(Rewrite) - U.M.R. (FYL) - Every Decision Has a Consequence… Every Mistake Has a Cost - 8/8
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Sorry, this took so long. Had a block and then stuff came up. But bloody finally, it is finished. But won't be surprised if I come back to change things. Brain is semi-displeased, but I think I made it end on an adequate note.
Will future rewrites come to the other fics I did for this AU on my Tumblr? Maybe~
Also, a little warning of Maker broaching a little too close to the punishment abuse the Elders like to inflict on the Chosen.'
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It was several hours later when Jy-Sol began to stir from a dreamless sleep.
Eyes closed tight, with a faint headache strumming along, she stretched out like a cat, flaring out all her digits. A few joints let out a few crackling pops. She froze for a second when she felt something tighten around her waist; strong with faint softness. Something else danced across her naked back before sharp pushes dug in. Then she felt a faint prickly sensation press against her stomach before the murmurs began.
What…? What? For just a moment, she activated her psionics and reached out. Oh, right.
With another stretch, her eyes slowly fluttered open before she looked down. Holding on to her as if she would slip away like the wind was Bradford. He looked to be in deep sleep and was muttering something.
Gently, she placed a hand on his head, fingers rifled through his hair, before she started to probe at their bond of connection.
Exhausted. Content. A million plans running through his mind concerning everything he was missing back on the ship since the incident.
Work never ends. She heard it repeated in his mind a few times, catching glimpses of other memories tied to the notion. She snorted at that. Something she dealt with constantly. But her flat nose soon scrunched up when she sensed something that concerned her.
“Hm…” It was faint, but she felt those feelings he had for her. The old and the new. Neither had faded. They felt more impassioned before and deeply intertwined with each other.
She let out an annoyed sigh. “We fell on the wayside. I fear I may have made this worse. We don’t need this. You don’t need this.”
Then she gleaned something else. Concern. For a moment, her lips pulled back into a grimace, causing her to bare her sharp teeth.
“Wait…”
She gently probed at the feeling some more. A frightened concern. Fear, sorrow, and a hint of anger riddled every part of it. As she probed at it, she wheezed when Bradford’s grip tightened around her, and his nails dug deeper into her back. She grimaced more as she felt a pull on her psionics, digging deep into her being.
This pull… Is the connection still going?
“Sorry… I’m so sorry we couldn’t find you sooner.” He muttered the words in his sleep. “What did They do to you? Why? Why?”
Her eyes narrowed. “I wonder…”
It only took a little tapping to find the faint connection that was glowing brightly in their bond. A bond that had also strengthened.
That’s… not good…
As her mind was adding that to the list of concerns, curiosity grabbed at her. Why was it still going? And what could have strengthened it? Just as she was going to press into it to explore it and see what was disturbing his sleep, she relented.
I don’t want to violate that tentative trust. And my gambit may have already shattered it.
She closed her eyes as she wondered where their conversation would go once he woke up. Would he be furious? Annoyed? Or understanding? And how would Asaru weigh in?
Just let there be no violence.
As her mind formulated plans on how to deal with the possible futures, another part of her brain was examining herself. She felt… strange. There was still that programmed indoctrination raging in its cage for what she had done, but she felt a faint shift in those aspects of love that were supposed to be seared out of her. It felt as if something was there now, slowly growing and blooming. And she felt subtle connections to memories she didn’t remember existing.
She touched her chest. “Strange…” Something to explore later.
She let her mind dwell on the new and confusing feelings before she decided to worry about them later. It was time to get up, which was its own hassle.
“No, don’t go. Jynn… please…” A faint plea came from the sleeping Bradford as soon as he felt the faintest shift and push from her. “I’m… I’m sorry…”
His grip tightened around her waist, and that tail wrapped around her for good measure, too.
Her nose wrinkled, even more so at the name he used. She had a feeling their talk was going to be tough.
It took a fair amount of finagling and gentle pokes with her psionics to get the man to release her. She had to swiftly pull herself away, nearly stumbling out of the bed, before those arms closed in once more. Once out of bed and standing, she stretched again.
She fetched her plug-suit and tossed it over her shoulder; that needed to go to her armory for a quick maintenance check and cleaning. She found Bradford’s pants and placed them on a nearby chair.
“Let me freshen up, and then I will wake him.”
As she was heading to her bathroom to freshen up, her hands were slowly going over her body. She faintly hissed as she rubbed her shoulders and then her backside.
“He’s rough with those nails. And I think he may have bit me on my shoulder…”
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She meditated while taking an icy shower. As she did so, she poked at the new memories. Something from the old her. They were less fragmented than she had expected. Some more glimpses of her childhood, a funeral for her grandfather, and her time leading XCOM. All featured certain key personnel heavily. Bradford was one of them. And then a ghost of an alien that would sometimes catch a glimpse of in the mirror, or lingering around one of the Sub-Commanders, before shifting back over to her. She quickly deduced that it was most likely Asaru.
She let out a heavy sigh. “My predictions were terribly wrong. My gambit may cost him dearly. Their… Our friendship was much closer than I assumed…” She paused. “Why did I say that?”
She searched within herself again. She still felt distant from her old self, but as she poked at those memories again, she felt an odd fondness for them. They were comforting.
“Hm…” Is this the shift I was seeking? Was part of this gambit a boon for me? That was something for her to delve into deeper at a later time.
She picked at the memories for a little while more before she finished her shower.
Drying herself off, she slipped into something more casual. A red form-fitting top with black lines, and loose black pants.
“I wonder if he’s awake?”
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Before entering the main chambers, her mind tapped at the facility’s Network to see what was going on. The facility was functioning as usual. The Avenger was still stationed in the Docking Bay. Then she found the chatter concerning her whisking away Bradford. People were not happy. Corvo and the other figureheads were struggling to keep everything under control. Maker’s assurances that the two were still within the facility barely quelled anything. Which wasn’t helped by the Elder’s own simmering annoyance towards her that he did not hide, nor could he. His shellbodies were burning out faster than usual.
I expect to get shot the moment I step near the Avenger. And Maker is going to have his own punishment for me…
The former barely bothered her, but the latter. Eyes slowly closing tight, her mind brought forth an unpleasant memory. It did not deal with her, but someone else. Someone who had betrayed Maker’s kindness and trust. She learned he had the capacity to be cruel like the other Elders, if not more frightening.
Her body trembled, recalling their screams as a torrent of corrupted psionic energy ripped through them.
I wonder if that fool is still alive? Were they a double-agent since the beginning, or did the other Elders promise them an elevated status if they pried into Maker’s work? I understand why Maker scrutinizes anything that comes from the Others and why he has his own production facilities…
Returning to the main chambers, her ears were greeted by snoring. Then she saw him all curled up, tangled in the sheets — a little bit of his tail stuck out and smacked against the bed every other murmur. She shook his head but couldn’t help but softly laugh.
“Cute.”
Slowly, she sat on the side of the bed he was mostly facing. The faint give in the mattress made him snort.
“Hm…? Jynn...?” He mumbled in his sleep as a hand began to pat the cool space around him before slowly going over to her.
She wrinkled her nose, hearing that. This will be such a problem. Time to wake him.
Ignoring that searching hand, she leaned over and stretched out a hand to touch his shoulder. She was just a few inches away before she suddenly found her hand coming to a stop as an invisible force pressed against it.
Her eyes narrowed when she felt the press back. It wasn’t forceful, but matched her strength. Just as she was about to activate her psionics, several tentacles manifested around Bradford, one of which was underneath that hand.
“Asaru?” She asked with a faint hint of surprise. She withdrew her hand.
There was no answer at first. The tentacles stretched out in a searching pattern. The bulbous tips glowed bright as faint dots of electricity flickered up and down the translucent appendages. One wrapped around Bradford’s searching hand and dragged it back. A few went over to her and hovered dangerously close to her body.
Jy-Sol let out a few grunts as she felt the alien push and pull on her being before those tentacles retracted back over to Bradford.
“It is I,” Asaru finally answered. “I believe your offer may not have worked as you planned for John.”
She closed her eyes and took in a deep breath before letting it out slowly. A faint nod followed. “I believe my prediction probabilities were off.”
“I believe that is an understatement.”
“How so?” Her dry tone made clear that the question was entirely sarcastic and rhetorical. A faint chortle came from Asaru.
A few tentacles tapped at Bradford’s head. “I’ve had time to analyze the blur of memories and emotions from that little impassioned escapade and where his mind and body are currently as he rests.” A sigh slipped out as Asaru knew the headache of a conversation he was going to have with his host later. “It has only emboldened his feelings and deeply intertwined the new and old you together.”
“Mhm.” Jy-Sol chewed on the inside of her lip. Something she had noticed earlier with her little probing. “Shouldn’t it be one or the other?”
“You would think, but I believe he sensed part of the old you resurfacing for just a moment or found something deeper within your being. Whichever it was, it inflamed his heart.” A tentacle drifted over and gently tapped at her chest. Once it moved, her hand moved there. “A faint change you have detected in yourself, yes?”
“I… I’m not entirely sure. I’ve had more memories come back together, but I still feel distant from Jynn.”
“And the new feelings?”
She froze for just a moment. How did he know? The thought only lingered for a second before she recalled the probing he did, and possibly just a faint imprint of her emotions was left in her bond with Bradford.
“I… I don’t know… Everything feels strange to me. Foreign. It is all…” She paused as her nails picked at her chest. Should she say it? Something that was anathema to her making, for she was to be an instrument of such an emotion. “Frightening.”
Asaru let out a faint mhm.
Tentacles drifted back over to her, but didn’t come as close as they did the first time.
“This little leap off the edge has triggered another turmoil within yourself. Something else that grates at your remaking and indoctrination as it burrows in like an invasive weed, but grows like a freshly sprouted and tender seedling.”
Jy-Sol only replied with a faint mhm.
A faint blue glow appeared around Bradford before it grew into a blinding light as if it were the rising sun. Jy-Sol had to turn her head away and raised a hand to block it.
As quickly as the light came, it disappeared. As she turned back, she gasped.
Floating softly in a cross-legged position above Bradford was Asaru. She had never seen the alien outside of its host. She had glimpsed him from time to time, briefly overlaying Bradford’s body during those interrogations against her, a few memories she pulled from him and some captive XCOM soldiers, and her own fragmented memories. His appearance was much more breathtaking than she could have ever imagined.
“You reveal yourself to me… why?” She asked.
“It is long overdue.” He said. “And perhaps a test to see if you recall what I look like?” He gestured to himself.
She scrutinized his form. A thin frame, four-armed frame that reminded her of the Elders. And that’s where it ended. Everything was so much different. He almost seemed incorporeal. His near-translucent appearance and faint glow made him look like a ghost.
Is his species distantly related to the Elders? Besides his power… is that another reason why They wish to capture him?
Her eyes lingered on his form for a long time as she searched through her memories. They found a few fragments — some of her most damaged memories — between the years before she had been sought out by XCOM and just before she was given full control over the organization. There was something there. A meeting. A faint imprint. A ghost lingered just behind two people before they fully emerged and properly joined the conversation. As the memory attempted to move further, it shattered and crumbled into incoherent nonsense with interference from her “new” memories.
She shook her head. “I believe no. The memories are distant or removed.”
Raising a hand to his head, he tapped at the bubble membrane as his skull shifted back and forth.
“Hm. A shame. Though…” A tentacle floated over to her head and stopped just an inch away. “I believe a deeper search may reveal something. As I said before, I sensed a shift and perhaps something more... I wish to explore it.”
She eyed that tentacle. Her fingers drummed against the bed. Throat trembling, she looked away. “Would that be wise?”
“At this exact moment? No.” A faint chuckle came from the alien. He gestured lazily with his hand. “I would prefer to examine it in a more secure and controlled setting. I know nothing has happened during your sessions with the Templars, but I have a faint warning gnawing at me that this exploration may cause your psionics to respond negatively or your former Masters will detect it and interfere.”
She looked away when he mentioned the Elders. A hand went up to her psi-helm. One gift from Maker that started her down her changed path. A gift that let her have more “free thoughts” and privacy against the Elders. A gift that allowed her to push Them out and sever her connection to Them.
Is it truly severed? She could feel Their touch linger on her being. Just a faint connection of Their power that was still intertwined with her, even though her true powers had been pushing it out over the months. No… I am still bound to Them until They or that is destroyed…
Feeling that her mind wanted to tread into a dark and inevitable future she did not want to dwell on, her mind shifted back over to Bradford.
He needs to join the conversation. I just wonde— wait…
A memory came to mind. His strange reaction to one word.
“I have a question.”
“Yes?” Asaru said, head tilting to the side.
“Just as we were on the cusp of the edge when I believed John would reject my idea after he… sensed there was more to my proposal…” She hesitated to admit her minor deceit. “He had a strange reaction to one word I said.” She pulled at the memory to recall it better. “At first, he was confused before he began to laugh and grew excited. As if all hesitation and concerns evaporated.”
Asaru tapped at his head as if he had lips. “Hm. Curious. What was the word?”
“Cher.”
Asaru let out a brief hm. His skull jittered about as he searched his memories. A few tentacles hovered over Bradford’s head, their tips glowing a soft blue and yellow.
“Huh…” He inclined his head to the side, slowly tilting it to look at Bradford; the inner floating skull rotated faster. “Huh…”
Asaru made a few more musing noises as more tentacles shifted over to Bradford. The man grunted in response to the increased probing, but did not stir from his sleep. Jy-Sol watched with a curious eye, but said nothing.
It wasn’t until several minutes of silence that she finally spoke up.
“What did you find?”
He didn’t respond, but a tentacle floated over to her and gently pressed against her head. There was a faint tug that made her wince.
“Asaru.”
“A moment.”
A few more minutes passed before he finally turned his attention back to her.
“Interesting…” He mumbled to himself. A finger was still tapping away at his head; he retracted the tentacle pressed against her head. “To answer your question, the word ties back to the human you. Cajun French from Louisiana. It escapes me at the moment if Jynn was born in that state, but her father was, and he had a rather thick accent, which bled onto his children.” A little laughter began to seep out as he began recalling some memories from their old bond. “From what I can remember during our bond, when she was rather tired or frustrated, the accent would come out in full force. And that’s not including the Japanese she would slip into and pepper it with rather choice words from other languages she knew.”
“Ah…” She slowly nodded. Her mind went to work processing and comparing the information. Eyes drifting back to Bradford, her nose wrinkled. This is worrisome.
She let an annoyed, pained sigh slip out. “He’s believing in something that isn’t there… That doesn’t exist… anymore…”
“I wouldn’t entirely say that.” Asaru tutted, waggling a tentacle.
“Asaru…” She let out another sigh. “You know from what I have told and from what the Templ—”
A tentacle pressed against her lips, silencing her. As quickly as it touched her, she pulled back and snarled, furrowing her brows as her eyes glowed fiercely.
“Calm down.” Asaru made a threatening jab with the tentacle. “You give in to despair concerning your past too easily.” He began to explain, making a few gestures towards Bradford. “Though recovering your former self looks bleak, there seems to be more beneath that fragmented surface.” He then pressed a tentacle against her chest. “That an… unorthodox… method roused from the depths, pulling at old strings from our bond to do so.”
As that tentacle pulled back, Jy-Sol touched where it once was on her chest. Those strange feelings fluttered inside her, making her stomach twist. Eyes closed tight, her fingers drummed against her like the lightning-fast thrusts she would make with her glaive.
Is what he said true? Why… why do I feel this way? Part of her wished she could cut it out and cast it away. It was too troublesome.
“I… I feel like John should be privy to this discussion.”
“Let me wake him,” Asaru said.
The tentacles, some hovering and others pressing against the man’s body, began to brighten. More grunts came from Bradford as he slowly began to stir.
There was a great deal of shifting before an arm wriggled itself free from the twisted sheets and swatted at the offending tentacles.
“Stop that, Asaru,” Bradford grumbled.
“Time to get up. You’ve slept enough.” Asaru said with a faint tease as he jabbed at the man several more times before quickly pulling back his tentacles as that angry hand came back around to strike at them again.
Bradford grumbled some more, wishing for just another hour’s worth of sleep. He curled into himself and let out a low groan as he rubbed his face. It took him a bit more before he started to groggily raise himself, fighting with the sheets he had tangled himself in like a spider’s web.
“Whaaaat’s so important that you can’t let me sleep longer? Is Maker wanting to do more bu—” Just as he was rubbing the last bit of sleep from his tired eyes, before he finally recognized where he was. Eyes darting around, they fell on Jy-Sol.
Right… The evening was coming back to him. His tail twitched. She’s dressed… A part of him was disappointed by that. Just the fleeting thought of him wanting to touch her bare flesh intimately again crossed his mind before Asaru shunted it out. And looks… concerned.
His head slowly turned to look at Asaru. The alien made a few flicking gestures with his tentacles.
Just give me a few details. Bradford sent a thought.
It is layered. Deals with that little romp you two entertained. Asaru answered.
You are never going to let me live this down, are you?
As you said ages ago, I’m the annoying sibling you never asked for. Asaru playfully teased. Sooooo, no. There was a faint jitter in his skull.
Smartass.
With a rough clearing of his throat, Bradford looked back over to Jy-Sol. What to say? What to say?
“H-how are you doing? I hope I didn’t… kick you out of the bed?” He noticed he was practically sitting in the middle, hogging all of the sheets.
A faint smile graced Jy-Sol’s face. “I am doing… fine.” She didn’t mean to hesitate; it just came out naturally. “You didn’t. In fact, I had to fight to get out of bed. You’re rather clingy.”
Red tinged his cheeks. “Uh, s-sorry…”
“How are you feeling?”
“A little sore…” A faint grunt slipped out as he craned his neck. “But otherwise fine.”
Feeling that tension of awkward silence rising, Bradford knew he was going to have to bring it up. He could faintly sense she was lying about being fine.
She must have some thoughts on how things went… Wonder how she feels about it… Hope I wasn’t too demanding… Or did she see what I saw during our connection?
His mind briefly focused on the sex, which was surprisingly good, before it switched over to something he caught due to their psionic connection.
Let me talk about that. Ignore the sex talk for now…. Mostly.
He pulled himself over to her, pausing when he noticed her tensing. Just for a second, her eyes took on the intensity of a predator studying its target, attempting to figure out its next move before they relaxed.
She must think I must be… He didn’t complete the thought as a mental sigh took over.
“About what we did…” Searching for words, he chewed on his tongue.
Hesitantly, he reached out and touched her hand; she tensed again. There was a faint contraction in her muscles as her hand shifted, but never pulled away.
“I’m… sorry if I got too handsy or demanding.” He could faintly recall that he was still touchy off and on while they had sex, and when things finally cooled off before passing out. His hands were so demanding as they continued exploring her body. Pressing. Caressing. Gripping. Clawing.
“Barely a bother.” Jy-Sol dismissed his concerns. “You had your needs that needed satisfying. I just hoped I was able to answer that to the degree that was sufficient.”
He was about to say something else, but her nonchalant attitude threw him off. Just a faint snort slipped out as he raised a brow. “… You’re making it sound like a business transaction.”
“Am I?” She inclined her head to the side. There was a faint pull on the corners of her lips. “Maybe,” she shrugged, “it is akin to the ‘quid quo pro’ work you frequently do with the Resistance.”
Bradford’s brows twitched again at her blasé attitude. Did she feel nothing? Does she feel nothing? I swear she felt something in that connection…
An abrupt mental thwack made him wince before important details from the discussion with Maker were shoved to the forefront of his mind.
He turned his head ever so slowly to glare at Asaru.
Asaru made a few flicking gestures with his tentacles. Focus and get on with it. Think less about the adventurous romp and more on what is trying to rebuild itself.
I know what I felt. But Maker’s words were filling that doubt in his heart. And I will!
He took a moment to pinch the bridge of his nose and grumble a few more things at Asaru before looking back at Jy-Sol.
“Ignoring that…” Half the comment was directed to Asaru, and then what she had likened their sex to. “I… I think your dangerous idea helped and—”
“Helped?” Jy-Sol nearly choked on the word; her eyes widened as she drew her head back. She fought the innate urge to sneer; her lips twitched as her upper lip wanted to curl.
He raised a brow. “Helped and… complicated things. Really complicated things…”
“Helped?” She couldn’t help but question that again, almost ignoring what he said next as she expected that to come out first.
His eyes became hooded as he let out an annoyed sigh. Fighting a storm here… From what I sense, that was locked up before the act…
Not giving her a chance to react, he moved closer before he wrapped his arms around her and pulled her close to his chest. He rested his chin on her shoulder, lightly pressing the side of his head against hers.
“It’s… It’s hard to explain.” His voice dropped into a low whisper riddled with pain. “But… You’re still in there. Despite everything They did to you… You are still in there… just… just torn apart,” his voice cracked, “and buried deep. I’m so sorry we couldn’t find you in time, Jynn.”
Jy-Sol didn’t return the hug. She froze, hands hovering just a few inches from his body. She cast a glance at Asaru, who only shrugged and gestured for her to do something.
“What are you talking about?” She asked. “You can’t be saying that because of one word I uttered?”
Bradford didn’t immediately answer. It took him some time to pull back so they were face-to-face once again. As he did so, he released his grip and shifted his hands to her face. Gently caressing it as he studied her features, ignoring the increasingly puzzled look, with a hint of frustration growing in her eyes.
“Our… our connection. That little bond I try to ignore...” He began to explain. “It showed me… so much. You… You’ve suffered so much… Asaru and I glimpsed that over the years, even more in those… interrogations.” Within a few blinks, tears were running down his face. “I’m so sorry.” He pressed his head against hers. Those hands dropped back down, wrapping around her once again to hold her tight. “I’m so sorry. How long were you calling out to us? To me?” His voice trembled. “As those Bastards tore you apart day and night…”
“What are you talking about?” She received no answer.
She stole a glance towards Asaru. Explain to me what he is rambling on about?
Asaru was silent for a while. A few sparks of energy cascaded throughout his head as his skull shifted away from her gaze for just a moment. That is a… complicated subject.
Find a way to shorten it. Her thoughts were demanding.
Asaru stretched out a few tentacles towards her and touched her head. The tips glowed a dull blue as they pressed against her skin.
This will be unpleasant. Asaru gave a brief warning before a few trickles of electricity traveled down the tentacles as they began to glow brighter.
Jy-Sol dropped her hands down to the bed before she almost reflexively gripped Bradford from the sudden, painful shunt of information into her mind.
Her vision went dark for a little while before the shared memories ordered themselves and began to play.
It was Bradford, Asaru, Geist, and others in various locations. ADVENT facilities and high-security storage vaults. Various overgrown or desolated places on the Earth. And some of XCOM’s auxiliary locations; some had survived over the years, untouched by the desolation that befell the Bases. But at each location, it looked like Bradford and Asaru were tracking something. Chasing ghosts. Chasing her.
At first, she was a little confused about how the other locations factored into this, as she had been in the Elders’ hands since she was captured, but as she watched, she began to understand. Each location had a strong concentration of psionic energy and had varying levels of her psionic signature deposited there.
Just traces of her conciseness, traces of memories that had escaped the confines of the hell she had been subjected to over the many, long years; the first few months to years having her brain scoured as the Elders practiced Their common standards on nearly all of Their slave races. Sometimes, partially aware when plugged into the Network. Other times, partially aware when she was pulled out for “maintenance” or further experimenting and “improvements.”
Each trace they would find would bring forth a haunting image, a nightmare that had plagued Bradford for many years since he rejoined the remnants of XCOM.
Find me.
Hearing that frail, trembling voice of her former human self chilled Jy-Sol’s blood — she could feel the same feeling deeply embedded in the memories for Asaru and Bradford. She could see herself. If she could even call the emaciated and broken body her own to begin with, or even human. Her form seemed to flicker back and forth between various states. Some were much worse than others. Some showed signs of Hybridization and her eventual conversion into a Chosen.
I know the process to create my siblings and I is not kind… but this… Did any of them go through this? Jy-Sol questioned, keeping the thoughts to herself.
She continued to watch the memories. Watch as it seemed Asaru and Bradford could react to the faint psionic projection of her broken self and comfort her. The embraces never seemed to last long enough for Bradford’s tastes.
I… I have no recollection of any of this. Jy-Sol tried searching through her mind for anything like this, but only drew blanks. Her brows furrowed as she chewed on her tongue. A sharp exhale left her nose. What did John find that I cannot?
Thank you, Asaru. Please end this. She sent a thought to him.
It took a while before he brought the memories to an end and retracted his tentacles.
She still found herself in Bradford’s tight grip. His breathing was still shaky. A whispered “sorry” slipped out here and there.
Hm. Releasing her death grip on the bed, she flexed her hands a few times before she brought them to his face. She gave a gentle push, but he refused to budge.
“John.” She said softly. “I need some breathing room so we can talk.”
The man grumbled. Taking in a sharp breath, his grip tightened before he relaxed and pulled back. A few more grumbles slipped out. He tried to turn his head away, but she kept him facing towards her.
“Asaru showed me what you were talking about. The projections.” She said before whispering those pained words. “Find me.”
Throat tightening, he reflexively shut his eyes tight and clenched his jaw. He gave no answer.
“Are there any more layers that complicate your views for Reeves and me?”
Bradford continued to tighten his jaw as the grimace grew. Ears flicking back and forth like his tail, he sharply exhaled. His eyes rolled behind closed lids. “Do you really have to ask that?”
“That would be an understatement,” Asaru added.
“Mhm…” Jy-Sol shook her head. “Would now be the best time to talk about that, or another time?”
“Another time,” Asaru answered for Bradford. “It… it requires a visit to a special location for you to better understand.”
Jy-Sol let out a slow hiss of a sigh. “I sense that it is another issue wrapped up in layers of convulsion and riddled by the twisted handiwork of my former Masters, correct?”
Asaru nodded. “You are spot on.”
Jy-Sol’s brows furrowed and nose wrinkled, not too surprised by the answer. I swear, once the Elders are driven from the Earth, Their handiwork will stain this world for decades.
Jy-Sol was almost lost in her thoughts as she was tallying up the various known, less-known, and unknown projects the Elders were working on and the ones that had escaped Their grasp that would need near immediate attention once the Earth was free from Their control, when she felt something trail down her back a few times.
Before she knew it, Bradford had pulled himself closer to her and was resting his head on her shoulder.
“Jy-Sol…” He whispered. “Back to last night…” He paused, mouth slightly ajar as he searched for his words. “Did you feel anything?”
Back to this? Jy-Sol wasn’t sure why the question annoyed her. “Why are you asking this? You know what I am, who my Creators are.” She didn’t want to answer.
Bradford’s grip tightened. “Did you feel anything?” He asked again. “Just… just tell me. No lies. Please… Don’t hide your intentions from me.”
“John… I…” Jy-Sol’s voice trailed off. She closed her eyes as she tapped at her own feelings. She recalled when she woke up some hours ago. That strangeness and faint fear permeated her body as that programmed indoctrination still raged in its cage. “I… don’t know.”
“You don’t know?” He asked, but felt like he already knew the answer.
“Must I explain from what you have witnessed over the ages concerning the Elders’ handiwork?” Her tone treaded closely to an annoyed sneer. She didn’t wait for an answer. “I… I don’t know. Before the act, I felt nothing. I just wanted to help you and… was seeking answers for myself.” She still felt a pang of guilt admitting her partial deceit. “During… The little mind meld filled the gaps for me, allowing my body and mind to respond in kind to yours. Still… I felt… distant from it all. Heavily disconnected. No true pleasure, ecstasy, or gratification.”
Bradford’s grip tightened again, matching the pained sorrow twisted across his face. “You had to feel something… I know what I felt.” He whispered. She ignored him.
“After it all… I… I still don’t know.” Jy-Sol’s voice trailed off more than she would have liked.
Those new feelings fluttered in her chest and plucked at her mind. They made her feel uneasy. Disrupted the carefully crafted lattice of her current personality, breaking those choking coils of indoctrination.
“You and Reeves… were close friends. Closer… than I assumed.” She continued. “Perhaps… perhaps…” Her voice wavered, unsure if she should even voice the thought that just crossed her mind. “She had feelings for you? But was less aware of such things… Consumed by her work. Consumed by fighting to save this world from cruel Masters…”
Bradford’s grip tightened again. Could she have? His mind entertained the thought for only a second before he tossed it.
No, too dangerous for our line of work. She would have reassigned me to another location within the first month… Unless… But the thought came back. Was she holding it in like me? Did Asaru help her hide it? We did try to downplay how well we knew each other in the beginning… And now I’m remembering Asaru saying he did help past me suppress my feelings when Jynn would run herself ragged when the Elders pressed us…
He squeezed her tight once more before he relinquished her grip. Drawing back, he shifted his hands to her face. They gently cupped the sides as his thumbs gently traced those chitinous growths on her cheekbones. He didn’t hide the hurt in his eyes. Didn’t bother cleaning his tear-stained face.
“What are you feeling right now?” He asked. A pointless question, but he needed an answer.
She only sighed, turning her head away as far as his grip allowed her. “I don’t know. Distant… and conflicted.” She raised a hand to her chest. “I don’t know if I am truly feeling anything… Anything towards you. Everything feels strange and foreign to me. Anathema to my remaking.”
Her fingers dug into her chest, causing the fabric to bunch up. She said the words that encapsulated the new feelings tearing at her in a near, cracking whisper. “It frightens me.”
Bradford listened to her words carefully. It made his heart hurt and drew forth those dark thoughts that his old friend and love were gone forever. But he felt that faint shift in her being as the truth trickled out.
A deep throaty growl slipped out as his fingers traced her cheekbones a few more times, before one hand slid up and wiped away a tear that slipped out.
He leaned in, but paused before their lips could touch. He felt the warm breath of hers touch his lips. There was a faint hitch. His breathing hesitated, too. For a few seconds, he stayed closed before pulling back.
No, not now. It’s… It’s not right. He thought to himself.
“How… how can I help you?” Bradford asked. He held back a snort, but a smile crept across his face as she gave him a puzzled look. “Just think of it as ‘quid pro quo’ for how you helped me.”
A confused and perturbed snorted hiss slipped out from her, and another when he didn’t let her pull back. He’s using my words against me. “John, I don’t think th—”
“There won’t be more sex… unless,” a faint mischievous gleam flashed in his eyes as he shifted, leaning in so close their lips almost touched, but pressed against her body. A little playful growl slipped out. “You want it.”
A mental thwack from Asaru did not diminish the mischievousness that overcame him with a hint of his new biology pushing those raunchy thoughts in his mind for just a few seconds before the alien wrangled them.
Her eyes twitched for just a second before a nasty laugh, one she couldn’t hold back, slipped out. Bradford released his grip on her just enough to allow her to pull back.
It took her a few minutes to recompose herself.
“Such things to say…” She wiped away a few errant tears that flowed. “What has possessed you now?”
“You can say I’m teetering on that edge again.” He grinned. “And,” he moved closer to her and placed a hand on her chest. He felt her hearts quicken. “I… I don’t want to give up on bringing back the old you, even with the risks. I know I sensed something last night.”
Her eyes became hooded. “John… I…” She still felt that was pointless despite the shifts within herself she had been experiencing.
“Just… Just think about it,” he said. “And maybe…” Adverting his eyes for a few moments, his breathing hitched as he felt a heat rush through his body. His face was turning red. “Maybe… we can make this work in some fashion?” His eyes drifted back to her, slowly looking her up and down. Part of him was still repulsed; he had grown attracted to her Chosen form, but another part had it deeply intertwined with his love for the original her and just didn’t care what she looked like now.
It took a few seconds for it to click in Jy-Sol’s mind. She felt a faint surge of energy in their connection as Asaru applied a few more mental thwacks to his host and could faintly hear the mental thoughts of how exasperated the alien sounded.
She pressed a hand against her face and shook her head. What have I done? Maybe I fried part of his brain last night…?
Gently tapping at the connection, she tuned into the small argument John and Asaru were having. She caught bits and pieces of some previous fling that Asaru didn’t want repeated, and he was busy hammering in how idiotic entertaining a relationship with the Chosen would be, with how a chunk of the crew still viewed her. Bradford barely had any counters besides ‘they would be careful.’
Moving her hand, she looked at the two. Both were glaring at each other. Asaru had several tentacles surrounding Bradford’s head, all of the tips glowed brightly as sparks of power flowed through the appendages. Bradford’s tail was heartily smacking the bed, with the tip twitching dangerously. His eyes were glowing blue.
Let me stop this before they start throttling each other. Jy-Sol loudly cleared her throat to grab their attention.
“Ignoring what you just suggested.” She shook her head. Far too dangerous. Bradford looked away as his ears flattened, and his face grew hotter. “I… I just may accept your offer to help me. Perhaps it may bring balance to my fractured soul, even if I may never be able to reclaim who I once was.” She then gestured to Asaru. “He already has a few ideas he wishes to explore.”
Bradford cast a look at Asaru with a raised brow. The alien nodded and then gestured for him to say something.
“Sounds,” he let his eyes wander for a moment as he was carefully searching for his words, “sounds like a plan.” He smiled.
“So be it.” She nodded with a faint smile.
“Now,” a faint ping rang out as a small flash of blue appeared on the bed next to Bradford. It was a shirt and some pants. “It’s about time I took you back. Though if you wish to freshen up before doing so, I can show you to the lavatory.”
Bradford looked at the clothes for just a moment before his nose picked up on the faint peppery musk and something much stronger coming off of him. He closed his eyes tightly.
I am still getting used to this. Wonder if I’ll smell as bad as those Mutons after a fight. Ugh… still remember how one smelt when those Reapers were doing field dressing that day…
He reached over and grabbed the clothes. “A shower sounds… nice.”
She nodded and got up. “Then follow me, please.”
Asaru merged back with him before he got up and followed Jy-Sol.
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Jy-Sol showed him the lavatory and shower. She fetched whatever he needed before she would leave him be. Not before teasing him if he needed another round of relief, with how she could sense some tension within him through their bond.
Neck mane flaring, the offer was tempting as a flood of errant thoughts nearly clouded his mind before he and Asaru could wrangle them. He nearly yelled at her for making such a joke. A part of him wanted to seize that offer, but he didn’t need his feelings for her to be more muddled before several issues could be sorted out. To his annoyance and surprise, even Asaru found the teasing to be funny.
Bradford took his time in the shower, mostly to relax his mind and order his thoughts. The hot water felt great against his back muscles. And he was having deep discussions with Asaru. What would they tell the crew? What would they tell Maker? There was so much to factor and balance. Nobody could know the truth, or there would be hell to pay.
“I roughly know how several crew members would react. But with Maker? I am having trouble predicting his reaction.” Asaru said. He had separated from Bradford once again and was floating in the corner, enjoying the steam building up in the room.
“Same.” Bradford nodded with a faint grumble. He could clearly picture the accusations of mind control and mutinies that would break out with the crew. But with Maker… he was stumped. “I know he’ll be ticked if any of his delicate work is thrown off.” A faint grunt slipped out as he felt Asaru probe his body.
“Everything feels fine from what I can scan.” He said. “But there is a chance something was thrown off.”
“For Jy-Sol’s sake, I hope not.” He wasn’t in the mood to hear Maker go on a rant and didn’t want to see Jy-Sol be ‘punished’ by him. Corvo had told him of the details of when Jy-Sol nearly interrupted his treatment when the psionic excursions began.
His very power tears him apart every second, but he is still powerful and can control it.
Just as Bradford was slipping off into a brooding mood, a few pokes to his brain made him look at his companion.
“What?” He asked, letting himself sound much more annoyed than he actually was.
“Have all those impassioned feelings finally left your system, now?” Asaru asked, playfully thrusting a few of his at the man’s head. Bradford swatted them away. “Maybe you should have taken up her offer? You did kinda suggest it before her.”
“You know.” He growled before a grumble slipped out. “Mostly… And don’t.”
Asaru snickered. “Expected. And I expect it to keep fluctuating, even if Maker can correct this.” He tapped his head a few times. “Just have to figure out how to keep everything locked up tight. Our bond is still shifting due to your new biology, so I can’t guarantee I can fully suppress those feelings.”
“Don’t remind me.” An annoyed sigh came out. “It’s all… simmered down. Partially because of what emotions she says she lacks, but I still felt something there.”
“I sensed it in your memories. And there is something faintly changing within her. Old, oppressive chains being cast away one by one.” Asaru said. “In due time, with future exploring, we will figure this out.”
“I hope so. I really hope so.” A faint part of himself wanted to give in to those bleak thoughts. He shoved them into the corner. He wouldn’t let them win until all ventures had been explored.
“Now hurry up.” Asaru jabbed his body a few times. “Don’t need you becoming a prune before we’re back to the main facility.”
Bradford rolled his eyes as he swatted the tentacles away. “Five more minutes. And you’re enjoying the sauna.”
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Eventually, Bradford finished his shower, dried himself off, and put on some new clothes.
“Huh, made a place for my tail.” He mumbled as he examined his backside in the mirror, noticing the tailored hole for the tail. It was comfortable. He would keep it in mind for the changes that needed to happen to his wardrobe.
As they headed back to the main chambers, Asaru merged back with him.
As he turned the corner, Bradford had to raise a hand to his face. The atmosphere was much brighter than before. It took a few seconds, but he saw the reason why. The curtains were open, and Jy-Sol was gazing at the immaculate snow-covered view outside the window.
As he came closer, he noticed her posture slightly shift. Just that ingrained programming and training that always had her ready for a threat. Not as light-footed as her.
“Nice view.” He said as he stood beside her.
“Mhm.” She nodded. She let her eyes linger a little longer before she looked at him. She gave him a quick look up and down, noting a faint wet sheen they clung to that light layer of fur. “Ready to go?”
He nodded. “Ready to face the reaper.” Just a little jab at Maker.
Jy-Sol’s mouth twitched as she fought a grimace; she slowly bit her bottom lip. “I hope Maker is understanding… I miscalculated how long we would be gone… And then everything that happened….”
Bradford placed a hand on her shoulder and gently squeezed it. “We,” his eyes flashed blue, “make sure he understands.”
Her eyes darted away. It took a few seconds for her posture to relax. “Thank you.”
“And the same with the crew,” Bradford remembered the other issue. A rough snort slipped out. “Corvo better have kept his trap shut…”
She raised a hand to stifle a laugh. “I believe he has, but you know how news quickly gets around. Your crew knows that we disappeared, but I believe they do not have the finer details. He and the other Senior staff have had their hands full.”
He left out a brief mhm. “That’s better than them knowing the details…” But he couldn’t help but think of the massive headache he was going to have to deal with once he was back on the Avenger.
Just as his mind was delving into the possible disciplinary actions that he and the other Senior staff would have to dispense, a faint tingle in the air and a hand on his shoulder made him snap to. He looked over to Jy-Sol. Her eyes were glowing.
“Well then, should we get going?” She asked as visible energy began to appear around them. He nodded.
With a mere thought, the two disappeared with a ping. The length of the trip was as quick as when she had whisked them there the evening before.
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Within a few moments and another ping, they appeared in the room that was Bradford’s current “home.” It was quiet, empty. The lights were fairly dim before the automated systems detected movement and slowly brightened the room.
Jy-Sol took her hand off his shoulder and stepped away. Just the faintest amount of dread crept over her suddenly as the room brightened and she felt shifts in the ambient psionic energy. Her eyes darted back and forth, ignoring Bradford and Asaru’s concerned questions on why she was moving away so suddenly. Just as she was pushing a thought to teleport back to her room, she found her pathways blocked.
“Oh no…” A faint, fearful whisper slipped out as her fingers arched. She flinched when she felt it before she heard it. A concentrated, crackling wave of power.
With a flash of red and purple, two distorted pings rang out near the entrance of the room. As the chaotic energy faded away, there was Maker with two of his shellbodies whose eyes were burning bright with power. Faint wisps of energy cascaded behind them, slowly taking shape of his true form.
Reflexively, Jy-Sol recoiled, bowing her head to avoid his eyes, as she could feel part of the judgement wicking away from her Master, but could not sense his thoughts. Leg muscles twitching, that in-built conditioning was yelling at her to kneel and bow her head in shame, but she knew Maker always hated that.
“Jynn…” Bradford whispered as he noticed her movements and could feel the fear striking at her heart in their bond.
Seems even this good Elder can terrify her… Asaru noted.
Bradford carefully eyed Maker before he found his body moving on its own to put himself between Jy-Sol and the Elder as soon as he saw Maker taking hasty steps towards them, before the hissed out questions with harsh, echoing inflections came out. The silhouette behind them shifting, bringing forth his spindly arms to make accusing gestures, did not help.
“Where have you been? What have you done?” Both of the shellbodies spoke in unison. It didn’t take long before they reached them. They circle them like hungry sharks — each going in an opposite direction — waiting for their prey to dash away from the protection of the whole.
Bradford’s throat trembled as a low growl slipped out. His eyes shifted back to Jy-Sol, who kept her head firmly bowed with wide, shaking eyes that matched the twitchiness of her body. He then looked back at Maker, focusing on one shellbody, trying to figure out the Elder’s emotions. He could tell the Elder was still annoyed from her meddling, but anything else, such as anger or wrath, he couldn’t properly pick up. The Elder’s damaged psionics made it nigh impossible for him and Asaru to reach out and read them.
“Jy-Sol.” Maker said, voice becoming more demanding. “An’xer me.”
There was only silence.
A sharp exhale left one shellbody as both stopped circling, meeting back at one point. “Do not make me utter the words.”
I think I know what he means by that. Asaru said to Bradford before flashing the memories pulled from Corvo concerning what happened while they were being treated. Though it was only the Chosen’s three personal guards affected by the words Maker uttered that day.
“She meant no harm.” Bradford quickly said as he noticed Maker open his mouth once more. He placed a hand on his chest. “I’m equally at fault.”
That mouth hung open for a moment before closing. A brow raised in return. Maker’s eyes narrowed as he began to scrutinize Bradford from head to toe, faintly probing the man.
Bradford winced as the probing was unrelenting. Pressing various points on his body and brain, rousing a few memories past his mental security blocks that the man would have wanted to keep to himself. The Elder rarely pushed past such boundaries, as he was constantly monitoring the Bradfords’ health, but this probing showed no gentleness or care for those boundaries.
It continued for an uncomfortable amount of time before Bradford pushed back when he felt Maker dig a little too deep concerning certain memories.
Maker was unfazed. The glow in his eyes dimmed just a fraction.
“Equally?” Maker questioned, eying Jy-Sol again.
Bradford took in a deep breath and let out a harsh snort, where a little steam shot out. “Yes.” It was two-fold. He needed to calm himself as part of him wanted to strike out at the Elder. And then he was preparing himself for the Elder’s reaction if he was forced to tell the truth.
Maker began pacing again, both bodies going their separate ways as they studied the two. It was just silence and footsteps before the shellbodies reached the same location and stopped.
One raised their pressed together hands to their mouth, as they took in a long, deep breath, before letting out an equally long and sharp hiss.
“Now,” the one body started, “tell me, what happened?”
“Do not spare a single detail.” The other added.
Bradford bit the inside of his cheek. He glanced back at Jy-Sol. She was still petrified with fear, but he noticed her lips were pulled into a thin line. Tapping at their connection, it didn’t take much for him to pick up the panic mingling with all that fear.
Blindly reaching back, his hand searched around until it found hers. He gently grabbed it before tightening his grip when he felt her jerk away.
It’s okay. We won’t let him hurt you. He sent a message to her. She didn’t respond. That made him mentally sigh.
How much do you think I should tell him, Asaru? He asked his hidden companion for some assistance.
Just enough to paint the picture. And be truthful. I believe Jy-Sol’s fear is not unwarranted. Asaru responded.
“Secure this room. We don’t need any leaks.” Bradford said.
The shellbodies eyed each other for just a moment before looking back at him. Their eyes grew brighter for just a second. “Done.”
“Now,” Bradford let his voice trail off as he tried to figure out how to shift more of the blame to himself compared to Jy-Sol, “Jy-Sol meant no harm moving us to a more private setting to have a deeper chat. I’m to blame for how things went after our chat.” He mixed in some truth with a healthy helping of lies.
Just as the next set of words was about to leave his mouth, Maker abruptly cut him off.
“You two were intimate, yes?” One shellbody asked. “That sudden kiss and continued emotional turmoil were impossible to ignore that evening.” He then waved around a not-too-dismissive hand. “This includes the talk we had some days prior.”
The other let out a raspy laugh, throwing his head back.
“Uh… uh…” Bradford’s mouth just hung open. It took a second for him to notice Jy-Sol was gripping his hand tightly before he gave a few reassuring squeezes. Before he could send a thought, Asaru did.
Seems like he may have figured things out besides what he saw during that probing. Asaru poked at Bradford’s and Jy-Sol’s brains. But I can’t tell if he’s masking his anger or not.
He—he’s not pleased. I… I know that without doubt. Jy-Sol sent a shaky reply. She had her doubts.
Calm down. Bradford gave her hand another reassuring squeeze. We won’t let him lay a finger on you.
You do not know what he is capable of… He can be like Them if he is pushed. Jy-Sol warned.
“Now.” Maker speaking snapped Bradford out of the mental chat. “I am annoyed… displeased… if that would be the choice word to describe my current set of thoughts, as I do not like for my delicate work to be disturbed before it is finalized.” Maker’s eyes narrowed for both shellbodies.
“But,” the other shellbody spoke and raised a hand so swift it made Bradford take on a defensive stance, causing a few of Asaru’s tentacles to manifest. “I am… pleased Jy-Sol disturbed my work.”
Just as they were prepared for a torrent of energy to strike Jy-Sol, instead, confusion struck Bradford and Asaru, causing their defensive position to falter.
Pleased? The two voiced mentally before Bradford looked at Jy-Sol. Her head had shifted ever so slightly to look at him. She was just as confused.
“Pleased?” Bradford repeated, this time out loud.
Both shellbodies grinned. One laughed. “My daughter continues to surprise me with her actions, breaking the bounds of the programming my Brethren had instilled in her long ago.” He explained. “Perhaps, not all aspects of her humanity were tampered with or stripped out. Perhaps, they are slowly resurfacing. Regenerating.”
One shellbody tapped at its lip as it looked around quizzically. “Now, was it her or you that suggested the intimacy? Hm?” Both bodies eyed the two.
Jy-Sol shrank behind Bradford even more.
Bradford’s body stiffened as his mouth opened. “Uh…” He wasn’t sure if he wanted to tell the truth or a lie.
After a few moments had passed, Maker made a dismissive wave.
“It does not matter who proposed the idea. The deed is done.” He laughed. But as quickly as the laugh came, it stopped as both bodies narrowed their eyes. Energy began to radiate from their eyes, causing the ghostly silhouette of his true form to become more opaque. Shimmering like psionic fire, flakes of skin began to come off one shellbodies’ face.
“But to entertain such an idea…” Just a faint growl slipped out, which distorted his whispered voice. There was a spike in his power that made everyone flinch.
Here it comes… Jy-Sol thought as she prepared herself for that torrent of energy that was sure to strike her.
“Did you two not think of the lines you would be crossing with everything that is at stake!?” Maker chided them like they were unruly children. A few sparks of chaotic energy left his mouth, fading as quickly as it emerged, but nothing more.
He continued to chide, equally reaming both for throwing caution to the wind and for jumping to sex as a way to broach the complicated history between the two, or whatever that notion was supposed to help or solve for Bradford. He didn’t let either get a word in.
“To hang everything on a ludicrous if of an idea is madness.” He shook his head. “Especially for you,” he made a pointed jab at Bradford, “after the discussion we had the other day. Such… foolishness to attempt to solve an aching heart... You are lucky your comrade Corvo knows discretion. If the others of your group find out about this folly, it would be a disastrous, cascading fracture that would threaten the Resistance as a whole.”
Bradford pressed his tongue against his teeth. Maker had several points. Part of him wanted to go back in time and stop himself from entertaining the idea. Now, he was trying to think of what he wanted to say. He still didn’t want the Elder to know that Jy-Sol came up with the idea.
Damn my aching heart and new biology… Wait… yes, that!
Carefully with how you approach that. Asaru warned.
Bradford let out a snort. “Well, your delicate work has my brain clouded.”
Maker’s eyes flashed red as he raised a brow. “Explain.”
Bradford gestured to himself from head to toe.“Getting used to my new biology. Seems I have a higher libido than normal. A human normal.”
“Is that so?” Maker asked, there was a faint hint of doubt in his voice, though he recalled how that evening went. The glow in his eyes increased, but he did not probe.
Bradford was about to speak when a few thoughts and memories from Asaru came to his mind. Thanks, forgot he said that. Should knock that doubt out of him. “You said you noticed my emotional turmoil, correct?”
Maker’s nose wrinkled. “I did… Perhaps…”
One shellbody stepped forward and raised his hand slowly before releasing his power, letting several bands of energy travel over to Bradford. Bradford grunted as there were several pushes and pulls on his being.
“Perhaps… I… underestimated… how the core species would intermingle with your human DNA and play off of each other….” He spoke as his voice trailed off into a mumble. A few faint chides directed to himself slipped out, missing something like this. He rubbed his chin before he continued to mumble under his breath. Fingers tugged at his chin as he turned his head to the side. “I still have more to learn about the Akaraks, if it is possible…”
Recalling his powers, the shellbody took a step back. “I see I will have to make some tweaks before I can release you.”
“How are you currently feeling?” The other asked, before making a gesture towards Jy-Sol. “Especially towards her.”
Bradford glanced at Jy-Sol, who was still hiding behind him, but could feel less fear gripping her, before he looked back at Maker.
Be truthful. Asaru poked his brain. The man rolled his eyes.
“Better. It… it’s more subdued now… but…” He looked back at Jy-Sol. Letting go of her hand, he raised his to touch her face, letting his fingers gently slide across those chitinous plates on her cheek. She flinched. He sighed.
There was still disgust towards her being a Chosen, but that burning love for her was smothering the more vicious thoughts. Despite everything… she’s still in there, just buried deep. “I still have a passion burning for her. Both the old and new.”
“Hm.” Both shellbodies tapped at their lips.
“Intriguing.” One body said.
“Dangerous.” The other added.
“It will be...,” one paused before they both began to speak in unison, “interesting to see how this will unfold and blossom. Reshaping the both of you. Or should I say trio?” A faint chuckle slipped out.
Bradford’s brow twitched. Jy-Sol choked before letting out a confused snort.
Is he… encouraging us to continue what he just spent a few minutes scolding us about? Bradford sent a thought to Jy-Sol.
I… I do not know. Jy-Sol was equally as baffled. She wanted to reach out to Maker to get a better read, but was still too afraid.
It seems he may be. Asaru joined. I’m… sensing… genuine intrigue from him mixed in with all of the disappointment and exasperation directed towards Jy-Sol. But… He paused for a long time. It seems like he wants Jy-Sol to continue down this ludicrous path to reconnect to her human self… If my interpretation is correct.
“What are you getting at, Maker?” Bradford asked, not holding back a growl of annoyance.
One shellbody inclined its head to the side as he folded his hands together. “I do enjoy being cryptic, but we both know you understood what I said, just fine.”
“And if I didn’t.”
Maker only laughed before tapping at the side of his head.
No point in trying to play dumb. Asaru said. Bradford only grumbled.
“You two understood just fine. But her.” Maker’s focus snapped back onto Jy-Sol like a targeting array. She flinched. “Do you understand, Jy-Sol?” He wanted to raise a hand — and with a swift gesture — move Bradford aside as if he was nothing. But he was allowing her that buffer. That hint of safety.
Bradford glanced back at her when he felt her flinch again. Her eyes were closed tight as her throat trembled. He grabbed her hand again and gave it a gentle squeeze.
I can talk for—
“I… I do not believe it would be wise to… extrapolate on… the dangerous gamble… that… happened.” Though her voice was wavy, Jy-Sol forced the words out, forced herself to step out from behind Bradford, but she did not meet Maker’s gaze. “I… let curiosity and hubris get the best of me, thinking that I could sate his carnal desire for a dream long lost.”
Jynn! Just a glint of concern flashed across his face as he picked up that she was blaming herself.
“The gamble… failed. As I strongly believe you have deciphered that due to…” Her voice trailed off to a mere whisper before picking up again. “Nothing was mended. Only more troublesome threads came unbound, rousing more… questionable,” and she shot Bradford an annoyed glance that made him raise a brow in turn, “feelings rise. Feelings that could endanger the Resistance…” Finally, she raised her head, slowly, to meet Maker’s gaze. “I am… sorry for my folly.”
“Mhm.” Maker nodded as he listened to her. “And that is all?”
“Yes.”
“Is that all?” He repeated, voices changing in pitched causing a thrumming echo to follow; his eyes glowed brighter.
“Y-yes!”
Maker’s eyes became hooded. “Do not make me use the words. You are withholding important information.” The silhouette of his true form drew forth an arm and pointed at her. The lights in the room flickered as psionic energy crackled around the shellbodies, causing the face of one of them to deteriorate faster as glowing splinters cracked across its skin akin to shattering pottery. “A shift has occurred within your being as much as his. Breaking and loosing chains forced upon you. AN’XER ME. SPEAK. THE. TRUTH. CHILD.”
The fear that flashed across Jy-Sol’s face was brief. In an instant, she dropped to her knees and prostrated herself before Maker.
Fearing the worst, Bradford was about to move, but found Asaru restraining him. Maker raised a hand in response, barely casting a glance at him.
Wait. Asaru said, though the slightly higher pitch in his voice gave away his worry. She did it of her own accord.
Jy-Sol’s voice trembled for but a moment before the words came out, with her speech being split between the Elders’ language, English, and a few other choice alien languages Maker preferred. It was like a rushing flood, barely sparing any details on how she felt when she had awoken the next day. The new and old. How they raged against each other. Far too many of the new feelings and memories were closely connected to the man behind her. It was all strange. It was all… frightening. If more splinters of who she once was came back, would she suffer like her brother Kon-Ris? How long before the conflict grew too much for her to bear?
The glow in Maker’s eyes dimmed as slowly as each measured exhale he took until there were mere glittering sparks of his powers in his void eyes. The energy flowing around him began to disperse, causing the visage of his true form to shift to a hazy, but still lingering state. Both shellbodies looked at each other before shaking their heads.
“Cotalo. So’gov no’vala. Ta Ish’vi Un.” Maker spoke.
Keeping a hand raised and directed at Bradford, he approached Jy-Sol. “You inflict more trouble upon yourself than you need to. Frakta… Frakta… Frakta…Vok’thrall’Uvs…” He cursed towards himself, before a sad laugh slipped out. “But you are my daughter… I have instilled too much of myself into you. A touch Hera’tius, my closest friend. And my mentor’s teachings.”
Turning his hand over, he made a beckoning gesture. “Rise. Do not debase yourself before me, my child. I despise it.” He couldn’t hold back the hiss.
Hesitantly, Jy-Sol shifted to one knee before slowly returning to her full stature, but she kept her head bowed to avoid seeing his face. For a moment, she pulled back when she felt the mere trances of power touch the underside of her chin.
“Raise your face to me.” Maker said with a faint, stern inflection.
She almost pulled back again when the sensation returned, but hearing the command made her hold still.
Slowly, the force, Maker’s true form, made her lift her head. It tilted her head side to side. Maker studied her. Studied those eyes that avoided. Eyes that burned less and less with that purple taint of his fellow Elders. Less of that haughtiness and hate. Though there was a trembling fear — one that stung at his heart.
I cannot ignore the traits I share with the Others, even with the time I spent under the tutelage of my Mentor. Some habits are harder to expunge than others.
But underneath that fear, there was hope and kindness. And they were burning, burning like that blue that was once her original Gift and connection to Asaru.
I wonder when this change truly took hold? Mere seeds were planted the day she encountered you two and, fortunately, both of you escaped her grasp…
Maker looked over to Bradford. He wasn’t surprised the man had moved closer. He had a predator’s glare on him; fingers and tail twitching with the fan-like tip fully expanded. Fewer of Asaru’s tentacles were out, but the few that lingered were pulsing with energy.
Perhaps when you formulated that gambit of a plan? What side were you still leaning towards before you “fell from grace.” A gentle chuckle left his lips. I know the Others now wished They never entertained it. Ri’vi… you are taking the brunt of the Others’ anger and fear, as you saw the “methods of the madness” Jy-Sol planned, but how could you have foreseen it cascading to this? I wonder…
His thoughts nearly consumed him with more treacheries he could spread across the Elder Collective, but more pressing matters made him refocus.
Maker let the lingering wisps of his true form tilt Jy-Sol’s head once more before he let go, recalling the ghostly hand back to himself, and it all faded away.
Maker took in a long breath before letting it out in equal measure. He took a step back, raising a hand to his face to check the damage done to it by his powers.
“A few more hours… for this one…” He mumbled, barely wincing as his finger types brushed against raw muscles. “The others…” He looked over to the other shellbody.
That one tapped at its chest, holding back a grimace. “Likewise.”
Let me finish this. He focused on Jy-Sol.
“First, as much as you ask forgiveness from me, I ask it in kind to you.” He let out a sad sigh before running fingers through his hair. “As much as the Others like to pretend our Kind is above the emotions of humans and other ‘lesser beings,’ we have them, and it can easily overwhelm and blot out Our better senses.”
Both shellbodies then bowed, hanging their heads low. “And I asked the same of you, Bradford and Asaru.”
“Father…” Jy-Sol whispered, unsure of what to say.
He truly is different than the other Elders. Asaru nodded.
But his mood can be as turbulent as a storm... Bradford said. Despite the hint of doubt in his thoughts, he couldn’t believe what he was hearing and seeing.
“Though,” both shellbodies of Maker returned their previous postures, “I still hold a… tinge… of disappointment and irritation as I rambled before… But… I am pleased. I truly am.”
“H-how?” Jy-Sol cocked her head to the side. “How has my hubris pleased you?”
One shellbody grinned. “Sometimes, questionable methods are the needed key to discover a new path.” He raised a hand and twirled it around. “Will you continue down this path? I cannot say, nor can I direct it. It is up to you.”
“Maker…”
Grin disappearing into a harsh frown, he then pointed a stern finger at her before shifting it to Bradford. “Though I strongly suggest neither of you entertain the intimacy any further, with all that is at stake. I do not believe for a second you could keep this secret from your comrades, besides such emotions blotting your better senses, AND it would be a horrendous way for you,” that aggressive finger jutted at Jy-Sol again, “to reawaken parts of yourself my Brethren tampered with.”
Jy-Sol flinched back at the gabs before bristling. A faint red tinged her face. His mouth opened, but nothing came out at first. Then she choked when she heard Asaru laughing in his shared bond with Bradford.
Glancing back, she saw Bradford just as rattled as her, as his tail flicked around and smacked the floor.
“W-w-ell…” Bradford spoke before his voice faltered. He took a moment to clear his throat and a few more to get his tail under control. “We’ll see what we can do.” A gruff snort slipped out. The Elder had several good points, but there were some things he still wanted to explore.
“But,” Bradford raised a finger, which made Maker raise a brow, “you’ll need to fix my libido first. If it stays like this…” He eyed Jy-Sol up and down. Part of him wanted to move over to her and touch her just to annoy the Elder. Too risky. And then Asaru was knocking at his brain not to do it. “I can’t promise it won’t happen again.”
Maker let out a huff, not one entirely out of annoyance. “Right. That issue. It shouldn’t take too long to correct.” Raising his hand, with a ping, a blood-drawing device with several vials appeared in his hand. “Come,” he beckoned Bradford over, “let me take some samples that I can study. During your next check-up, I will have the solution.”
Bradford went over to him. It didn’t take long for Maker to take several draws and teleport them off to have one of his assistants start the process.
Bradford rubbed his arm before he took a few steps back from Maker. “Anything else?”
Maker snapped his fingers. “Though I am still not releasing you from my care, I suggest you get in touch with your comrades sometime soon.” He then pointed over to a desk and a tablet that rested on it. “You will be able to contact them on a secure network.”
“And you.” The other shellbody pointed at Jy-Sol. “I suggest you make yourself scarce if any of his friends pay a visit. Even though the one called Corvo has been deflecting doubts against you, I cannot guarantee he will be kind if he sees you again.”
Jy-Sol nodded. “I understand. I had no intentions of returning to XCOM’s ship until permission was given after my… stunt.”
For one shellbody, the eyes became hooded. For the other, it laughed. “At least you had and still have some sense before you threw it all away.”
Both shellbodies shook their heads. “Now, I will leave you two.”
One looked at Bradford. “I will have one of my workers fetch you for your next check-up and test once I am done with my research.”
The other looked at Jy-Sol. “I suggest you return to your chambers… but,” he shrugged, “it is up to you.”
Not giving either a chance to speak, a flash of red and purple erupted around Maker, and with a ping he disappeared.
As soon as Maker was gone, Jy-Sol let out a heavy breath. Her legs trembled for a few seconds before they gave out, causing her to fall to her knees. Her lower arms pressed against the ground as her upper arms clasped at her chest. She took in several shaky, deep breaths.
Though things had ended much more positively than she had expected, it still rattled her.
It took her some time to notice Bradford had kneeled next to her. He had placed an arm around her shoulder. A few of Asaru’s tentacles gently wrapped around her chest — with Maker gone, the alien had separated himself from his host and was floating just behind them.
“You okay?” Bradford asked.
“Really?” Her eyes widened as she shook her head. “No! I am not!” But a tiny, nervous laugh slipped out of quivering lips.
“Sorry, heh, I had to ask.” He said.
It took a few pulls before he pulled Jy-Sol into a hug. She did try pushing him away before something clicked in her brain to just accept it and let him wrap his arms around her. It was… comforting.
“Sorry… I caused us more headaches than we needed.” Bradford said.
Hearing that made her pull back. Her brows were furrowed. “I’m the one that suggest the sex!”
“I could have rejected it and just stuck with talking.” He rolled his eyes. “And we really should have stuck with talking.”
“You should have.” Asaru tutted, waving a tentacle.
“Don’t start,” Bradford growled at him. Jy-Sol snorted.
They stayed like that for a little while longer before Jy-Sol began to pull away.
“I should go so you can… regather your thoughts and contact your allies,” Jy-Sol said. She felt Asaru’s tentacles unravel, but she found Bradford’s grip only grew stronger. Her brows knitted together as she found herself trying to pry his hands open, but they would not budge. “John, let me go.
“They can wait,” Bradford said. He tightened his grip, but swiftly softened it when he heard her hiss. “I… I want to talk.”
“Talk?” She questioned, but she glared. “Talk?”
He sighed. “Just talk. I promise!”
“He speaks the truth, though some lingering saucy thoughts are biting at his being,” Asaru said with a faint tease.
“Please…” Bradford groaned, not wanting to give those thoughts a hint of acknowledgement, for fear they would put him in a mood.
“I’m keeping them back the best I can,” Asaru said.
Jy-Sol kept a fierce glare as her eyes brightened in intensity. She probed their connection, probed Bradford’s mind and body. “Hm…”
They both were being truthful. But those lingering carnal thoughts had her worried. He really was tempted to pounce on my joke of an offer when I brought him to the showers. May Maker help him during his next check-up.
The glow in her eyes softened, but the glare did not.
“What is the topic of the conversation you wish to converse on?” She asked.
“You,” Bradford said.
“Me?”
“The human you. Jynn… The…” He looked away as he sighed. Guilt ate his heart. “Those conversations you had been trying to goad out of me since your defection...”
Her eyes lit up before they fell. “You… you do not have to do that so soon. Not after the trouble I have caused.”
“I want to. Please… I… Don’t want you to leave just yet.”
She inclined her head to the side. “So you have ulterior motives?”
“I learned from you.”
She snorted.
“So?”
She nodded. “I will stay for a few hours. Or until Maker forces me out. Or some of your men storm the facility trying to find you. I’d…” She drew out the word as she let her eyes wander before settling back on him, giving a playful smile. “Take the latter over the former.”
Bradford laughed. “Think I understand why just fine.” He did not want to see Maker for several hours. “Come on, let’s go over to the bed,” he released his grip on her and started to get up, “don’t want my legs falling asleep.”
“Would the chairs not suffice? I thought you didn’t want to entertain that?” Jy-Sol couldn’t help but tease. Bradford bristled. Asaru laughed.
“His mind is lingering on that rather strongly for him to suggest the bed.” Asaru couldn’t help be pour more fuel on the fire. He even used a tentacle to catch Bradford’s tail before it struck Jy-Sol — who was already moving out of the way.
“Will you two stop that!” Some tinted steam shot out of Bradford’s mouth. “You are not helping me!”
“Apologies! Apologies!” Jy-Sol covered her mouth with a hand, failing to stifle the snicker slipping out. She got up. “You made it too easy not to pull at those strings and maybe…”
With swift steps, far faster than Bradford was able to register, she was right on him, wrapping her arms around him. A set around his chest and the other wrapped around his hips. She drew her face dangerously close to his, causing him to pin his ears back.
“Perhaps, from time to time, I can help you release some steam?” She gave one cheek a firm squeeze.
The man squeezed. His face flushed red. Steam began to trickle out of his nose, and some slipped from underneath his shirt.
“Jy-Sol!” Asaru’s laughter became nervous. In a blink, he was right next to the two, but didn’t attempt to pry them apart. Several glowing tips encircled the two. “That may be a little too far!”
“Jy-Sol… mercy… please.” Bradford didn’t move a muscle. A mixture of shock and fear, the slightest movement could set him off. He was fighting so many of his senses. His hearts were racing, heat was coursing through his body at an increasing rate, and he didn’t dare tap at their connection in fear she was being entirely serious.
Jy-Sol held Bradford like that for just a few minutes too long before, with a cackling laugh akin to a hyena’s, she released him and took a few steps back.
Bradford stumbled around before quickly finding his footing. He rubbed his chest, whispered to himself to get his bearings, and whispered to Asaru to get his bodily functions in control. The alien shifted all of his tentacles over to his host and was pushing and pulling away to get everything back under control.
Once he was mostly calm, he looked at her. “Please, don’t do that again. EVER.”
Jy-Sol smiled, squinting her eyes. “I make no promises. It’s an excellent tool to disarm you.”
For the love of… He hated his emotions. And he hated to admit, he kinda liked it.
He gestured over to the chairs with his head before moving there with Asaru. She followed.
“So where do you want to start?” He asked as he sat down. “What were the questions you’ve been wanting to ask me for a long time?”
“Hm…” Jy-Sol mumbled as she sat down. She had to think. The most obvious one was the beginning. Or as close as the beginning, he could tell her of Jynn’s childhood. She shook her head. Another time for that. That’s too… personal. It may put him in a poor mood.
“Jynn’s…” She paused. “My… My time leading XCOM…” It felt weird saying that, but it felt right. Perhaps I need to see myself as her more? Embrace that old name instead of ignoring it? “What was it like? Was I always the leader?”
Bradford raised a brow. He was expecting an entirely different question, but nodded. “Starting there…” He let out a huff as both good and bad memories came to his mind. “You did a damn good job leading with everything you and the Sub-Commanders had to deal with. The Council. Fighting on several fronts. Balancing budgets and research. Keeping the soldiers in line. The Elders fielding new units to continue their test…” They really could have ended us from the beginning with their tech and forces. It was a test, and we bit back too hard for their liking… “Of course, you all had help, but it was endless. ”
He looked over to Asaru before he continued. “I think you may have been in some sort of pseudo-leadership role for some years before XCOM was fully reinitiated. My position was somewhat the same, as I was being transitioned away from my former station after being picked. It was still a shocker that you were my boss when we finally met face-to-face before everything kicked off.”
“She was.” Asaru nodded. “She and several other candidates were being tested as we were monitoring the increased activity from the initial scouting ships that had been in the Sol System for a few decades; those infiltrators were slowly appearing more, and then there were signs that something else was coming from outside the system at an alarming speed.”
“Hm, interesting.” She nodded along, listening carefully.
Jy-Sol continued to listen carefully, comparing anything with her dual set of memories and information she could pull from the Psionic Network. Though her true memories were still mostly distant from her, she had a few flashes that meshed together with the fragments, bringing them back together; it was enlightening. She was getting a better picture of her former human self, as well as XCOM and the Old World before the Elders’ tyrannical rule, and Bradford and Asaru.
The conversation went on for a few hours before Jy-Sol brought it to an end. She had a great deal of information to digest, and Bradford couldn’t put off contacting Corvo and the others any longer. Bradford was reluctant to end the conversation, as some weight was being lifted from his shoulder, and he just didn’t want her to go.
Before she could leave, Bradford grabbed her hand with both of his and gave it a gentle squeeze.
“Despite Maker’s warnings…” His voice trailed off as he looked away, only to snort when Asaru smacked the back of his head with a few tentacles. “Maybe we can continue to test the waters?” Another loud thwack made him wince, but Asaru said nothing.
Her face was plain as she studied his, which showed far more emotion than he would have liked. “You still wish to entertain that and tread a dangerous edge? Repulsed and attracted to me?”
He looked away for a few seconds before looking back. “Yes.”
“Madness still grips your mind.”
He cracked a smirk. “I learned for you. Sometimes you need to take a dangerous gamble. And…” He didn’t release her hand as he got up and moved closer to her. He looked her up and down before he leaned in and kissed her on the lips. “You’re still in there… It’ll take some time, but you’ll get your memories back and… blend into the new you.”
She expected the kiss, but didn’t pull back, didn’t flinch. She let him pull away before placing her other hands on top of the one gripping hers and squeezed it.
She shook her head. The madness I have unleashed. But she did smile. “Goodbye, John. We will talk again soon. Get some rest.” With a soft ping and flash of blue light, she left the two.
No answer.
Bradford sighed as he closed his eyes and let his head hang back.
“What am I thinking?”
“With your emotions and dick more than your brain.” Asaru chided him and smacked his back with a few tentacles. The man yelped. He gave an exasperated sigh as he raised a hand to his bubble-membrane head and rubbed it. “I can’t wait until Maker fixes that.”
“I’ll still have the thoughts… just… less intense.” He admitted, rubbing his back. He felt like it would take decades for him to lose his love for Jynn and move on.
“I know! But that is better than nothing.” Asaru shook his head. “It doesn’t help that she is contemplating entertaining it.”
“She is? She didn’t say anything.”
“Felt it in our connection. It is very subtle since those emotions for her are nearly non-existent, but something is there that isn’t just her wanting to do it for your sake.”
“Huh…”
“Now!” Asaru clasped both hands together as he reached a tentacle out and over to the tablet that was nearby. He quickly snatched it up and brought it back over, tossing it at Bradford. “Let’s make that call to the Avenger. I don’t want to imagine the hell Corvo and the others have been having to put up with.”
The tablet hit Bradford’s chest with a solid thud. It slipped, and he nearly missed catching it.
“Right… let’s get to it.” It was a conversation he wasn’t looking forward to, but knew it had to be done. “Just hope Corvo kept his trap shut.”















