#chaoticdiary

[justastaygirlblogger]

Me watching the boy I like flirt with another girl after flirting with me

[justastaygirlblogger]

Accidentally NOT thriving through boy chaos 💀💅🏽

Soooo… there’s this boy I’ve known forever, let’s call him “G” 😭💖 He’s always been a little flirty, even when I had a whole man, but lately… It’s like he leveled up 😏 hand holding longer than usual, calling me a goddess, dropping “one of the prettiest girls I’ve met” lines… like sir, slow down 💀💅🏽

But plot twist 👀 — last week he suddenly got super close with “R” (that’s the new girl I noticed) WHYYYYY😭 Now they’re chatting alone, sitting together… and my chaotic brain is like, “Wait, do I even exist in his attention map???”

i like G, obviously, and yes i wish he liked me back 😭💖 but i also told myself i’m focusing on surviving IGCSEs, so i gotta keep thriving… accidentally 💀✨

honestly… i don’t know if he’s just flirty, genuinely into me, or into someone else. i could:

keep observing him quietly and see how he treats me vs. R 👀

keep my boundaries and focus on my IGCSEs ✏️💖

casually ask him what’s going on if my brain can’t handle the suspense 💅🏽

vent here like i’m doing rn because sometimes chaos therapy works best 🌸💀

Let me know what you think I should do, and if you'd like more of "G's" tea. Life is messy, boys are confusing, and apparently my heart is still in the “delulu main character era” 😭💖 Surviving boys, thriving accidentally 💅🏽✨

— Nova Rae 🌙✨