#chloelife

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France. Source: https://bonjourfrenchwords.tumblr.com/

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Challenging myself - changing the direction

How would you react of realizing that what you've done for the last 4 years, the direction, chosen path you've struggled go through - almost all were wrong, and you should do something urgent to change it, and most importantly, that you are still on the point zero to start from?

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Short poem

Found this in one’s profile on a dating site/app: “Hay magia en las miradas, conexiones en los besos, vibraciones en los reencuentros y hogar en los abrazos.“ I’m afraid its magic will disappear because of just trying to translate it.   

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I found it in OkCupid. Posting it because I’m the same :))

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Thinking loudly

Actually, I’ve got a lot what to say... or maybe, not so much... Alright, yes! I want to say a lot - at this case, I’ve got no one to whom I can say it. Although the one thing, the one thought that came up in mind now, and I just don’t want to lose it, is sudden realizing that I wasn’t happy before. In that, past life... that was happening like with someone else... Surely, there were moments, a lot of them when I was excited, but happy... Maybe, anyways, I was happy? Even when I felt something like this, I cannot recall it now. There was so much damage that even there was happiness ever in my life it has been destroyed.

“I remember damage. Then escape. Then adrift in a strangers galaxy for a long time. But I’m safe now. I found it again. My home.” Station Eleven. 

I want to find my home...  

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Nothing of linked these two image with each other besides it is a certain reflection of at least a part of my inner state now/today - admiring robots and  almost incapability to choose and make next step in a row of failures.

(these images aren’t mine - just found them somewhere)

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Tuples and arrays

Probably, now is a time when a feeling that I’m walking through the bog while doing something means that, anyway, I’m on the right way. It’s hard. I must go through it, and there is no bypass for it. December 14th, 2021.

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I’m reading... anyway

Laozi: ‘Depression is living in the past, anxiety is living in the future, and joy is found living in the present.’

Source: Aeon / Radical acceptance. By Joshua Coleman.