wait……. so did jedidiah not? bring him back to life? or did he try to? and just not expect it to work after so long? the end got me a little confused……..
ok so. please treat me like im stupid and explain it to me if im wrong but…. Adam was explaining all of the stuff that happened and it was all true right? or else jedidiah wouldn’t have reacted that way. he would’ve just fully denied everything…. Adam’s whole goal was to get sydney to kill himself right? um excuse me but. WHY? just like a power trip? there has to be more to it than that…. maybe because sydney was brought back to life? and that makes him powerful or some sort of .. like. conduit? for like the ceremony with the storm? im not sure if im missing something or if there are still like. gaps that havent been filled by the narrative
IM SO HAPPY THEY TALKED!!!!!!!!! i loved the dialogue. how you could tell they were both trying so hard but struggling with articulating their thoughts UGHHHHHHH!!!!!!! i am such a SUCKER for awkward dialogue that is my JAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i listened to half of this episode getting ready for school and the other half before/during my first period. i was fuckign TWEAAAKING OUTTTT. i was SHAKING and fuckign rocking back and forth oh. my god. this episode put me through it. AND THE ENDING WITH WHEN SOMEBODY NEEDS YOU PLAYING HOLY SHIT I NEARLY CRIED I NEVER GET THIS EMOTIONAL AAAAAAAAAAAAA
WHO WANTS TO TALK ABOUT FILE 67 WITH ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WANNA TALK ABOUT IT SO BADDDD!!!!!!!! (spoilers under cut)
was adam talking in latin??? I took like 2 years of latin in middle school and that sounded like latin…. also the LORE DROPS about his past!!!!! no wonder hes so gay!!!!!!! hes from ancient rome!!!!!!!
natsume oh natsume………. ive always been a natsume appreciator, but now i LOVE him!!!!!!!!! the monologue about being scared about being trans in high school…. its ok boy… youlll make it i promise!!!!!!! (especially if its not in the south!!! its rough down here even at the queer ass art school i go to!!)
the my chemical romance !! the jack stauber!!! so goated!!!
speaking of which……………. I wonder when adam like… went away? cuz there was no way he was , like, among since like 400 BC. was he banished in some way? seems like he went through some pretty bad shit and now he just!! harbors resentment against everyone? am i reading that right? am i crazy?
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Just listened to ep 58…. Bro i feel SO BAD FOR JOSHUA !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The whole theatre motif throughout the whole episode. The guilty explanations of his thought process. The struggle to explain said thoughts. The tag team bad faith interpreters. Gosh i love this dude. He definitely reads as neurodivergent. At least to me. I relate really heavily to a lot of the performance aspects he talks about. (So much more ranting under the cut)
Bro really when “im a cis white guy and im doin fine in life. I dont mind if people make fun of me, especially people who have gone through experiences my position makes me privileged enough to have not gone through” and these two went “SO YOU THINK YOURE BETTER THAN MINORITIES” like ok he can like waffles and pancakes leave him be… (i definitely do understand why the two of them think hes coming off as being condescending and rude but like. Dude. What hes saying makes sense if you ain’t tryna change his words every other sentence <//3)
Also Jedidiah BLATANT misconstruing of Joshua trying to help Sydney after he threw up made me SO ANGRY. Jedidiah is getting on my last nerve. Like he OBVIOUSLY wasn’t trying to take advantage of him get out of my face. This made me so angry. Like imagine being a good friend and helping someone who really hates you CLEAN VOMIT OFF THEMSELVES after they THREW UP ON YOU cuz of how drunk they were only for someone to imply you were trying to get something out of them…. Like what the fuck?????
Im not a Jedidiah hater or Joshua lover, but…… like this episode made me MAD. Also Yvonne…. Im mixed. It’s a bit funny to think of Sydney being a master manipulator, and i really view Sydney to be much more a victim of circumstance than anything.
(Tangent) Also. I mean. Outside of the fact Jedidiah did some necromancy bullshit to Sydney after ahem murdering him and there’s probably sum magic shit making them unable to part yada yada whatever, there’s also the fact Jedidiah has an INSANE amount of power over Sydney. The power dynamic is fucking crazy. Imagine your boyfriend’s mom being your boss AND your caregiver AND the person who provides you housing AND is also a massive bitch. Like that in itself is insane. If you break up on bad terms you lose your ENTIRE LIVELIHOOD. Sydney has no out. No family to go to. No life outside this. He’s literally as trapped as can be…. This might be the subject of another rant post….
Back to Yvonne— she seems like very cruel to Sydney in a way he hasn’t really reciprocated? Like, whenever she gets the chance Yvonne will make fun of Sydney, but i dont think hes ever made any jabs back. They were friends in college and. To be fair. Sydney seemed like a real asshat then. But like… it really seems like he holds no resentment to her. But also maybe im missing something? This rivalry really seems one sided. And then there’s the fact she seems so keen on defending him when Joshua says something. Like bro YOU WERE JUST CALLING HIM SOME MASTER MANIPULATOR WHOS BEEN FUCKING WITH THESE TWO FOR YEARS and. Oh no. Joshua is ok with being insulted?? I dunno its strange to me…..
I hope none of this comes of as me fully admonishing Sydney of any guilt. We all know hes a bit of an asshole. He really can be mean…. There also MUST be more bitchyness off screen cuz why are there so many references to “all of camp hating him”?? Like they mostly jsut seem concerned?? I dunno… i think thats is!
God I LOVE Joshua…… nothing can make me hate my cis white boy. This episode is so fucking sad and raw and upsetting. Now we have a confirmed love…. Shape. It’s a shape or something
Honestly Joshua is probably WAY better for Sydney. Hes definitely a bit naive and hopeful but it’s really sweet. Poor Sydney… i really wanna know what he would do if he wasn’t in this awful. Um. Situation with Jedidiah (Im referring to the whole murder magic thing. Not their relationship).
Poor Sydney being used to being sexualized :(. This makes me really sad. Joshua was DEFINITELY fucked up for being so weird about Sydney. But i mean. People can and do change a whole lot. Learn from their mistakes and such.
God this episode was so good i will never listen to it again.
