I habe alot...
🧭,🌒,🪦,🧩,🕸,✉️
Thatz it
WAOW THAT WAS FAST!!
sorry if i responded way too late btw i js got back from DYING.. anyways... my very long character analysis of the bill. im normal about him as you can see...
warning. insane wall of YAP beneath the cut.
🧭 : where would they go if they could disappear tomorrow ?
ouh... this is a tough one... i could just say "ehm i don't think he's the type of person to do that" but thats boring!! so.
If he was to disappear tomorrow, he'd run off to the other side of town. Not to Joe's Fantasy World, not to the local Toys R Us, just somewhere his friends and family wouldn't expect him to be. I'm not saying he's secretly some sort of emotional "soft boy" who needs a place to brood in private—if anything, he'd probably just gravitate to another different geek space in a new neighbourhood. He'd just want some space away from other people, not his interests. He loves his interests too much to leave them behind completely.
🌒 : do they have a dream or goal they have given up on ?
This is kind of self-projecting and is a TOTAL stretch by itself, but maybe Bill once wanted to be a comic artist when he was really young. I don't think a lot of kids read their first comic and immediately aspire to be the most renowned collector on the scene (lmao i know i didn't!). He probably started the club making his own comics when he was like 9 or 10, dreaming up new adventures for his favourite characters or maybe even making his own superheroes to make comics of.
Tragically, I think that this dream died pretty early on. You wouldn't guess that he's an artistic person in the pilot or the comics, which leads me to believe that something violently snuffed that spark out, causing him to just repress that creativity entirely. Chances are, it was a mix of the people he was supposed to be close to (like his parents or maybe even the club) thinking it was a dumb idea, him comparing his art to others and judging himself too harshly, and just a lack of support all-around. Personally, I think his obsessive overconsumption is a way to fill the void left behind—he stopped creating and started consuming.
🪦: what would they want on their gravestone but never admit aloud ? i have a canon-accurate and fanon answer for this question!! Canon-accurate, i feel like Bill would be too absorbed in his fandom escapism to think deeply about his future for even a second. It probably wouldn't ever occur to him what he'd want on his gravestone, and if the topic ever did happen to cross his mind, it would probably be for a sarcastic quip or offhanded joke, if that makes sense. Like, someone would suggest he should stop shoplifting things for his collection and he'd shoot back with something like, "bla bla bla playing fair doesn't get you anywhere!!! i'd love to have that on my gravestone, 'bill dickey, #1 most ethical collector'!!" If you know what I mean.
My fanon answer though, is that he'd definitely want some edgy quote from a comic book or superhero on that thing. Most likely from Batman. Realistically, he'd also probably choose a quote that doesn't fit him at all, either because (again) he doesn't actually care that much or he has a drastically different view of himself that doesn't remotely reflect what he's actually like.
🧩: what’s a truth about themselves they refuse to admit ?
That he has more depth and room to grow than he thinks he does.
As we can see from the epilogue, most of the members of the club change minimally. Sure, they might have new jobs and might've learned a couple new things in the ten years they were apart, but in the end, they've still got the same anger, the same selfishness, the same childish behaviour. The simple answer is that Bill, just like Pete and Josh, just can't be bothered to change because he's the haha evil guy, but that's not a very high-school-English-class-worthy conclusion, is it?
The truth is, change is scary, which is something that pretty much everyone has felt at some point in their life. That doesn't justify Bill growing to be so immature that he still behaves like an edgy 17-year-old while he's pushing 30, but maybe he is the way that he is because the pain and emotions that inevitably come with growth scared him to the point that he convinced himself that he's already good enough and doesn't have any more room to explore and grow. He'd probably do some crazy mental gymnastics to justify his bad behaviour, like believing that his hate-driven rants about media he's a fan of is a good substitute for real-world critical thinking and that his anger issues and short temper are just his confidence.
Basically, a recipe for absolutely zero self-improvement and essentially becoming like the flat, 2D characters he sees on the page because it's comfortable to stay the same.
Oh yeah also he's like 100% bi or pan or like. definitely not straight in general. i could go on a whole other three-paragraph yap about that but long story short... this guy definitely has enough internalised homophobia to fuel the insecurities of six separate questioning teenage boys lmfaoo
🕸️: do they have a favourite lie they like to hear ?
Definitely anything that feeds his big ego or affirms that he's already in the "all clear" and doesn't need to change, like I said before. People definitely aren't complimenting him outright in real life though, so he makes up the "lies" in his head and searches for traces of them in the things people say. Basically, he lies to himself. Need i say more.
And if someone actually says one of said lies word-for-word to his face? Oh baby. That's like letting him snort a fat line of crack. He'll be riding that high for daysss.
✉️: what kind of letter would they write but never send ?
Asides from the hate letters to show writers that he gives up on and doesn't end up sending (lol), Bill has likely held back on sending make-up emails to his friends a countless number of times.
Over the course of the comic, we can see the club repeatedly going "no contact" and cold-shouldering each other after an incident for a little while, before they inevitably go, "what the hell, we're lonely and want to hang out!" and get back together again.
Chances are, they probably make amends over online chat rooms or emails if they don't want to talk to each other in real life, which also explains why these truces never last long since they're not interacting face-to-face. And that makes me wonder if Bill used to put sincere time and care into his apology emails before, you know, just not caring after some time passed.
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i hope you liked this analysis!!! lwk projected a lot in these. hm i wonder why