genre ㅡ ⋆ angst? idk chaeryeong and reader is stupid shit in love
cw ㅡ ⋆ toxic relationship, curse words
word count ㅡ ⋆ 1.3k
synopsis ㅡ ⋆ love is a bitch, and so is she
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The downpour rain fell all over the city. Chaeryeong still on bed with her love in her arms. Again, you staying over on her place after the altercation you had with your parents last night, your mom to be exact. The unpleasant gaze plastered on her face upon seeing Chaeryeong for the first time should be enough, but you were madly in love with her you placed no interest on minding the fact Chaeryeong doesn’t pass your mom. Having a reality check, you do realize she was toxic, possessive, manipulative, and unrealistic most of the times. Being in a state of too drunk in love, what can you do about it?
“Chaeryeong is a fool and so are you.” Your mother said. Just when the words came out of her mouth, you stormed into your room. Locking the door and called for Chaeryeong to pick you up. It didn’t take long to spot Chaeryeong’s car outside your house. The windows were a safe route as an escape, knowing well your parents were on the living room, and would see you go out with your packed suitcase. Surely impossible for them to ignore you with that state, moreover the fight you just had with your mother.
Then the both of you went to her apartment, having a session of cuddles and Netflix before continuing to a hot session of make out and then sleeping in each other’s embrace.
Chaeryeong is wild. You thought that would be a proper word to describe her. Would go out to parties or club almost every night and went home without knowing the word sober itself. You weren’t such a party animal yourself, but is fine with the idea of Chaeryeong living her early adulthood as long as she’s careful and responsible of herself. You just asked for a few things and a few only; always control herself and make sure to not put herself in any dangerous situation, perhaps sticking with a sober friend who could be on her aid if anything happens. Knowing it might be impossible to do that while being intoxicated, you just wanted her to be safe. It’s not one or a two time thing upon having to bail Chaeryeong for doing some stupid shit which involved her to be brought to the police office, or not being available to contact, then waking up on random streets the next day. She always told you that it’s nothing serious, and she’ll always be safe. So stupid and ignorant of her to say that, you thought, it would always lead you both to an argument. A never ending argument.
“How can I keep control of myself while I’m drunk? Now you tell me. At least I’m still alive.” Chaeryeong said, full of anger. Her sharp glaze shot to you as you sighed in annoyance, and in defeat, shooting back a glare to her.
“You know what? Fuck this shit. Anything happens to you? Deal with it yourself. I’m done.” You burst back at her, full of anger as well. Collecting your things, you slammed the door shut right in front of her face.
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“Hey, it’s Lia. Your girl’s a mess. Can you pick her up?”
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The next thing you knew was you were driving to a club mentioned by Lia, one of Chaeryeong’s for-lifers. Lia kept saying Chaeryeong’s a crying and throwing up mess, saying she’s trash, and she loved you too much. While surfing through the crowd of the dance floor, neither did Lia or Chaeryeong did you see, but Ryujin, also a friend of theirs. Escorting you to the bathroom, you saw Chaeryeong cornered while crying, Lia on her side trying to calm her down. Thanking her friends and apologizing for bothering their fun, you then brought Chaeryeong out of the club. Bringing her back to her apartment, you placed Chaeryeong on the couch. It didn’t take her long to fall asleep, as you gently cleaned her. Her sleep talk accompanied you while you cleaned her up, saying she was sorry, she was trash, she loved you too much. You smiled at her, kissing her forehead before leaving to your house.
The next morning Chaeryeong appeared on your doorstep, bringing a bag of your favorite sweets and expressing her deep apology. The two of you kissed by the doorstep. A meaningful kiss that you don’t know wasn’t actually meaningful then led the both of you to your room until it got a little bit sloppy and handsy.
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Chaeryeong is very possessive and overly protective. Sometimes it felt like you couldn’t breath while having you under her supervision. Her eagle like visions captured everything you do, then interprets everything from her own assumption. As you can guess, it always leads to fights.
“The fuck are you wearing? Change that.” it’s literally burning outside, you might melt.
“You’re talking to other people now? How romantic.” that’s your childhood best friend you were talking to.
“It’s like I don’t matter anymore now that you replied to my text once every century.” you were taking a nap, how could you reply to such text.
You do love her, out of her possessiveness and unrealistic matters. She’s kind, loving, and affectionate. It’s almost a year since you started dating, and been almost a year too did the frequent fights you had with your parents for not wanting Chaeryeong to be your girlfriend. You knew they wanted to best for you, but the pain and the happiness, it’s all on you, you just can’t bring yourself to listen to them. You always thought that they should worry less and just trust you and Chaeryeong. There were also times where you thought about giving up with her, but every time the thought came up, Chaeryeong has always something that makes you love her even more.
The rain continuously pours outside, as you snapped out the waves of your thoughts about leaving Chaeryeong. Your eyes fell to her, who securely had her arms wrapped around you, soft snores escaping from her lips. Biting your lip, you gave her one last glance. Maybe if you left her now without making a lot of moves, she wouldn’t notice. Slowly and steadily, you wiggled yourself out of your embrace. Being a heavy sleeper, Chaeryeong shouldn’t notice this. You’ve made up your mind. No matter how Chaeryeong would react to this, this has to stop.
“Baby.” Chaeryeong called out in her morning voice, quickly wrapping her arms back around your waist. You sighed, looking back at her.
“Stay with me.” Chaeryeong’s heavy morning voice said, both her arms and voice holding you back from your escape. As if she knew what you’re about to do next, and she had already planned to reel you back in.
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“You’re the love of my life.” Chaeryeong whispered.
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The feeling is mutual, just like those times back then. Your heart beats every time you hear her voice, every time you received affections from her. You’re trying so hard to escape from the black hole of her affections, her presence, her in general. Will you crave for everything once you’re away from her? Will you miss this? Will you come back? Will you even survive without Chaeryeong? Without her love? Without her affectionate?
Chaeryeong opened her right eye, as if she was teasing you, as a slight smirk formed on her lips. Rolling your eyes, you groaned before slipping back down to the covers, to her embrace.
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“Love is a bitch, and so are you.” You said, turning around to face her. Chaeryeong closed her eyes, her arms now once again wrapped on you possessively and securely, her right hand rested on your hips.
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“I know, sweetheart.” Chaeryeong smiled, snuggling her face now towards your hair as she drifted back to sleep with the sound of downpour rain as the lullaby of the both of you to jump back to dreamland.
