#character talking

[peridotporygon]

i think people forget just how much of a weirdo lapis also is. she is not the normal one SHE AND PERIDOT ARE BOTH WEIRDOS!!!! she’s just as much into camp pining hearts as peridot is (she’s just not as vocal about it) and she literally reads manga and she’s a weird modern art fan and she thinks fart jokes are funny. let’s give it up for WEIRD GIRLS EVERYONE

[hopepetal]

Dear Diary: Oscar, Janet, Charles and/or Günter

Jesus Sapph you really want to kill me don't you /j 

OSCAR 

Dear Diary, 

Things are going very well. I pleased my father today. This may be enough to keep me from being beaten tonight, but it certainly isn't enough for me to eat. I'm starving. My younger sister brought me food for a while, but once father found out, she was dispersed and I was whipped. I miss her. 

My brother is excelling in everything, as always. He has never gotten punished. He's perfect. I want to be more like him. I want father to praise me like he does my brother. I want to be perfect. Why must I only get noticed when I do something wrong? 

My fangs are growing in. It hurts. But I won't complain. Demons don't complain. My father will bathe me in holy water if I complain. I hate holy things. They hurt. That's why they're bad.

Father is calling me. He sounds angry... but he always does. I must go, otherwise I might get hurt. 

JANET 

Dear Diary,

I fell asleep outside today, while watching Mary and Artie play. I didn't even realize I was tired. I hate myself for being so weak. It's been years since I was rescued, why am I not better yet? I really worried Artie, he's so young and he doesn't know why mommy is so tired. I'm scared I won't be able to protect my children if I have to. 

Günter found me and brought the kids and I inside. He told them that mommy needed to sleep and that he would play with them after he put me to bed. I woke up a few times, but I was so tired that I couldn't even move. 

I'm scared that one day I'll fall asleep and I won't wake up. 

CHARLES 

Dear Diary, 

I've failed her. I've failed my darling Jenny. Every time I think I've found her, I'm wrong. Braith tells me that she must have died, but I don't believe that. I can't believe that. I don't want to. It's been over a century since the incident, and everyone else has given up. 

At least, everyone except William. I grieve for him. Not only has he lost his sister, but he lost his father as well. Auguste and him were very close, and Janet was even closer. I can't even bring myself to talk to him. I'm a failure, how could I even look him in the eyes? I should've done something better. I should've been able to stop what happened. 

Braith says I should stop drinking so much. I don't want to. It helps with the pain. It's better than opium. She agrees with that, but she keeps insisting that I should try to cut back on the alcohol. She tried to hide my stash once. She did not do it again. Why am I such a failure? 

GÜNTER 

Dear Diary,

I've finally done it. I've proposed to Janet. She said yes, and is currently celebrating with her mortal family. I'm so happy. Charles may not have approved but I love Janet. I love her so much. I'm going to protect her with my life. 

Hanna was happy for me. She practically raised me, so of course she was excited. I'm sure papa and vati would be proud if they were here. I miss them. They're here in spirit. I know they are. 

Janet is calling me over. I must go now.

[peridotporygon]

rip lapis you would've loved dog motifs, phoebe bridgers, laika, car seat headrest, codependency, midwest emo, abandoned buildings, deltarune, energy drinks, smoking, guitar hero, minecraft, black cats, yearning, bioluminescence, being an older brother in the year 2007, wolves, and bedrotting

[peridotporygon]

yeah this character's autistic. no i don't really have a reason to say that. no i swear i'm not projecting.

[peridotporygon]

peridot steven universe is just like me because i too am an ipad kid

[peridotporygon]

there’s something that makes me so insane about lapis and peridot’s growth and the way they’ve deviated from their original purposes. how lapis got into art and she creates things when she was made to destroy planets. how peridot was so convinced that earth could’ve been an amazing colony and grows to love the life on it and love gardening. i have more thoughts on this but im really tired just give me a while

[peridotporygon]

you🫵are not immune to my random spontaneous lapis rambles and projection and angsty song lyrics