it was a joke she swears up and down but as soon as your lips meet hers, she knows she’s just as smitten with you as everyone figured. elira knows it was done as a joke, but christ, it really hit her how big her crush on you was. seeing as it was during an off-collab, having the both of you in the same room was already bound to make her blush as the more confident persona started to melt away around you. at that point, it didn’t really even matter that she was streaming, the only thing that mattered was your lips on hers and how she wanted nothing more than to experience that again.
POMU RAINPUFF ->
she’s so silly about it and makes it so you don’t realize how serious she actually is about it until the girl is laying awake at night and thinking about that kiss, those few seconds playing over and over in her head as she longed for you again. it was a cooking stream, so she just kissed you on the cheek while continuing a joke that had been running the whole stream that you and her were secretly a married couple. pomu couldn’t deny that doing such simple domestic things with you made her heart flutter, especially when you jokingly kiss her right on the lips when she compliments your cooking.
SELEN TATSUKI ->
horror game off-collab. (based off her original bendy stream cuz i was highkey obsessed when i was younger and have a pair of bendy pajama pants that have fit since i was 10…damn i really haven’t grown…anyways) she’ll kiss you to keep you from screaming if you’re scared easily. if not, it’s a reward at the end for not getting scared. she knows about the rumors going around, so why not feed into them a little bit and give the people something to freak out over. something about the way selen was so romantic about it made your heart want to beat right out of your chest, face flushed with embarrassment upon realizing she was still streaming and thousands of people just saw that.
MILLIE PARFAIT ->
she is such a menace. irl plate up stream with you, petra, schubert, and millie herself. and by irl plate up, i mean everyone except millie are on a call with you and giving you directions to make a meal in very vague and cryptic ways in a game show-type stream. millie would be the one judging your dish, so it had to be perfect. it was extremely obvious to any viewer that she had a huge crush on you, so she’d probably just give you the win by default, but this time she gave you the win because you genuinely did a good job and your reward was her tackle hugging you and kissing you <3
MELOCO KYORAN ->
she was so flirty from the start that you knew something was up. she wasn’t like this with anyone else, so it was essentially a huge sign that screamed HEY MELO HAS A CRUSH ON YOU!! when she kissed you, even if it was as a joke, she couldn’t have been happier that it had happened at all. something about the passion she expressed in that moment made you blush and get so embarrassed, and christ it was adorable to her.
Hey, random question, but how do you know if you’re bi vs pan? I was really into a person last year who came out as non-binary, and I thought it would change my attraction for them but it really didn’t. I always thought I was bi, but then again, I didn’t really fully grasp what pansexuality was until recently. Help? (Or don’t, either way you’re a cool person)
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hi clover!! i will be truly fully honest with you, i’m probably not the best person to define a “difference” between bi and pan...i think some people find the words interchangeable while others are sticklers for definitions and linguistics. from what i’ve heard explained to me by bisexuals is that bisexuality can consist of attraction to two genders, two genders other than your own, or any gender. when i identified as bi a few years ago (it was my initial label actually), i had understood it in its most literal sense (bi meaning two, and so i was attracted to guys and girls) BUT that was before my gender crisis, and i also was 14 and not very well educated (nor did i knowingly have anyone around me who was queer and also i’d grown up catholic so i wasn’t really exposed...to anything. yet.) so my opinion on that has changed.
i switched my label to pan again because of the literal definition quite early on in my gayhood. i’d discovered that people can be non-binary or gender fluid or agender in any way, and i learned "pan” as an attraction to any person (not all), regardless of gender or without consideration of gender so i thought it fit. while i think bisexuality can mean the same thing (see my second sentence where i mention they can be read as interchangeable), i identified with the pan flag more and the definition more, as i am attracted to any gender and base my attraction off personality traits rather than gender. HOWEVER please note that it is harmful to distinguish the difference between bi and pan as “one considers gender and one doesn’t” because it assumes that bisexuals disregard personality and only care for physical characteristics of a person. this plays into the untrue stereotype that bisexuals are simply “horny” and will have sex with “anyone,” when sexuality is about attraction and not solely about sex. so just be careful and keep that in mind when having conversations or even simply thinking about sexuality!!
i would also like to make it clear that the difference between bi and pan is not that pansexuality includes trans men and women while bisexuality does not. to define these terms as such is to say that trans men are not “really” men, and trans women are not “really” women. this is not true, and invalidates trans people and separates them as “other.” it excludes them from the gender that they are.
ultimately, though, labels take on personal meaning. “bi” can mean whatever you want it to mean, and if you’re comfortable using that label and you feel that your definition of it fits, then you are valid for using it. same goes for literally any other label!! they’re just used as identifiers, and i should also mention here that there is no need to use one/multiple if you don’t want to!! additionally there is always the queer or gay umbrella term (,:
finally, labels can change because sexuality changes. it fluctuates. i identified as bi, and then pan, and lately i’ve been comfortable with either term. i identified as cis, and then realized i am most definitely not cis. two months ago i only used they/them pronouns, now i use he/they!! things fluctuate, it’s human. do whatever feels comfortable for you in the moment!! including using labels. they aren’t fixed, and you can change them whenever you feel the need to do so (:
Thank you for being such a wonderful comfort blog. I truly love your poetry; it makes me think of old, soft songs like ‘dream a little dream’ and drinking tea
Also, did you know there’s one type of jelly fish that’s immortal? (Turritopsis dohrnii ) I learned that today and thought it was sick as hell.🐙
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oh!! 🥺 thank you so much clover AAA!! drinking tea vibes are like. my ULTIMATE goal i'm!! <33 and no, i didnt know that! did this stem from the trueform jellyfish cas stuff circulating? sbshsjd i love that!!
if people get disappointed because you have better things to do than post on tumblr nonstop then boo on them :/
honestly i’m more concerned about you burning out, like you hit the ground RUNNING.
if you need to slow down, i and many others will be waiting for you!
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the thing is that i don’t have much of a personal life, like writing is the only thing i have to do sometimes that makes me happy but sometimes i just don’t wanna yk?
and you’re right i did hit the ground running 😭 and i have been feeling a bit burnt out lately but i have quite a few requests and matchups to do still
i’m going to get sushi with my bestie in a while tho so hopefully i’ll be feeling better by then and keep writing things for you lovely people <3
hey! i hope my request didn’t come off as me requesting a fem reader (unless i did put fem reader on accident, i deadass can’t remember 😬), personally i prefer making gn requests more so more people can enjoy the posts
i know you weren’t talking about a specific request, but i’m just clarifying just in case!
