My Deepest Sorrow (Kylo Ren X Reader)
A/N: Hi guys. This is gonna be my first ever online smut so please don't judge me for it. It's 15+ as well. Welp, hope you all enjoy. I'm honestly a little nervous. 😖😬😧
Btw, Ben is aged 23 and Y/N is 22 in here.
Under 15s, please do not interact. This is a 15+ smut which could easily shock you so please be careful with what you read on here if you aren't prepared for all these horrors. Thank you for understanding.
Also, please don't steal any of my work though, unless I allow you to use it. All Rights Reserved.
Warnings: 15+ stuff, bloody horrors, over posessiveness, cheating, swearing, depression, unwanted harm, smut, oral sex, flashbacks of drugs and smutty and bloody influences.
Ben had never felt so hurt in his whole life. As if his one and only Y/N would have ever betrayed him like that. And it was her fault too to why he became this ruthless, merciless monster, Kylo Ren.
She was the only person he was ever able to have made a true connection with throughout his entire life. His parents didn't give a single shit about him at all and just automatically left him to his own devices.
He was still deeply in love with her, but through this vision, he remembered seeing Y/N and her blasted, bloody boyfriend, Alex Whisletone who she'd had an affair with. Ben and Y/N were officially due to get married until that annoying, ugly Alex boy stole his truest property off him!
He wanted to capture and kill Alex. Get out his lightsaber and take off his clothes, slush his dick off him and then strike down his entire body in his anger. Also showing his head to the Dark Side then zapping it down. And that was going to happen. No way was he giving up.
But the only problem is, would he really get Y/N back like that and especially that she knows that he's on the Dark Side now after killing all his jedi classmates by destroying the Jedi Temple?
At the moment, he knew that Y/N was having the most wonderful time with Alex. He was drunk after drinking too much poisoned alcohol without realising it. Yet he was making Ben's own property laugh and squeal with excitement.
He was forcing his dick inside of her making her feel super duper good. Alex loved that feeling while cumming inside of her so much.
Alex also kissed her lips, cheeks, forehead, neck, stomach, nipples, arms and legs sooooo hardly, giving her hickeys everywhere. Y/N did the same to him.
They also licked and sucked their private parts which really got to Ben. He remembered the first time he did that stuff to Y/N and he was a lot more gentler than that passionate, daredevil Alex who had a terribly bad influence on his own personal, beautiful, luxurious property.
Ben felt like punishing Y/N by forcing himself inside of her and making her private part bleed. He'd bite her and lick her everywhere. Maybe he'd eventually kill her with his lightsaber for leaving him?
No, no! He couldn't do that to her! No! Whether he had become dark and evil or not, he just couldn't.
A part of him did but a part of him didn't. He was emotionally conflicted and torn apart at such extreme levels that he just couldn't take anymore. All this stress of possibly Bipolar Depression was taking place right now.
In the present moment, he was in a technology room practicing his dark deeds. Until someone came bustling into the room.
It was Ronny Turnoff, an ordinary member of his dark gang.
"My Lord, my Lord. I've managed to capture someone. In fact, two people. They are both jedis and are both married. Alex Whisletone and Y/N L/N. Do you know them?"
Suddenly, Kylo came rushing by using the Dark Side of the Force to move Ronny out the way mercilessly. Just what the fuck was wrong with this depressed and damaged dude?
When he arrived at the entrance of his master, Snoke's door, he came in and found Y/N and her evidential husband, Alex chained up with her. He didn't like that. His overpossessiveness, pure anger and hatred towards Alex wanted to do loads of malevolent things to keep them apart forever.
He knew very well that Y/N could see through his thoughts with the Light Side of the Force. He really did.
"Welcome back, my worthy apprentice," Snoke began to speak.
Y/N looked shocked when she saw Ben. He wasn't looking at her and was very focused on the current situation.
"Thank you, master. I needed to speak to these two."
"It is so believed that they are two strong people who would easily defeat us, but no way will they now! We have won! All you need to do is kill them both!"
"Yes, my worthy master."
Ben grabbed the chain that Y/N and Alex were attached to and pulled them out super hardly. They were both already dying but Ben didn't care about that.
When they were just outside the entrance to Snoke's hall, Ben had a plan he came up with.
He got out his passionate and furious red lightsaber and had just sensed that Alex and Y/N were drunk with blood everywhere. They had evidently made each other bleed while smutting each other.
"I know what I have to do," Ben softly spoke, getting ready to kill Alex who was shaking and preparing to do something, but what?
"Ben, no, please." He began while panicking.
"Don't you dare, Ben!" Y/N strictly spat at him.
But it was too late. Ben struck Alex through the neck before Alex could even save himself. He did some highly bloody and detailed stuff to him which brought such powerful hatred to Y/N against Ben. To see him treat her husband like that.
Her powerful training with the Force broke the chain and pushed Ben away with it into the ceiling. She cried as she saw the blood of her beloved and smutty husband going everywhere.
But somehow, Ben managed to break free, turn off his lightsaber just in time before killing his girl, grab hold of Y/N, capture her then smut her so much and take her over to the Dark Side. Thankfully, while he smutted her, his anger calmed down and it became very gentle.
Y/N now felt terribly sorry for what she did and rejoined him and promised him that she'd never do such a thing again. It was her deepest sorrow she had ever committed in her whole life. She now despised Alex for tempting her over to him.
And with that, Y/N became his Queen and both betrayed the Jedi Army...
A/N: Nooooo, idk whether to regret writing this as it contains such horrible things. This is based on things I have written in my story 'Lost (Ben Solo X Reader)' on Quotev. But no way is all this going to be included in my story by a long chalk!
I'm so sorry if it harmed you in any way. Besides, this is my first time I've ever written some form of smut. That's why I made then ending far less detailed. But next time I write something like this, it definitely won't be as horrible as this, I can assure you.
But anyway, thanks for reading and please don't get nightmares over this. I may even change some of this one day in case it upsets a lot of people which I am deeply sorry if it does...
