#changing feelings

[kalahs-beautiful-realm]

[abrighterspark]

he must have been blind 

to have noticed so late...

now i’ll take my own side

and i’ll make my own fate

[ink-filled-storms]

I think about you a little less each day.

I know that it’s good for me, But I can’t decide if it makes me happy.

You slip through the fingers of my mind // E.M. - It’s always you #9

[superangeldelusion]

“Yoo Jung, when did you start to like me?” --Hong Seol

[bubsywubz-blog]

The more I think about it the more offended I get about it. I understand I did something wrong and understand that that’s definitely his space over mine since I obviously have less social ties there but likeee be responsible for your own anxiety and don’t put it on me to make a decision for you. I can respect the up frontness about it but it just left me with the awkward decision of how bad his anxiety is and how I should handle it for him. I get that he didn’t have what he wanted from the situation figured out yet but could he at least consider that that’s not my decision to make??

Why do I have to be the one to consciously consider all the anxious situations that could happen and figure out how I would deal with them when he doesn't? Why do I then have to be responsible not only for myself but for him not considering how he'd handle it and make a decision for him? I did something wrong but I know I don't deserve that weight. Maybe ask me if I'm going? Maybe tell me not to beforehand? Maybe just leave on your own or *at least* ask me to leave?

But I guess that’s what I deserve as the instigator? No respect for my possible anxiety about the situation? I find that hard to believe.