#chattering crowteeth

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agoraphobia is sometimes just really needing time in your safe house to recharge after a brave day of being outside

didn’t realize how long i’d actually spent outside my room today until I came back in and felt like I could finally relax and feel totally safe for the first time in a while

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:))) I love BPD. Love feeling competitive and jealous and incompetent for fucking no discernible reason with no clear way to fix it bc all attempts to do anything just drain me. jsdflkadasfwgr can i just have normal emotions please 

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Alright Im calling it this is OCD. The “pure O” type or whatever, I think? Sometimes I get compulsive type stuff but it’s rarer and milder I guess? So I dont really notice. No wonder it took me so damn long to figure it out.  Now I can actually find some damn ways to cope with it maybe. Or at least some #relatable things. Just finally being able to sort this part of my shitty brainstuff is nice. Helps me process it and figure out what to do with it.

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Partner: If we go to P-Town we have to visit my uncle's grave, thats the rule, sorry.

Me: That's fine I like graveyards and I'd like to meet your ancestor.

Partner: Oh! Yeah I forgot you were goth for a second. xD

Me: ...... 乁໒( ͒ ⌂ ͒ )७ㄏ how tho

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TFW “i shouldnt have gone in that tag why did i trigger myself i knew that was a bad idea and i did it anyway wtf is wrong w/ me”

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self care is taking breaks from weed to do dreamwork

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resisting the urge to delete everything I wrote between the hours of 8am and 9:30am to remove all traces that i ever had an Irrational Emotion

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As if I wasn’t already triggered by intrusive thoughts, I realize after bout 20 minutes ive been sitting here dissociating and looking at shit that triggers me on purpose n was totally not conscious of it.  OTL