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Accepting my limitations is a constant battle for me. I’m interested in more things than one person could ever hope to do. My chronic conditions just make it all harder, forcing me to sacrifi…
From a chronically ill person To other chronically ill people and To friends and family of chronically ill people:
I think it’s important we all understand that friends and family of chronically ill people are likely to find themselves angry, annoyed, frustrated etc when we have to cancel/change plans, and that those of us that are chronically ill also feel the same way.
Maybe we’re upset with ourselves for having to cancel/change plans, and maybe our friends and family are upset with us too, but what I think is important to remember is that it’s not our fault. What we all are or should be really upset with is the illnesses themselves.
If you find yourself angry or annoyed etc with yourself, remember that it’s not your fault, and you shouldn’t be angry with yourself, but you are completely justified in being angry at your illnesses.
If you find yourself angry or annoyed etc with a friend or family member who has cancelled or changed plans because of their illness, remember that it’s not their fault, and you shouldn’t be angry with them, but you are completely justified in being angry at their illnesses.
Regardless of whether we are chronically ill or are a friend or family member of a chronically ill person, we should all be allowed to feel our feelings about the situation, whatever they may be, but we need to try and be aware of where we are directing those feelings. And if those feelings are misdirected we shouldn’t feel too guilty and should make sure to redirect them to the illnesses rather than the person. And we shouldn’t feel guilty for having those feelings at all I’m the first place.
Chronic illnesses fuck you over again and again, and affect those around you. If you’re chronically ill, remember that those around you will be affected in one way or another. If you’re a friend or family member, remember that however angry you are at their illness, they are too.
You are allowed to decide you do not want to follow the career path your parents have been pushing you to take since you were a child. You are allowed to decide that you aren’t actually going to use the degree you spent years earning.
You are allowed to change your mind about what you want from life after you graduate, after you are already a grown adult. You are allowed to believe that it is never too late. You are allowed to do something for yourself for a change.
You are allowed to ignore all of the people who tell you that following your heart is a bad idea. You are allowed to ignore them when they say you are not good enough to succeed. You are allowed to ignore them when they tell you to give up.
You are allowed to take risks, even though you might end up running low on rent money each month. You are allowed to follow your craziest dreams, even though other people might judge you for it. You are allowed to follow your passion, even though you might go through hell before getting what you want.
You are allowed to live a life that makes you happy.
You shouldn’t wake up every morning and hit snooze. You shouldn’t count down the hours until your work day is over. You shouldn’t dread Mondays. You shouldn’t wish for vacation. You shouldn’t hate what you’re doing for a living. You shouldn’t spend forty hours a week miserable.
You are allowed to be brave and take a chance. You are allowed to have faith that you will one day succeed. You are allowed to do something wild. You are allowed to chase after your craziest dreams.
(Source: thoughtcatalog.com)
Bucky Barnes x Reader
Changing plans, Part One
Summary: You’ve met Steve Rogers a few days ago and he tells you all about his best friend Bucky, who’s kinda into you. Ever wondered how the first date with him would be?
Word Count: 1196
Warnings: Maybe a curse word, mentioning of smut, kissing.
A/N: Omg, I fell in love with this story myself and I hope you will too! There will be a part two soon
Friday morning
‘’Come on, Buck. It’ll be fun and you still owe me one so…’’ Steve said with a smirk on his face, taking a sip of his drink as he gave his best friend your number. Bucky rolled his eyes fondly and sighed, the corners of his mouth curling slightly upwards. ‘’Fine, I’ll ask her out. According to you, she must be amazing.’’
You’d met Captain a few days ago in Starbucks. He asked for a cappuccino, you recognized him and after spending your free time with him, you eventually gave him your number after he had told you about Bucky.
You had just finished cleaning your small apartment when you sat down with a cup of coffee and your phone buzzed. It was a text saying;
Hey, it’s me, Bucky. Wanna have dinner with me tonight at seven? I’ll text you the address.
When you read it, you smiled without knowing it and bit your lip as you thought about what to send back. After a few minutes, you’d made your mind up.
Hey. Steve told me about you. Sure, sounds good. See you soon ;)
Bucky was looking for a good restaurant with Steve when you texted back, gasping. ‘’Dude, she sent me a wink!’’ he said enthusiastically and showed Steve his phone. ‘’I told you, she likes you,’’ he murmured, a smug look on his face which made Bucky gave him a gentle push against his shoulder. ‘’Idiot.’’
Friday Evening
The time went fast and before you knew it, it was 18:30 and you had just showered and was currently applying lipstick. You sighed in relief as you finally succeeded without looking like a clown. You quickly dropped your towel on the floor and opened the door, breathing in some fresh air as you entered your bedroom. There were two outfits lying on your bed and you had no idea of what to wear. It was either a fancy dress with heels or casual jeans with your favourite blouse and sneakers. ‘’Ugh, I don’t know,’’ you murmured to yourself and sat down on your bed until you decided to go casual, hoping Bucky wouldn’t take you somewhere too fancy.
You were a bit disappointed by the time it was seven o’clock and your date still hadn’t texted you, wondering if he had forgotten you but then you got another text.
‘’I can’t believe that you almost forgot to text her, Buck,’’ Steve said as he laughed a bit, shaking his head. ‘’I’m just way too nervous, okay?’’ he replied and hoped he wasn’t sweating too much again. He had showered two times and almost choked in the amount of deodorant he had sprayed on himself.
Sorry for the delay. Time flies by, doesn’t it? I kinda changed my plans, can I pick you up?
You frowned a bit at the text and hesitated for a while but was too curious of what the new change in his plans was so agreed and you gave him your address, knowing you could trust him and Steve. Ten minutes later, your doorbell rang. This was it.
Bucky had left after he had received one more pep talk from his best friend, appreciating his worries but Steve had no need to. It was all gonna be fine. You opened your door excitingly and smiled widely as you scanned Bucky’s appearance. He was wearing jeans with a white shirt and a blazer that suited him well. ‘’Hey, come in,’’ you spoke happily, leaving the door open for him as you walked to your kitchen to grab a beer for him.
‘’Hey! Oh, right,’’ he replied and closed the door, hesitating to sit down but when he was about to, you came back and chuckled. ‘’Please, sit down,’’ you assured him and he did as you said but still avoided eye contact. ‘’Thank you for the beer. How do you know I like that?’’ he asked but he figured out soon.
‘’Steve.’’ You and Bucky both say and laughed, feeling a bond already. ‘’So, you suddenly changed your plans, how come? Are you expecting to get laid?’’ you joked and observed him for a bit.
As he heard your words, Bucky spit out his mouth full of beer all over your table, blushing heavily. ‘’God, I am so sorry,’’ he stated and stood up but you giggled and quickly went to get a towel. ‘’It’s fine, don’t worry, Bucky. I can be a little overwhelming sometimes,’’ you explained before sitting down again.
‘’Right, yeah, no, that’s great. I, uh, I have a surprise for you, actually. That’s why I changed my plans,’’ Bucky told you and tried to stay calm and forget your ‘joke’. ‘’I was thinking about taking a cab to the park and have a nice picknick there?’’
Your eyes widened as you managed to put your hair into a messy knot, noticing Bucky kinda liked it that way. ‘’Wow. A picknick, huh? That’s romantic. Yeah, that sounds good, let’s go,’’ you murmured and grabbed your coat and scarf, taking Bucky’s hand.
It was a beautiful night. The sky was clear and a billion stars were shining upon the world. You and Bucky had enjoyed the food he had purchased before picking you up and were now lying on the grass, enjoying the sight as you held each other’s hand. ‘’I’ve never done something so spontaneous, Buck,’’ you said calmly and shifted a bit closer to him, shivering. Bucky’s lips formed into a smile and noticed you were cold so pulled you closer, on top of him. You gasped in surprise and chuckled, happily snuggling into him. ‘’You’re pretty confident now, huh?’’
‘’I have no reason to be insecure, do I?’’ Bucky asked and hummed, feeling your breath in his neck, his stomach tingling. He was in love. ‘’Y/N…’’ he began and sat up slowly, holding your waist so you would stay. You sat on his lap and wrapped your arms around Bucky’s neck, biting your lip and before he could say another word, your lips were touching his. The kiss was very gentle and lovingly at first, the two of you getting used to each other but soon, you were ready to take another step and you pressed your tongue against his lips, asking for permission. Bucky opened his mouth slightly so you could slip your tongue into his mouth and wonder around. His taste was like you’d expected, sweet. He pulled you even closer until there was no space left between your bodies and began to play with your tongue, laying back down on the grass, his hands moving to your back. After a minute, you pulled back to get some air and smirked, pressing a kiss on Bucky’s nose. ‘’Changing your plans was the best thing you could do,’’ you murmured and sighed in satisfaction, placing your head on his chest and he grinned. ‘’I’m glad I did but to be honest, you should thank Steve for the idea,’’ he admitted and looked at you with a casual smile.
‘’I will. But first, you’re getting laid,’’ you whispered into your date’s ear and pecked his lips before standing up and running to the car, knowing he would follow you soon. And he did.
To be continued…
Acts 16:10 Change Of Plans
Now after he had seen the vision, immediately we sought to go to Macedonia, concluding that the Lord had called us to preach the gospel to them. Acts 16:10 Plans are made all the time by most people. Once made, very few like to have to change them and do something completely different. It is difficult to change up a plan, unless it is for something that is dramatically different and better.…
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Chapter 28 update
Word Count: 1118
Words I wrote today: 179.
As usual, as I wrote, I decided to change my initial direction and now we're going to harken back to an old theme: Wang Jin is mortal.
Tonya Sherwood · Song · 2022
Tonya Sherwood Gave Her Skilled Touch To The Amusing Track 'Changing Plans'