#cgvent

[mama-bun]

i’m so upset,, i miss my little one and it’s so horrible not being able to care for him.

[mama-bun]

no one talks about how it feels to be a caregiver with no one to care for :(( cgs are people too, some of us use caregiving as a coping mechanism

[mama-bun]

he probably thinks i don’t want to take care of him anymore…. i can’t with myself lol.

[mama-bun]

i’m such a bad cg

[mama-bun]

i probably don’t make him happy when he’s little…

[mama-bun]

that heart wrenching feeling i get when i feel so helpless and unable to do anything to make him feel okay

[mama-bun]

i’ve been in a weird headspace all day. i feel like perhaps i’m not a good caregiver, i probably don’t make him feel as safe as i should, i doubt i do anything right to help him because im so inexperienced with it and probably suck.

i don’t know why i’m feeling this way, i hate it.

[mama-bun]

the times i’ve spent sobbing worried about my little one…

the times i’ve stared in the mirror because i felt like ive failed him as a cg…

the days i’ve taken care of him and worried with everything in me that i’m not doing a good job…

the days where he’s big and i’m so proud that he’s able to do things on his own but at the same time i’m so awfully sad because my… baby is all grown up…?

why must being a caregiver come with these sorrows…? whenever i just wish to be happy watching my baby boy babble and tell me about his day…