#circussystem

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The amount of times we have to explain that whats shared on social media, especially our tiktok, is so specially curated. Of course you don't "see the bad" on there.

Because I'm not going to pull out our phone when I'm having a panic attack/flashback/meltdown what have you. I'm gonna curl up in a ball and cry, or stare at the wall for a few hours. Whatever the day calls for.

Why would we put such vulnerable things out there if people are so hateful towards pleasant things?

-Ryan 💤

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A fun little "draw my squad" thing we did with some of our alters!

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I’m...I...asnfoisblehfaiehlahegljahefroaelij

WHAT

imma cry this is amazing

Camile ✨

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The squawk method

So last night I was hanging out with a good friend of ours who knows in-depth about our system. While we were hanging out we were just sort of driving around which we do, and ended up doing a little bit of country driving. We live in a city that is surrounded by country so we often go driving to get away from the city.  So we’re driving around and I start dissociating really bad and end up switching to Mona. So for a little while Mona was fronting with me still really close in co. We got stuck at a railroad track for about five-ten minutes and we begin dissociating really bad once again. We are dissociating for what feels like a few minutes when my friend next to me makes a squawking sound. Now we both do this a lot randomly but for some reason this squawk hit different. We were dissociated to a point that the world didn’t feel like the world and this squawk brought us right back to reality. I remember jumping a bit after the squawk, and then slowly looking at my friend.  They looked really confused, and also a little worried. I then burst out laughing, having to recollect myself before I could talk. Not only had the squawk pulled us out of the dissociation, it also brought me back to front and grounded me there.

It was honestly such a trip and I just really wanted to share the story. I know for a lot of people, us included, sometimes doing random things or saying random things can help bring you our of dissociation. The most common we’ve seen is saying things like “did you get the llama from the store?” So when this squawk worked as well as it did myself and my friend were very confused and in shock. It was such a funny interaction and we wanted to share and maybe others could use the squawk method.

-Camile  ✨

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System Update

Nothing major no worries, but wanted to give a quick update on two people in our system. I have their permission to post this as they’ve wanted to make the announcement for some time now but didn’t know how to go about it, so I thought I might as well. So they may comment on this further at a later time. 

The news?

We have our first inner-system relationship that would like to come public about their relationship! So here it is.  Raven and Ryan of the Circus System are a couple!

Now what does this mean? Not much really for you guys as viewers, they aren’t the cheesy lovey dovey type so you won’t have to worry about seeing any of that. We just still wanted to make it known, and also to help us document things also. 

Did want to say something about it though. Just because Raven is a fictive doesn’t mean that she doesn’t have the right to a relationship outside of her source. This has been something we’ve seen around in the community and wanted to just point it out. Fictives are their own people and can have relationships of any kind. Their happiness is what matters, and Raven and Ryan are happy. 

-Rayne 🐆

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HELLLOOOO

Hello I am here and you are all my friends now. If you see this message, you are now my best friend. No take backs, no returns, and definitely no refunds. 

-Spinel ❣

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Meet Nina

🌷Name :: Nina  🌷 Age :: 18 🌷 Pronouns :: she/her 🌷 Sexuality :: heterosexual 🌷 Species :: angel 

🌷 Hobbies :: reading, taking walks, meditating 🌷 Likes :: books, order, kindness 🌷 Dislikes :: messes, fighting, horror 

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Hi there it’s lovely to meet you all!

-Nina  🌷

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tw dormancy

So Lucy has decided to go dormant. She made this choice on her own, we don’t really know why, but we trust her choice. She knows whats best for her, and wouldn’t have made the decision if it wasn’t something she was sure about.  I am however...missing her a surprising amount already. Lucy and I never got along...like ever. We often argued and would never agree on anything that the other wanted to do, especially in regards to our choices about what to do with the body. Yet here I am...upset that she didn’t say goodbye to anyone.  I know that it’s okay to miss her and be sad that she’s gone, yet I still feel bad about this. This is most likely going to be something good for her, she’ll come back when she is ready better than ever. But I feel bad for missing her because of that. If this is good for her, than I’m being selfish...right? The others tell me I’m not and that this is normal, but it’s just hard.  One of us is going to make a video about this later, once we are a little more adjusted. I kind of want to be the one to do it, but who knows. For now though we may be a little quiet trying to take the time to deal with this as a system. Thank you,

-Nina 🌷