May 28, 2017
I must be a failure of a human being. Can't really express what I'm trully feeling.
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I must be a failure of a human being. Can't really express what I'm trully feeling.
Chibzies
Ever changing
You think you know yourself but then your feelings change and you don’t understand anymore.
Is it hormones? Life choices? Education? Environment? Something you ate? What you were exposed to? The people around you?
Your mindset just changes over the years. Lose yourself in the world or find yourself... maybe all of the above. But then, some will leave because you changed into something they no longer find necessary so you have to change again to acomodate.
Everything is ever changing, whether you see the changes easily, or not. Still. The flow of life continues and so should we. Move on. Stive. Survive. Create. Find meaning. Live. Evolve.
True to myself
So much cruelty, anger and evil out in the world. I hope to remain gentle and friendly even though most times I feel really down about many things. I do have bursts of anger more frequently lately, which upsets me to no end. *sigh*
Mint chocolate icecream
Can’t help liking the bad guy in some series. Finding out about a tragic past makes me sad for them, but also want to smack them for being a total reckless, mean, cruel, selfish, senseless arse...
My general concern...
When something is fundamentally wrong but some still do it, it vexes me. I really want to know. Because I do not want you to misunderstand me or for me to not truly understand you. I want to... understand more. I am here to listen.
What have YOU gone through to NOT FEEL bad (actual true soul crushing sorrow) when you harm anything/anyone physically or mentally?
Do some get born without Empathy? Or is empathy something that must be taught?
Captive soul...
I am captive in my own mind. Behing my own walls. Put there by myself. After being continuously forced to not be my true self because it does not comply with current standards of society. Slowly suffocating...
I have stopped believing there might be anyone out there willing to put the effort into making doors in my walls, opening windows and calling me outside, only to know the true me and allowing me to become the splendid creature that I was meant to be. The free spirit that I was born as. And the beautiful mind that is still struggling to survive behind it’s own lies.
Long time no see~
Lemme get this off 1st. I’m going to write a lot here, (or record myself and post if possible) so... sorry if you’re not into text posts, but though I did make another tumblr a long time ago for texts I’ve too little time to take care of all things I got online so... it’s kind of like a tumbleweed blown in the desert
Hope you’re all doing great~ And if not, HANG IN THERE! KEEP AT IT! DO YOUR BEST! NEVER STOP TRYING!
Wow~ I miss tumblr, but let’s just say that it’s too filled with NSFW stuff, though I enjoy the casual ‘reasons why I followed’ things you share sometimes, it’s just waaaay out of my daily routine, which is mostly work, sleep, conflicting daily pains and more work or sleep.
Have I put my life in order and that’s why I’ve been away?
Nope. I’d wish, I would have to have more free time for that to be real, but no. Maybe soon, not yet, not this year, or the next, but that’s life. Expecting and preparing for the worst whilst hoping for the best.