but like it's this beautiful snapshot of grief and loss and how that can destroy you. like oh my god. this is going to sound rambly and not coherent. but like not only grieving the loss of edi, who was shepard's friend, but the loss of the geth too. you take this journey with shepard who's so avoidant and pushes herself well beyond her means for 4 chapters, then this GUT PUNCH of chapter 5 that so beautifully and succinctly pulls together all of it. holy shit. GOD like the personal shame she feels in the loss of the geth, the immediate horror she feels at the suggestion that the bodies (that aren't bodies, but they are bodies-- they're just parts without a core, but that doesn't make them not real FUCK) needed to be jettisoned. and the new waves of grief that come from that. ugh. to the avoidance of tali and rannoch and anything that reminds her of it. just. jesus christ. you are like a master of show, don't tell. it's so subtle and so quiet until it's not, it's screaming in your face. JUST LIKE WAVES OF GRIEF. okay ill see myself out now