#childcare worker

[ranger-august]

I’ve been reading RA out loud to the kid I work with (which is why it’s taking me so long to get through) and now I need to find a new book to read to him because there is no way I’m reading the part where Will and Cassie are in Skandia to him. I’ll continue reading them once I’m past that part

[itsrazzledazzletime34]

As an early childhood educator with everything going on in America, I am so angry at the people running my country right now. My heart is broken, and bitter and I feel so disgusted. I truly cannot fathom the evil taking place.

[ranger-august]

I went to put on music and muscle memory deemed that I click the unpause button for whatever I was listening to before. Issue is the song I was listening to before was “Old Macdonald” from when the kid I work with requested it earlier today

[barefootbaltimore]

Today I told my therapist that I fear the judgement of my grandchildren when they ask me about these times and events and I tell them "I had to go to work." and she said something that I want to share with you.

She said change and breaking cycles of violence in our personal lives and in the world can't always look like these big emotional displays. Most of the time these cycles break by putting in the little mundane work that you have to do every day.

She said that's why you come to therapy every week even when nothing "bad" has happened.

She said that's why you care for children, and give them a strong attachment while they're young. You lay the foundation for them to continue breaking those cycles later.

I feel powerless but the world doesn't only need people who can bulldoze through problems. The world also needs the people who serve them food, and clean their clothes, and raise their children. I think of all of the children I've helped raise and the care I put into guiding them and loving them. They are my contribution to the world I want to build. They are the next generation who will be compassionate, and will be powerful, and some of them will be bulldozers and some of them will serve the food and that's okay.

[constantlychangingfandoms]

I love working with toddlers but when one wakes up ALL THE OTHERS in the MIDDLE of nap

Makes me want to kill a man

[call-me-maggie13]

The worst part about working with kids was that they didn’t understand the vine references

[kingmojomonkey]

Starting a new job tomorrow, wasn't meant to be starting until the 20th of Jan and I am so nervous. They rang up because someone is sick and theyre short staffed which means I'll be doing 7/8 hours on my first time inside the creche (ive never seen the inside of it, done my interview in a separate building). Also potentially because im covering someone that is normally full time i could be in charge of 8 children whom I've never met before, rather than in two weeks time when i was meant to start part time where I'd just be assisting inside the room.

However if they ask if I can work next week I'll have to say no because of my exams that was the whole reason why i said I'd start on the 20th so i would have time to study and actually do my exams without worrying about my new job.

Because my last creche was managed and organised so bad, I'm also apprehensive of how they are going to be in here, but hopefully because it is a completely different form of service (and has proper overall, however not creche specific, management) it will be better.

It does not help though that i rebegan taking all my meds two days ago because i thought it would be settled and in routine by the time of exams, now i have to work tomorrow and feel slightly dazed.

[southernmistake]

even in the midst of a terrible depressive episode

i still have to get up every day

and put on the biggest smile and calm energy to fool 14 children.

i have to make sure they feel safe and happy and comfortable. when i feel none of those things.

and like whatever that’s my job

but like… think about how difficult that sounds. i’m falling apart and i have to abruptly stop and wait until the day is over, because i’m their safe space for 8 hours a day. 5 days a week. if i show a single bit of weakness or stress it throws them off. they sense it. they know. they’re smart fucking kids.

i shed a single tear today in the middle of a child having a fit. 5 out of the 14 stopped and just stared at me for a minute. then i was overwhelmed with hugs and children saying “what’s wrong” “what happened” “you okay” “what’s wrong????????”

i told them that my eye was just watering. for those 30 seconds, the vibe in the room shifted to panic. then suddenly, it regulated again when i lied and told them it was nothing.

they need me to be on 100% all the time. and i’m exhausted.

i have no purpose on this earth

i’m tired of being a burden

and i wanna fucking die dude

but here i am

preparing my brain for the next 8 hour day