Answers. She needed answers. Or at least some form of an explanation, a reason as to why he seemed to shrug off one of the moments they shared together, a moment she thought was special. Meaningful. Sarah had always been close to Christian throughout the years, but there was a line. An invisible line, but a line nonetheless. And she crossed it while they exchanged those text messages, sayings things she never would have said before. He cracked her foundation. And it certainly wasn’t one-sided — she felt the pull on his end too. But it wasn’t out of the ordinary for him (apparently), which resulted in more thoughts clouding her mind. She was forced to think about what exactly happened, evaluate the situation even further, and she couldn’t help but feel like she was tackling the whole thing from the wrong angle. Her equation was incorrect, the means and the ends didn’t measure up. Perhaps he had always been pulling, and the difference this time was that she pulled back. Yeah. Maybe that was it. But when did it change for her? When did Christian become…more? Sarah was always planning, always thinking, and this thing — whatever was between her and Christian, was no exception. The moment she read his last message, the moment they ended their conversation, she was doing all of those things she was famous for in an attempt to make sense of everything.
After picking something up for her mother, Sarah hopped back into her car, started the engine, and ran a hand through her hair. It had been bugging her all morning. ‘I’m still as head over heels for you as I was when I was seven.’ His message replayed in her head over and over and every time she glanced down at her phone, she was tempted to pull the damn thing up. Why couldn’t she stop thinking about him? It had never been an issue while he was away. Out of sight, out of mind. But once he returned, all of that changed. She saw him in a new light—a brighter one. Was it possible that she simply missed him that much? He was a large chunk of her life, and that chunk was only growing in size. Turning down the volume on the radio, Sarah pulled out of the driveway, and instead of heading to her next destination in order to cross another thing off of her weekly to-do list, she drove to Meredith’s. And, of course, she remembered that he wasn't there. Stupid, stupid, stupid. Remembering the mention of Rebekah, she quickly headed to her place, not even waiting for someone to answer the door before walking right in. She had told him that they needed to talk, so barging in shouldn't have come as a surprise. “Ding-dong, Christian. Come out, come out, wherever you are. We have things to discuss.” Placing her bag down, her eyes flickered around the room. “I brought cookies!”
That was a lie. She didn’t actually bring cookies.