#chloepoems

[chloetara]

One, I strongly suspect, a dude Said: "Clam and blue Just breathing and no clue Solitude inside out Wading fog no doubt Smile and joy long gone Just living on and on." I wasn't agreed with him a whole: "But I can't just live, No one is coming. I can't even just to die, Then it left me only - to fight. That tremendous long play and I should as you're right To find How will I enjoy the light That we all assume As our life."

©Chloe Golovleva, February 21, 2021, Buenos Aires (CABA), Argentina

[chloetara]

***

What can I say while trying

The very line to end,

The every sentence

With the word - “again”…?

Again, again, again, 

What can I say

That never said before?

What can I do?

I haven't promised back then,

Nothing, just have been telling you

I will, I will - and yes, I do.

Until what moment?

Till my own end.

***

Words, thoughts, and doubts.

Again.

It’s definitely struck on me - 

As evidence of running in circles.

Doubts - impossible to count times.

Thoughts - a myriad, and all the same.

Then go words.

I want to shout, I want to howl.

I beg. I ask.

I wait.

Again.

©Chloe, January 13th, 2022, CABA, Argentina

[chloetara]

***

You'd come, you've gone.

Despite banality of how,

I should've asked for where -

Are you here?

Will you be here?

Once or more again?

You'd come, you've gone.

Wish you be here, please,

Once or more again.

©2021 Chloe, November 26, 2021

[chloetara]

Reality call

*** I've been looking again for myself. Which will the talent I choose? Which one do I have? By picking, and touching, and thinking again, Till only thought that I should, Or even I must, or rather - compelled, Did not leave the room for the next Circle of doubts that I can't.

ⒸChloe Golovleva, August 17th, 2021

[chloetara]

[about “Our part of the night” by Mariana Enriquez]

It's just for read when you get bored. As like for fun, but not so much - It should be serious they claimed. And were themselves as such By giving her a prize.

[gift inscription to Julita] ©Chloe Golovleva 2021, March 19, Buenos Aires (CABA, Argentina)

[chloetara]

***

"You need to be loved." He wrote once, I hit to reverse: "I do need it, of course! I'm sure that everyone needs - to be loved, To be an entire, a universe for anyone else."   I keep it in mind as only picture of life, Which should start and to last with a love. I keep it in mind as very picture of life, And keep trying and trying again Firmly have it, And urgently search if I lost.

©Chloe Golovleva 2021, March 18, 2021 Buenos Aires (CABA, Argentina)

[chloetara]

Kurt Cobain said: “Come as you are, as you were As I want you to be....” So I can add:  That I want you to be Always happy, And always with me!

© Chloe Golovleva, September 20, 2020, Buenos Aires (CABA), Argentina

[chloetara]

I suddenly realized that I'm still all alone. Regardless I have social connections, and there are people who tell me every time that they are with me. No. I'm alone. And those people rather wrong... but I have always waited and still keep waiting only one person on this planet. It's so hard to be all alone. So hard constantly to fight with myself, through depression, anxiety and ADD trying to build myself for the life, but there is no life without her... without Love. I think, I'm giving up again...

©Chloe Golovleva, September 15, 2020, Buenos Aires (CABA), Argentina