#chattering skulls

[littlenecromancer]

Mother Nature: oh happy birthday! Here’s your present!

*Period starts*

Mother Nature: Also, something a little extra~

*horrible cramping, exhaustion, and crippling depression*

Me: i don’t think you understand what a gift is

[littlenecromancer]

Wish me luck everybody, this gay asshole is gonna learn to DRIVE!

[littlenecromancer]

So yesterday night or early this morning I guess; I had my first episode of sleep walking. Things I did while sleep walking:

Grab a bag of tortilla chips and eat them

Make cup ramen

Reply to my dads question on to why i was cooking late at night with a “yeah” and his subsequent question of if I woke up to do this to say “I haven’t slept” while SLEEP WALKING

Drain and filter the oil from when I made fried ravioli

Manage to spill some of my cup ramen on the floor

Text my dad

Finish the cup ramen and part of the tortilla chips

Plug in my phone

I don’t l remember doing ANY of this and just put together the pieces after waking up today.

[littlenecromancer]

I marathoned the entirety of stranger things 2 today and it was perfect, amazing, awesome etc. except for what happened in episode 8... Overall amazing

[littlenecromancer]

I love it when my family sits there and sings the gospel of “what I should be doing” for my dads care without actually knowing that I’m two steps ahead of them and already started on all this shit.

Like it’s easy to tell someone what to do because then you don’t have to actually do it and can pat yourself on the back like the caveman you are.

“Grug do good and tell niece she need Power of Attorney.”

Said niece already has the paperwork for power of attorney but, it needs a notary to sign it and witnesses not involved in his medical practice (or one who benefits from it). It’s a bit more complicated than you know, Grug.

Also said niece WORKS a full time job and her manager just scheduled her for seven days straight and said niece really needs the money cause otherwise we are fucked in the ass and I’ll probably starve.

It’s real easy to sit there and think you have all the answers to worlds problems when you yourself only see them with a half blind eye.

[littlenecromancer]

I sound so desperate during job interviews like I’m constantly dropping hints that I have a) no social life

B) no commitments or responsibilities

C) am a desperate loser who needs money and to get away from her dad

D) am free almost 24/7

Hire me pls

[littlenecromancer]

Hey guys, remember those kittens I was taking care of before?

Look at them now with their families!

His name is Boone now

His family says he is a giant glutton and big cuddlebug and that makes me so happy to hear!

Kaia, the little girl who had stolen my heart all that time ago is still the rambunctious little thing she was before:

I’m really glad that they are doing so well.

Thought I’d share!

[littlenecromancer]

theres a pretty high chance my dad might of had a stroke last night. He’s been falling a lot, weakness in his legs, slurring his speech, etc. I called the emergency services because he fell and could not get himself back up and i couldn’t pull him up (he’s 195lbs and i can lift maybe up to 50 lbs on a good day). He refused to go to the hospital and the fire department people had him sign that he refused to go to the hospital against medical advice.

He fell again twice today while I was asleep and his speech is still slurred. He’s seen his doctor on multiple occasions and theyve been putting him on new meds and all this high blood pressure stuff. Also his blood pressure was like 260/100 last night so theres that too.

He’s been declining since october and I’m pretty sure he wants to let himself crash and burn. Since Mom died he’s been... just absent and now I’m pretty sure he’s letting his health decline on purpose.

I can’t force him to go to the hospital and there really is nothign I can do. I don’t have my license (I probbaly could get it if I went and tried but I still don’t know how to parallel park and I’m afraid of failure go figure) and I don’t have a source of income. So basically everything is fucked and I’m probably going to be an orphan by the end of this year. Or I’m going to have to spend several months taking care of a dying parent again like I did with my mom and her cancer.

Everything is going to shit and I just needed to talk about it for a second.