Chapter 2
Summary: When Jensen admits to going home with someone else, will his and Y/N's marriage survive?
Warnings: Angst, heartbreak, smut, language
Jensen walks into their room with tears flowing down his face. He is devastated.
Y/N - his wife, his best friend, his everything - is kicking him out. And deep down, he knows she has every right but he couldn't consider that for the pain he felt.
If only she'd let him explain, but what would he tell her? He is the one who fucked up. It is his fault!
Jensen quickly packs a duffel bag of his belongings before heading back downstairs.
Y/N is still standing in the destroyed kitchen, her back to him with her arms across her chest.
He takes one last look at her and says, “I love you” before he walks out the door.
Jensen has nowhere to go; he is miles and miles away from his family -in another country- and he doesn't want to go to Jared's.
He can't bear more of the judgmental looks his friend had given him when it all happened. So he heads to his home away from home, away from home.
Jensen unlocks and opens the trailer before walking up the steps and closing the door.
He sits the bag he had hastily packed on the counter before heading to the fridge to get a bottle of water.
He is swearing off all alcohol. Booze is the crux of his problems. His willingness to imbibe in a nightcap with his friends is what led him here; staying in his trailer on set and his marriage over.
As he lay in his bed that night, alone and secluded, he let his feelings show. He cries for how his life has turned out, he cries because he hurt Y/N and he cries because he knows there is no fixing it.
The next morning, he showers and is heading out the door when he sees Jared approaching.
“Dude, you got here early,” the tall man jests.
“Yep,” is all Jensen replies.
Jared falls into pace with Jensen as they head towards set, completely unaware of the turmoil in his friend's life.
“Gen wants to have a cookout the weekend after next, when we go back to Texas. You and Y/N are invited of course.”
Jensen just hums in acknowledgement. He isn't in the mood to tell his coworker that there would be no more him and Y/N.
The minutes turn into hours, hours into days, and days into weeks yet Jensen doesn't try to contact Y/N and he continues to sleep in his trailer on set.
At first, he was upset. Upset with himself for being so naive and trusting, then upset because Y/N didn't give him a chance to explain. That turned into disgust at himself for allowing himself to even be put in the situation he's in.
Next came anger. He was mad. If Y/N had just listened and let him tell her that he had quickly come to his senses and realized what a mistake he'd made, maybe she would've been more understanding and they would still be together.
After not hearing from his wife for two weeks, he knew their marriage was over. He expected to receive divorce papers any day. She was done. Done with him, done with the life they'd built. Just done.
One month since that fateful night when he confessed his biggest screw-up and his wife kicked him out, he had come to terms with his new life.
He was miserable though and he knew people were beginning to take notice.
Jared had caught on pretty quickly that his friend- his brother- was sleeping at the lot and had asked.
Jensen had explained about what happened; from stupidly trusting a fan, to coming clean to Y/N, to the reason he was practically living in his trailer.
Knowing the whole story, Jared had offered to call Y/N and try to smooth it out but Jensen had refused.
He was in the guilt stage at this point. He had wronged her and no one could fix it.
On set, he morphed into his character of Dean Winchester easily. Dean had a good hold on the pensive and broody aspect. And acting out as his character helped him take his mind off the turmoil of his life.
So Jensen put all his emotion into his character and gave some of his best performances. Still it didn't help. He still felt tainted.
“Mom. Mom. Mom!” Jensen demands into the phone, halting his mother's speech. “Just leave Y/N alone. It's not her fault. She did nothing wrong. I messed it up okay?”
He rolls his eyes as his Mom continues berating him and begging him to do whatever it took to repair his marriage.
“If I promise to try, will you and Mack please leave Y/N alone? No more calling to tell her how I'm doing. No more checking in to see if we've talked. Please Mom? I'm begging here,” he pleads again.
He sighs as he hears her reluctantly agree. “Thank you. I love you. Tell dad I love him too. Bye.”
Jensen hangs the phone up and places it on the coffee table as the door opens and Jared walks in with Cliff, their bodyguard/driver/friend.
The look of apprehension on both of their faces alarmed Jensen. He can tell whatever it is, it isn't good news.
“What?” he inquires, mentally preparing for whatever they're here to tell him.
But no amount of preparedness would suffice as Jared hands him a magazine. Jensen flips it over to see the cover and he feels as if the floor has opened up and his stomach swooped, dipped and dived as if he were on the world’s most deadly roller-coaster.
‘I'm pregnant with Jensen Ackles’ baby’.
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“What the hell are you doing here? How did you get in?”
Jensen lifts his head and looks at Y/N despondent.
“I used my key,” he whispers. “We need to talk.”
“No, we don't,” she replies, flippantly. “Go talk to the mother of your unborn child.”
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