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I guess since this blog is turning into some sort of personal-ish + my fav interests blog (I might as well turn it into one.). If you’re more interested in my art and hobbies alone, follow me at @kovffee both in twitter and instagram and new blog @kovffeee on tumblr!

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Twitter:

https://twitter.com/kovffee

Instagram:

https://www.instagram.com/kovffee/

Tumblr:

https://kovffeee.tumblr.com

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Kovffee / Chinoo

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I wonder how people cope with loving either a dead or underrated fandom?

I have always enjoyed interacting with people about my interest— I admit I sometimes get too invested in them— but when there's little to no one to interact with, it sort of gets boring.

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Just baked cookies a while ago! I'm so proud of my cookies (~￣³￣)~

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Thank fuck

There’s a lot of things I have learned in the last 3 years and I doubt it’d stop there. For once, I think I am better than I was before. I’ve learned to accept certain things in my life and I’m on the process of making peace with them. 

My relationship with the people I care about is getting better. Granted, there are still some things I’ve not yet admitted- nor acknowledged, but baby steps, amirite? 

God, that break was well worth it. It was like I have finally replaced those rusted incompatible gears with the right ones. It feels freeing of sorts. 

I’m sure I’m bound to face a fuck ton’s worth of shitty moments- that much is inevitable, life’s funny like that- but I’m better than I was before. I’m healing. I’m learning to love the little things I used to hate. That’s what matters. 

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There’s this completed story that I’m currently reading and I’m way too hesitant to read it all in one go, because the category that the story is under is extremely underrated and there’s barely any fics in it. I fear if I read it all, there’d be none left to read and fics as rare as that needs to be cherished. 

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Hey, So to my Followers, I apologize in advance. If you followed me for regular content and think that I update every other day or two, I feel the need to say sorry.

I thought I already had everything under control, but it turns out I don't. As I struggle the need to do what I want vs the need to do what must be done, I lose myself. Everyday, I tell myself that I'd do something, I'd convince myself that everything is okay and I'll be productive. But then I end up doing nothing and I just berate myself. I feel guilty, I feel terrible, I feel bad.

It's starting to drive me insane.

I want to change. I want to be better. I want to take care of myself and give myself some me time without the need to worry about this kind of stuff.

I realize that posting every so often is not an effective solution, at least for me. I realize that I may need to go on a hiatus for a month or maybe even longer. Just enough time for me to recover without having the need to beat myself up. I need to DELETE THIS APP and re-download it ONLY after I truly get my shit in order.

I am truly sorry.

To the people who supported me and still does, I am grateful. I want to express my gratitude in advance. The moment I post this, I shall delete this app, so I probably won't be able to see your comments (until after a few months or so).

Thank you everyone for your support. I hope I can do something for me to repay you. But before I could, I hope you understand my decision to prioritize my mental health (and overall health in general) before any kind of short-term luxuries.

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I'm actually feeling pretty guilty. I jumped from one fandom to another without a warning. I hope you guys don't mind this sudden change of interest.

Still, I thank the people who continuously support me despite this change. You guys are amazing <3333

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Hehe, it's alright but thank u. It rlly helped me and gave me some courage.. Thx again for the advice, I just need to be patient and love myself I guess. Thank u very much! ❤️~My support.

No problem ( ◜‿◝ )♡

Thank you so much for your support <3

NOW go and give love to yourself and have fun 😁😊😊😉😉