Clint Barton Angst Masterlist
Dollhouse (ao3) - JinxQuickfoot clint/laura, wanda/vision M, 12k
Summary: The torture bingo card.
It was an old joke that had been passed around the SHIELD agents with a darker sense of humor. Phil had disapproved. Fury had pretended not to know. Clint had joined in right away, only to find he had been able to fill out half the squares before the game had even begun, courtesy of a life of bad cards, poor decisions, and worse luck.
No one was ever supposed to win. -------------------------------------- The Barton family gets an uninvited guest, and it has no intention of leaving.
Don't Be Afraid, Be Very Afraid (ao3) - samalander clint/natasha T, 8k
Summary: Even after Clint is freed, even after the battle is won and the villains vanquished, he can’t get warm. He can’t escape the little seed of Loki, and how it is killing him.
And his fingers are turning black and his chest is always numb.
Clint Barton is freezing to death from the inside out. And there is no one who can save him.
Evaluation (ao3) - CNWrites G, 3k
Summary: This time, Bucky looked up. He gave Clint a hard look. “In your own words, you took out three police cruisers and about half a block of the city. Care to explain things a bit further?”
Clint blinked, then blinked again. Bucky was still giving him that look, and it didn’t seem to be because he was playing a part. “Hey, wait a second. You don’t think I… wait, seriously, you’re not blaming this on me, right?”
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In which Clint Barton gets arrested in the middle of a mission. Bucky Barnes gets sent undercover as his psych evaluator in order to help... at least, that's what Clint thought the goal was. Turns out the evaluation is less of a cover than he expected.
hard love (ao3) - myglassesaredirty N/R, 1k
Summary: It's not right. It's not fair.
All she wants is love. A father figure, a mother figure, a friend, a mentor. Just to know that she's loved, truly loved for all that she is and that she is not.
And he turns her away. She can't make sense of it.
I am split in half, but that'll have to do (ao3) - MANIAvinyl clint/bucky N/R, 4k
Summary: Bucky sits there for a while, at the grave that Clint picked for Natasha, staring out into rippling water with something heavy tugging at his heart. Something helpless.
Because he can’t fix Clint. Some things you have to figure out in your own, no matter how much it hurts for the ones around you to watch.
Or; One year after Natasha’s death, Bucky finally gets Clint to admit that something is wrong.
I'll Write Your Memories Until You Live Again (ao3) - macie_the_hero T, 2k
Summary: Clint doesn't know if he'll be able to ever forgive himself. No matter how much he writes, no matter how many journals he fills out, they'll still be gone, and he can't do a damn thing to save them.
I Wanted To Feel Again, But Not Like This (ao3) - incogniteau clint/natasha T, 1k
Summary: Clint returns to living the farm life after the defeat of Thanos, but is it really living without his wife, Natasha, there?
like sick flowers need the sun (ao3) - hoosierbitch clint/phil M, 7k
Summary: Clint hasn't felt this alone in a long time. Coulson's gone, SHIELD isn't a home anymore, and no one on his new team seems to like him. After a lifetime of being ignored, Clint's gotten good at demanding attention. He'll annoy and frustrate and piss everyone off until they notice him. To him, any attention—even the negative kind—is good attention.
This poses a problem when they all finally learn to just ignore him.
Monsters & Magic (ao3) - Night_Hawk G, 10k
Summary: “Natasha…?” Barton's voice is filled with near-tangible concern.
Well, this is delightful. “How touching,” Loki taunts in his smoothest voice. “You will listen to her, of course, Agent Barton. You always have had a soft spot for Tasha, haven’t you?”
Clint and Natasha deal with the aftermath of Loki's mind control
The Aftermath (ao3) - crazyinfj (orpahn_account) G, 1k
Summary: After being a puppet to Loki, Clint faces his fellow agents. For the first time since he first joined SHIELD, he feels utterly alone and misunderstood.
Febuwhump Day #26 Prompt: Recovery
This isn’t so much recovery as it is Clint Barton gets the hug he deserves
The Love You Deserve (ao3) - flawedamythyst bucky/clint T, 8k
Summary: Clint had been in his aunt’s house for less than an hour when it became clear that this hadn’t been his greatest idea.
Clint tries to reconnect with his blood family over Christmas. It doesn't go well, but luckily Bucky's there to pick up the pieces.
this world is not meant for you (ao3) - wheelsupsevenup minor clint/laura T, 4k
Summary: Clint kind of hates the circus.
It’s a little late in the game to be making this realization, almost five years of carnie-ing and assorted archer-related performances under his belt. He’s made a real name for himself in the big wide world of carnival companies in the American Midwest, and he’s not even legally allowed to drink yet.
Not that anyone has to know that.
or; four times clint barton doesn’t miss. (and one time he does, on purpose.)
Turing Test (ao3) - Harishe bucky/clint M, 45k
Summary: In the aftermath of successfully protecting his apartment building from the Russian Mafia, Clint struggles with the loss of a friend and tenant, as well as his hearing. It all seems to be going according to plan until Bucky Barnes shows up in his motel room in the middle of the night. Bucky showing up is only the start of this new, begrudging adventure of revenge and discovering the truth.
Where My Demons Hide (ao3) -TheLittleMermaidDJ T, 13k
Summary: After New York and Loki, Clint is dealing with everything by NOT dealing.
But a mission gone to shit and the appearance of a lost friend might end up being just the thing to pull him back from the edge. Assuming it doesn’t kill him first.
Post first Avengers film.
worth fighting for (worth dying for) (ao3) - bumblewyn M, 2k
Summary: Clint had thought that it would finally be over, that he could finally go home, only to find his messed up mind unable to believe the truth of what he fought so hard for.
Turns out it’s not that easy coming back to a life you’ve mourned for five years, no matter how badly you wanted it back.
You Can Sit Beside Me When The World Comes Down (ao3) - KC_Polar_Bear clint/laura, phil/melinda T, 20k
Summary: "She was looking at him the way she’d looked at him earlier, him standing there in the street surrounded by dead Yakuza, telling her he had a job to do as though anybody had told him to be there except his own impotent rage. When he’d told her not to give him hope, not to give him a ladder to climb out of the hole he’d dug himself into because it was so much easier down there in the dark, where he couldn’t see all the things in his world he hadn’t been able to protect.
In all the years they’d known each other she had never looked at him like that. He hated that he’d put that look on her face."
you’re climbing out of yourself (you’re going to smash into the sky) (ao3) - andibeth82 clint/laura G, 4k
Summary: He goes to New York, he sees a show, he thinks about Natasha, he meets Kate Bishop. He takes her home under the guise of needing his suit back and makes sure she’s safe and meets the pizza loving dog she swears isn’t hers and he tries not to be a bitch about it all or think about how his kids are sleeping alone in a big hotel room, unaware that their dad has abandoned them for the night.
(She asks him to sign his bow and as he stares down at the recurve that’s clearly modeled after his old SHIELD weapon, all he can think of is how he should tell her never meet your heroes.)
