#cis ocd

[asaltysquid]

Happy Pride month to the Queer folks struggling with Gender and/or sexuality OCD. It's a particular kind of isolating to see everyone in your community get to feel proud, sure, and celebratory in who they are when your brain won't even let you feel good about it for more than 5 minutes. May it get easier for all of us.

[anitha-witchlady]

and she walks in sorrow

Anitha-witchlady

she walks in sorrow

more than

she walks in beauty.

the queen of the night

but by daybreak,

she is nothing

but a deluded man

or so she feels.

not the heroine she dreams of being.

not the goth girl,

and not even the preppy girl.

can't she be pretty too?

no she must be "handsome"

and that grates on her ears.

like centipedes walking all over

pricking, crawling, and tingling,

and not at all a cause for celebration.

she wants gowns and tops

but cannot wear them

it isn't safe- her parents say.

they are right- this is Texas afterall-

but for the wrong reasons.

nevermind that it brightens her,

just thinking about such things.

nevermind that she feels more alive

wearing makeup and chapstick and nail polish

than in not wearing them at all.

she wants to twirl and dance

not to run and tackle.

she wants to be soft and warm

and to smell of cookies

not to smell of body odor and sweat.

she just wants to be a woman- that's it.

the saddest thing is that

she doesn't know that she already is.