I will be resetting this muse.
I can't do this anymore. I can't play him like this, it gets too hard and too unpleasant. Too much shit had gone down.
Learning that he wasn't as important for a person he valued so much, as he thought, was the last drop, and I've been thinking about this for weeks, and I've come to a conclusion.
Starting now, I will be changing this muse back into the canon Mana.
Which means I'm turning him human again, because playing him as a semi-au vampire has brought nothing but hardships, (I will be contacting my directories about this), and I will be erasing and altering most of his in-play memories, because those things just turn him depressed and bitter and I just can't fucking do this anymore.
Basically, I'm turning him into the canon Mana; as he used to be when I started playing him two ad a half years ago.
Not everything will be erased and some stuff will only be changed, and if our muses know one another, don't hesitate to approach me out of character to agree on terms, how it will affect their relationship, and what will happen, and what has happened.
Most people will probably get a fresh start though, especially if the real Mana doesn't interact with their real face in the real world (people like Kamijo, MM and MdM members, etc).
If my muse has caused you shit in the past (he does have enemies), and it is an important part of your character's backstory by now, please do approach me for agreement on how this is to be handled. I do not want to meddle with your backstory too much. Same goes for important positive relations, even though I doubt he had that many.
So far, this is not permanent. I will try to see how it goes and how it makes me feel, and if it works out as I want it to, I will make it a permanent change. If not, I may step down. May. Because this character really is toxic to me now, and chances are that if it doesn't work out, I will just delete.
Thank you for listening and for cooperation, and for the consideration of my own sanity and my enjoyment of my character, I wish you happy roleplaying.