would get weird about anything actually filthy in a movie. And they'd always appeal to their manufactured history of being trafficked to shout down anyone who didn't agree with their insane takes on sex and sexuality.

All this to say, they are an organism who has completely committed itself to lying and manipulation. They don't do anything else. They aren't capable of anything else. They fool everyone around them. They try and surround themself with people who actually know how to do things, and are smart and funny and creative and capable, and then they just absorb their personality and lay claim to their work. They absolutely did that with me. I only noticed how manipulative they were because I've been through the shit before, and I caught them trying to gaslight me and shit. I'm the first person out of dozens, even hundreds of people they'd perform this act for. People just aren't supposed to be that rotten. You can't really go through life suspecting that kind of thing because it's so outlandish and insane. But, sometimes, it's true.

But their little world is collapsing in on itself. They don't have much time left.