10: who has been your supportive idols in your self discovery?
uhh ok - i never really had a “gay icon” when i was a kid, nor do i have one now. i didn’t really label myself as not being straight until i was about 11 years old, but even then I didn’t pay much attention to it because it was just not something i got reminded of a lot - i didn’t have a boyfriend til i was like.. 17 at least, and i was aware i wasn’t particularly seen as desirable, so my sexuality was kind of.. not focused at all on other people. I didn’t need a particular person to look up to because i never ‘struggled’ with being queer because nobody knew about it, and i didn’t particularly want people to. I knew it’d only make them concerned about me, which is what happens when your whole family is catholic and you go to a catholic high school. the only queer media i could consume was fanfiction - so i guess my supportive idols were the characters from my favourite novels and movies (and anime..) who were suddenly presented to me as people I could identify with.
I guess now my idols are my friends! All of my close friends are queer in some way. Also Trixie and Katya because they give good advice, are very funny, and i love them a lot.
11: tell us about your first crush?first crush.. uh i dont remember my FIRST crush but the first one i can recall was on a girl named gemma in my high school and wow she was pretty and ALSO a lesbian so it was like holy fuck?? um? okay? shit what do i do
she was blonde with a short haircut that was spiked up. she was so cool. honestly she looked a little like miley cyrus she was v cute.
