Lookā¦ if I canāt laugh, I canāt cope. If I canāt cope, I canāt heal. Iāve seen people on the edge of death still make jokes and smile, Iām not even close to that yet. When my uncle Ernie was sick, while getting him ready for the hospital, he joked with me saying heās gonna need a side car for his motorcycle so Jose and Niko can take turns and drive him. I told him shut up Tio, and we smiled. I remember when my Tio Dan was sick, and at my cousins wedding I remember telling him, āyou looks so handsome in your suit Tio!ā He smiled and said, āThank you my Leenie weenie. Next time youāll see me in this suit Iāll be like this in my casket.ā He then closed his eyes and crossed his arms like Dracula in a coffin and I couldnāt help but giggle and then say, āTio donāt say that!ā He smiled at me hugged me and said, ādonāt worry baby, weāll all be okay.ā So I joke and say stupid shit, just like my Tioās did. So god forbid anything happens, yāall can say, Leenie was still her crazy ass self til the end. We donāt know whatās gonna happen, maybe Iāll survive, maybe I wonāt. But thatās life right?! From one day to the next we never know if weāre gonna wake up or be here. Just know no matter what, itāll be okay. I love you guys. Stay positive with me, laugh with me and when Iām down, slap me and say we got this! If you read down this far, thanks for listening. I love you! Sending blessings to all. Love peace and manteca grease! -Lady J. #FuckCancer #TheJourney #LadyJBeKillinIt #LaughWithMe #ChingonaChicanaNative #ImReady https://www.instagram.com/p/CYqAsFKrFPJ/?utm_medium=tumblr