"Is that really your version of an apology?"; "I choose you. No one else. You"; "I gave up a long time ago"; "We could always just run away"
“Is that really your version of an apology?
that was the last strand of patience and before hyungwon realised it, he had snapped, had wrapped slim fingers around the thick end of his wand and pulled it out. the pointy tip was pointing right at her face and the hex was so close too, just on the tip of his sharp tongue.
❮ do not push me. ❯ hyungwon has always had a short temper, yet he had most of the time been all bite and no bark. for him to actually go as far as to pull his wand--
❮ i already said i’m sorry, so what more do you want? i can’t undo what has happened and i can’t change the course of time and not be born, how you seem to wish to so bad, so just get over it already! ❯
"I choose you. No one else. You”
a heavy weight settled on his shoulders at those words. he was all too aware what influence he had over that little girl’s life and he didn’t enjoy it. that was part of the reason why he didn’t want children. it was way too easy to accidentally ruin their lives.
❮ i wish you wouldn’t. ❯ the weight became heavier and hyungwon wished for nothing more than someone to take it off him and allow him to be his careless and thoughtless self that didn’t have to consider his words and actions twice before setting into motion.
“I gave up a long time ago”
❮ then how come you’re still here? ❯
what binds us together? even hyungwon didn’t know and while he wanted to deny it, he knew that something existed that must have drawn them together and made it so hard for them to be separated, to be completely cut off. distance and time didn’t seem to do the trick and hyungwon wondered what would have happened, had he continued to sleep. had he just ignored her or simply scoffed and walked off as he had done with most other girls, what would have happened then?
❮ if you aren’t trying then why are we still here? ❯
“We could always just run away”
the preposition came as suddenly as most things did with chungha.
and as so often, hyungwon wouldn’t even pretend to understand how her thought process came to be or what led he to the conclusions she ultimately arrived at, and as always it would be his job to question and doubt it.
❮ what. ❯ it was a question, posed as a statement and accompanied by a thoroughly displeased and bemused glance.
what could have possible led her to the conclusion that running away would be the best thing to do -- for the two of them together at that -- he would never know, nor would he care to question it out loud.
her overly dramatic head probably lead her to believe that what was stopping them being together was society. the school system. his parents. anything but what was so obviously laying in front of her. maybe it would be for the best to release her from her suffering and tell the truth but at the very last moment, hyungwon could never quite bring himself to do it.
she was always there, but she was constant. she didn’t leave.