“i see a bad moon rising”
× name: nikrash xyris
× age: 35
× gender identity: cis male
× sexuality: pansexual
× face claim: utkarsh ambudhkar
× faction: the flow
× element: the moon
× district: crozer haven
× traits: malleable, distinct, neat, quiet, studious, caring, pitiable
a small cog within a larger whole you have always felt infinitesimal in your purpose but it never stopped you from trying. not every good deed goes unpunished and for you it feels as if the good deeds are all you manage and they only end in hurt as if you were born under a bad star and have never recovered in your soul the piece of you that was lost upon plummeting to earth.
Two sides of the same coin, but one clearly more favorable, and it wasn’t Nikrash. He was the dark side of the moon, darkened by his sister’s shining and brilliant light, though he never blamed her for it. It wasn’t her fault he was cursed, and at least she never used that against him. In fact, she was always the first to remind him that he has a part to play in this world and to not count himself out. The words didn’t always ring true, but Nik knew she meant well. Sometimes, in his darkest hours, he wondered if she secretly enjoyed being the golden child, but as quickly as the thoughts entered his mind, Nik banished them. But just because you didn’t speak of something, didn’t mean it disappeared.
Nikrash had tried to disappear on more than one occasion, trying to swirl shadows around him, to cloud himself from everyone and everything, only it always ended up making things so much worse. He had no real control over his powers and they flickered in and out of being on a whim, taking any little act of goodness he tried and smashing it with a proverbial hammer. While his sister seemed to love her element and it matched her to her soul, Nik wondered if his own was an utter mistake. The only thing that matched up was the use of shadows, and even that was woefully beyond Nik’s reach.
But that never stopped him from trying to do good. Growing up amongst the Flow, Nik saw potential in everyone. Most days he couldn’t see it in himself, but he tried. He studied, he practiced, and he attempted to do good, even if it came back to bite him at every turn. Sometimes he wondered if part of him was missing, a chunk stolen that would make all of him make sense.
Despite not having his sister’s uncanny ability to see straight into someone’s soul, Nik wasn’t a stranger to the human experience. When he wasn’t trying to hone his abilities, he watched. He watched when others thought he wasn’t. He might not have been able to fade into the shadows using his element, but he may as well have for all the attention others gave him. More and more, Nik noticed the factions lashing out, running around untethered by the Mason in his death. He felt the balance shifting, falling out of orbit.
It was more important now than ever before to get something right, and Nik, despite his shortcomings, knew he had a part to play in what was coming.
hemera
↪ as above so below
you can’t even remember which of you was born first, but it always feel as if they’re the older one. how long have they had to fight your battles for you because of the shift of your luck? they ask, people around town, if your element isn’t actually esotera for all the good it seems to do you. you’re cursed and they’re blessed and you don’t hold it against them but it’s hard to not feel like you’re being patronized even though they don’t mean to do it.
anaxarete
↪ decidedly so
they are everything you feel you are not. composed, calm, dangerous. you know they’re dangerous because you pay attention while everyone else only focuses on other things. you can see the way they carry themselves and you know not to mistake kindness for weakness. you might be a stepping stone but they aren’t and you envy that.
celtine
↪ stalwart hero
you always see them for who she is: a hero. she’s protected you on multiple occasions and the two of you seem to get on well enough. you pride yourself on being one of the people that can get her to smile and she seems ready to spend time with you when you ask. you’ve never known comfort like that outside of your hemera and this one feels somehow precious.
momus
↪ got a bad feeling
who even is he? you know that he’s not what he seems because you ARE what he seems. the meek thing doesn’t look right on him somehow. you know what it looks like and feels like to be forgotten, to be unimportant (at least to your knowledge) to anyone to much degree and that isn’t momus. the second you looked at him you knew, and when he met your eyes... it seemed like he knew you knew. now there’s fear in your belly and you just want to make it out alive.