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codenamesexy replied to your post “Guys, what's with all the Sasha Grey on my dash tonight?”

cuz she's AMAZING! obvs.

I ain't complaining, I'm just curious as to why tonight. It's coming from like 10 different sources and all different pictures. Hey she's a babe though so I'm cool with it. Plus dat ass.

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Fic War: Rose and the Doctor

Fic War Prompt: Ten/Rose, angst. Plot Summary: Ten risks everything to be with Rose when he discovers that she’s pregnant, only to have his world crushed when both Rose and his unborn son both die during labour. extra: he can’t use the tardis to travel back.

Chapter One

Chapter Two

Chapter Three

Chapter Four

Chapter Five

Chapter Six

Chapter Seven

Chapter Eight: Bittersweet Goodbyes

Rose

Rose checked into her hotel room and took a deep breath. He would be owing either today or tomorrow. She took her phone out and called the Doctor.

He answered on the first ring, "Rose."

"I'm all checked in Doctor."

"I'll be on the beach tomorrow evening. A few more things for me to do on the TARDIS then I will pop right over." 

Rose was still unsure about the whole thing. He couldn't die. She could and so would their kids eventually. "Are you sure?"

"Yes! Rose, please! Stop!" The Doctor was exasperated.

"I'm sorry! I just want to make sure that this is the right choice."

"It is for me! And for you and our child!"

"I'll see you tomorrow then?"

"Yes."

"Ok. I love you Doctor."

"And I love you Rose."

They hung up the phone and Rose laid in the bed. The Doctor had told her that she would be be pregnant for a year and she had almost cried. But the child was part Time Lord.

Her hands rested on her stomach and she stared at the ceiling. Rose wanted the Doctor to come and stay with her. Live with her, be domestic but something was off about all of this but she wasn't sure what. You're being paranoid. Hush.

Doctor

He knew Rose was second guessing his choice but didn't care in the least. She was etched on his hearts-as was their child now. 

The Doctor had found a messenger bag and was able to replicate the technology used to make the TARDIS bigger on the inside on the bag. He had put as many things that he could possibly could from the TARDIS. 

The Doctor finally felt as if he could have gotten everything he needed/wanted from the TARDIS, he sat at the console. The reality of what he was about to do, hit him. 

The Doctor's hearts ached. He rested his hands over the controls-tears threatening to spill over. "We've had a good run Old Girl." The TARDIS hummed sadly, "I'm going to be a dad again. And Rose needs me." The TARDIS hummed deeply in disagreement. "You're right-who am I kidding? She'd be fine without me. But I need her." Tears began to leak out of his eyes. "I love you, Old Girl." He kissed the console and patted it once more. "Allons-y." The word fell from his lips in a soft, hushed tone. He pressed the buttons necessary to take him to Bad Wolf Bay. The Doctor stood at the doors, bag slung over his shoulder. "Good-bye."

[badwolfthroughtimeandspace]

Fic War: Rose and the Doctor

Fic War Prompt: Ten/Rose, angst. Plot Summary: Ten risks everything to be with Rose when he discovers that she’s pregnant, only to have his world crushed when both Rose and his unborn son both die during labour. extra: he can’t use the tardis to travel back.

Chapter One

Chapter Two

Chapter Three

Chapter Four

Chapter Five

Chapter Six: Decisions

Two Months Later

Doctor

"I've got it!" The Doctor had slaved away for the last two months, tinkering, searching, figuring out how to get to her-to bring her to him. He and Rose talked on the phone every morning and night. They had attempted phone sex multiple times but it just wasn't their thing. But this was all besides the point now: he has figured out how to get Rose.

There was a catch though. 

He would lose her. She would be lost. There was a choice he had to make. He had to choose between losing her or losing the most important thing to him (now two most important things). 

Lose his TARDIS to the whole in the universe. Or leave his Rose and child in the other universe to not be raised by him. 

His TARDIS would be destroyed-most completely and utterly, no hope of ever regrowing it, rebuilding it, nothing. It would be gone forever. 

The Doctor tugged at his hair and dialed Rose's number.

"Doctor?" Rose's happy voice came through on the other end. 

"Rose." He did his best to hide his conflict ion in his voice. 

"What is it?" Rose was clever.

"Well, love, I've figured out how to come to you."

There was screaming and laughter and tears on the other side of the phone. "Doctor! That is fantastic! What's wrong then?!" A small smile ghosted his lips before disappearing. 

"We wouldn't be able to live on the TARDIS."

"Why not?" Her excitement was dying down slowly. 

"Rose, there is a choice I have to make…" He couldn't keep the pain out of his voice. 

"Well, out with it Doctor." Rose was scared.

"I lose the TARDIS-forever. No rebuilding. It's the only way to seal the whole I will rip into the universe… Or not come for you at all." The Doctor stumbled over his words. These choices ripped at him, he was torn. The one thing that made him, him. Or the one-two things that made him feel whole. 

"Doctor, I would be lying if I didn't say I want you to choose to me and our baby. But, Doctor, the TARDIS is who you are. I won't let you lose that." Rose's voice was soft.

"Rose, it's our baby. It's you. I'm losing you. I'm losing our family." The Doctor was still torn.  

Rose

He could find her. She could be reunited with her Doctor. The joy she felt was indescribable. But there was something about the Doctor's tone. 

When he told her, Rose knew it was too good to be true. 

"It is our baby and it is our family-but I-we don't make up who you are." Rose fought back tears as she spoke. Every word she said was true. 

"But, Rose, you could. You and our little macaroon could be the 'new' me." 

"Doctor, you and I both know that arguing over this point won't do much for either of us. You have a decision to make. Whatever you choose-I will be behind you one hundred percent. I am yours and you are mine. Even if we have a world between us-nothing will change."

"But Rose-"

"No buts Doctor. I'm letting you go now. Call me when you make a choice. I will love you no less with whatever choice you make.  I love you."

"I love you too."

Rose ended the phone call and sat on the chair. She took a deep breath. Her hands rested over her slight bump. She had to go to the doctor's office tomorrow. She had yet to go for the reason of trying to keep it under wraps. Pete Tyler was quite the celebrity-and the long lost daughter had returned. Her name and face was plastered in the papers for months. She tried to keep a low profile. But since she was pushing four months-it was time. 

***

Rose fiddled with her zipper and her leg bounced up and down. 

"Rose, it's fine. This man is our private doctor. It won't be plastered all over the news."

"But mum-"

"Rose. It's fine. Have to make sure my grand baby is healthy." Jackie Tyler patted her daughters leg in comfort. 

"Rose Tyler." Rose and Jackie stood up and followed the man to the back. She laid out on the table and the doctor told her he would be right back. 

The ultrasound technician came into the room and greeted Rose. 

Her shirt had been raised, her jeans pulled down a bit, the goop had been poured on, the wand at the ready. 

"Well, let's take a look." The woman smiled warmly. The wand went over her stomach, "Next month we will be able to tell you it's gender." A heart beat was found and Rose grinned widely. 

"Oh, wait a minute." Rose froze, her frantic eyes searching for her mum. "Looks like you will be having twins-there is a second heart beat." Her eyes widened, stomach clenched. 

"Are there two babies?"

"Well-that's just it. I'm not finding the second one-but it could be hiding behind the first one."

Rose's eyes locked onto her mother. 

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Fic War: Rose and the Doctor

Fic War Prompt: Ten/Rose, angst. Plot Summary: Ten risks everything to be with Rose when he discovers that she’s pregnant, only to have his world crushed when both Rose and his unborn son both die during labour. extra: he can’t use the tardis to travel back.

Chapter One

Chapter Two

Chapter Three

Chapter Four

Chapter Five: Blushing 

Doctor

Something began to nag the Doctor's mind as he continued to sonic and tinker-trying to figure out how to to get across the universe without breaking it too badly. Time. Time was on his mind-there was something about-Rose! Five hours and he was to call after five hours. His hands tugged at his hair and went back to the top of the TARDIS and dialed her number. 

"Doctor!" The smile in her voice was unmistakeable. 

"Rose, love, how was work?"

"Long and tedious. Some alien decided to harbor underneath the bridge without checking in with Torchwood. We talked it out and got him to go home… And when I say 'talked it out' it got rough." Rose's nonchalantness of the whole situation-the fact that it got rough-caused the Doctor to make a disagreeable noise.

"Rose, I don't think that you should be going to missions like that." His hand went through his hair once more.

"Doctor-please, I was a safe distance away-I did the talking love. Don't worry." She kept her voice soothing.

"You should not tell me to 'not worry' about you. Rose, I will worry about you until the very end of the whole entire universe-even then."

"Okay Doctor." Rose sighed and he sighed with her.

Their conversation between many topics-Torchwood missions, universe savings, the tinkering the Doctor did, and Rose living a 'normal' life. It soon drifted to memories between them and their love.

The Doctor's voice dropped to a husky whisper, "So Rose, this brings us to what happened in our bedroom."

Rose giggled shyly, "Yeah?"

"Yeah."

Rose

"Rose, what're you wearing?" The Doctor's voice was still husky and Rose blushed lightly. 

"Doctor!" Rose dramatically gasped.

"Come on, it's just a simple question." The Doctor still needled and Rose rolled her eyes.

"A nightie."

"What type?"

"Doctor!"

"Humor me. Please?"

"A lingerie type one-not like the ones I had in the TARDIS-this is much more acceptable for sleeping." Rose giggled again and the Doctor was quiet. 

"What does it look like?" His voice was inquisitive. 

Rose sighed, "It's short, it-"

"How short?"

"Upper thigh. And will you please let me finish?!" She took his silence that he understood. "It's blue, straps, silk, some support on the upper end."

"What underwear?"

"Doctor! Please, behave!"

"Rose!" The Doctor groaned.

"None."

"None?"

"None." He  groaned again-but this time in want. 

"Rose, what I'd give to have you here with me."

Rose bit the inside of her cheek contemplating whether or not to say what was on her mind. There would be no harm in… asking. Right? "What would you do to me if I was there with you?" Her voice turned much huskier as she spoke. 

"Well, I'd snog your face off-that's for sure. Then carry you to bed. I would trail kisses down your neck, down your body down your leg and back up it to only stop at-"

"Doctor!" Rose interrupted breathlessly. 

"What?" His voice was innocent enough. 

"We can save phone sex until a bit later. I just want you to talk to me until I fall asleep. Do you mind?"

"Not at all Rose, why would I?"

"Thanks Doctor. I love you."

"And I love you. Now hush let me get talking to put you and our little macaroon to sleep." Rose smiled at his nickname for their baby. 

She listened to him talk until she nodded off and only woke up slightly to him saying 'I love you' and whispering good night. Rose snuggled into the covers and fell into a deeper sleep.

Doctor

The problem with his mind was that he could picture perfectly what Rose was wearing and what it looked like on her. He could picture the way she would look at him, the screams that would leave her mouth, his name being moaned. The thoughts aroused him-his thoughts went further and he groaned. His fantasy played out before him and hit his head against the wall a couple of times. 

The Doctor ran to the shower and set it to cold. He didn't want to relieve himself-that was reserved for Rose-and now with the possibility to get her-he wanted to wait. But could he? 

The shower cooled him down significantly-yes. Yes he could wait for her. And he would. 

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Fic War: Rose and the Doctor

Fic War Prompt: Ten/Rose, angst. Plot Summary: Ten risks everything to be with Rose when he discovers that she’s pregnant, only to have his world crushed when both Rose and his unborn son both die during labour. extra: he can’t use the tardis to travel back.

For Chapter One

For Chapter Two

For Chapter Three

Chapter Four: Promises and Sweet Nothings

Rose

"Doctor, listen to me, that might not be the most wise thing to do." Rose wanted him to come and get her-let them be together and raise their child, but, not like this. 

"Rose-that's our baby. Apart of me-part Gallifreyan." The pain in his voice was evident.

"Doctor, no hush. Listen to me. I want you to come and get me. I want us to raise our child. But-if you could have gotten me then you would have-"

"Rose Tyler-I will rip a new hole in the universe to come and get you."

"Doctor… that's not rational or logical." Rose's voice was soft.

"Rose, I have been thinking of ways to bring you back to the TARDIS, back to me… You just gave me a reason to try that much harder." The Doctor's voice was pleading. 

"Don't break the universe." Her voice was still soft.

"If I do, I will just have you help me put it back together." His tone was endearing. 

"Doctor…"

"Rose…"

There was a pregnant silence between them and he broke it. "I love you. I'm coming for you."

"And I love you. Will you call me soon?"

"Who said I was done talking with you?"

Rose laughed, "Doctor, I need to go to work. Call me in about," She checked her watch, "Five hours. Ok? I should be home."

"Be careful, please." He was silent for a few beats, "Can you put me on speaker phone?"

"Um, sure?" Rose did so, "You're on."

"Would you mind putting it near your abdomen?" His sheepish voice filled the room. Rose smiled warmly at the request.

"Of course Doctor." Rose placed her phone next to her stomach.

"Ok little-well we don't know if you're female or male, so I guess macaroonon is a gender neutral name… Anyways. Ok our little macaroonon, be good to your Mummy, she loves you very much-as do I." The Doctor cooed over the phone and Rose's heart warmed. "Um, Rose, you can take me off speaker phone now."

Doctor

He knew that Rose was going to bring that up but he wasn't prepared for the agony it set in his heart or for the agony in her voice. He was just happy that she wasn't fighting him on this situation anymore. 

The Doctor didn't want to hang up the phone with her just yet-they've only started talking after a month! But she did have work. His next action though-embarrassed him slightly-though it was just him, his Rose, and their little macaroon. The Doctor yearned to rub his hands over her stomach, to rest his head there, whisper the baby stories of his youth… 

"How're you feeling?"

"Oh I'm fine-had my first bout of morning sickness this morning. But other than that-I'm fine. Miss you."

"Morning sickness? Rose." The Doctor groaned and ran his hands through his hair-he should be there for all of this. 

"Doctor, it's fine. I'm alright-I swear." Her tone was soothing and it only made him feel worse. "Both of us are and I know you will be too."

"Well, I better let you get to work then. I love you Rose."

"And I love you Doctor, I will talk to you in a bit." 

"Bye."

"Not for long Doctor." There was a smile in her voice and they both hung up. 

The Doctor climbed down from the top of the TARDIS and sat at the console for a moment. How was he going to get to his Rose and his baby? He had given up on trying to get her back and focused on the phone. But now, he had a reason to rip a whole in the universe. 

He went under and opened up one of the console's grates and began sonicing and rewiring-losing himself in the project and thoughts of his future as a father and Rose's significant other. 

[badwolfthroughtimeandspace]

Fic War: Rose and the Doctor

Fic War Prompt: Ten/Rose, angst. Plot Summary: Ten risks everything to be with Rose when he discovers that she’s pregnant, only to have his world crushed when both Rose and his unborn son both die during labour. extra: he can’t use the tardis to travel back.

For chapter one click on here:)

For chapter two click here:D

Chapter 3: The Phone Call

Doctor

At Rose's irritated voice the Doctor chuckled. My Rose. "Agent Tyler…" 

"I said I'm at bloody Torchwood to start the mission." The connection went fuzzy for a moment and the Doctor laughed sadly again at her frustration. 

"Rose…"

"What? Am I being too disagreeable? Who are you? I'm going to talk to Pete Tyler about this." 

"The Doctor." There was the static of the bad connection for a moment.

"This is an cruel joke-whoever you are. This is not acceptable and I'm going to have Pete find you and deal with you." He could hear the strain in her voice to keep the tears at bay.

"Rose Tyler, Defender of the Universe, Bad Wolf, all pink and yellow and took my hand when I told her to run… I swear to you, that this is the Doctor." Another pregnant silence. 

"D-Doctor…?" He could hear the tears in her voice and he yearned to kiss them off of her face and hold her to never let her go again. 

"Rose." A warm smile filled his face. 

Rose

Rose didn't register the voice in the slightest. She even argued with the man on the line-using her 'father' as a threat. 

But as soon as the man on the phone told her the name, her stomach dropped, chest tightened and tears threatened to brim over. This was cruel, awful, and heart breaking. Pete was going to have to take care of this man whoever he may be-this was malicious and cold-hearted. But as this man described her in the only way that the Doctor could know. She was shocked-tears spilled over. She stuttered out his name. Her heart constricted, her Doctor. The very man who seemed to have captured her single heart with his heart. She could hear the warmth in his voice.

"How're you calling me? You're not burning up another sun are you?" Her voice was happy, tears streamed freely, and her tone was only slightly scolding. The Doctor laughed softly and her breath caught.

"Ah, Rose, my Rose. No-I've been fiddling with a mo- lat- trying to- work for- you." His voice began to cut out and she gripped the phone tighter.

"Doctor! Doctor! You're cutting out!" Her voice was frantic.

"Ro- I lov-" He kept cutting out.

"I love you too Doctor." Rose spoke loudly into the phone. Static cut in and that's all she could here. Rose kept the phone to her ear until the automated voice told her there was no one on the line and hung up for her. 

She was frozen to her spot before she realized she should sit down. Rose slowly went to the floor-shock still running through her veins. Her Doctor called her. He did something incredible-possibly throwing something off course, just to talk to her. He loved her and she loved him. The number was unknown and there was no way for her to call back. 

Rose began to weep.

Doctor

When Rose scolded him, he couldn't help the chuckle that escaped him. Just like her. He heard her panic on the other end as he began to cut out. Bloody connection. "Rose, I love you!" He hoped she heard him because he heard her. That was important for him to tell her that so she knew. 

It cut out and he yelled in frustration. 

The Doctor sat for awhile sonicing the phone again. His mind traveling at a 100 miles per hour when it struck him. He sprinted down the many corridors of the TARIDS until he came across the room with various bars, antennas, and towers. He grabbed a bit of everything and soniced them into place and raced back to the console. The Doctor haphazardly climbed his way to the top of his ship and placed the metal contraption over the light on the Police Box. "This ought to do it." The Doctor mumbled to himself. 

He punched Rose's numbers in again and dialed. The connection was nearly clear-hopefully no chance in losing her again. 

Rose

Her phone rang once and she answered it immediately, "Hello?" 

"Rose, I'm so-"

"Doctor!"

"I think I've might have fixed the problem!" There was obvious pride in his voice.

"Of course you would. You're the Doctor." 

There was a pause, "How are you Rose?"

"Well… I've been better to say the least." Rose gritted her teeth afterwards-he didn't need to hear that. 

"I'm so so sorry Rose." His voice was anguished and Rose yearned to reach through the phone and hold his hand. 

"S'alright Doctor. Nothing we can do now… But at least I can talk to you." Rose smiled to herself. 

"That you can do."

"So, how has saving the universe been?" She was curious if he had taken on another companion-she never wanted him to travel alone.

"Eh, it gets saved. Every time. But it's rather boring without my Rose." There was a sadness to his voice and Rose's smile weakened.

"You'll find another companion Doctor, I swear love." Her voice tried to convince him. 

"I don't want another…"

"Doctor… I'm in another world that you cannot get to… If you could, I wouldn't of spent the last month here being hit on by Mickey and trying to find a way to you."

"Wait.. Mickey is hitting on you?" She heard the frustration, irritation and slight anger in his tone.

"Doctor… we were a couple before you and I… I let him down gently every time…" She needed to tell him of the baby.

"Well, Rose, you don't need to do that for my sake." 

"Well it's not just your sake…"

"Who else's Rose? Your mum's? Pete's? We both know that they wouldn't mind." Before he could go into full rant mode Rose interjected.

"Doctor, it's not them either. It's me and… Well… your-I mean our- baby." 

Doctor

Rose answered immediately and the Doctor sighed in relief. His Rose hadn't changed at all. She still believed in him as much as he believed in her-though he thought his faith in her was a bit more than hers in him. She was able to attempt to move on while he only tried to contact her. 

Her words cut him deeply and his hearts broke. All he could do was talk to her now-he hoped to try to do video chats or something of the sort… The Doctor shook his head, That won't help her adjust.

The though of Micky hitting on her and wanting to take her out angered him-she was his. She was the one who made his hearts skip beats and it was Rose that made him genuinely happy. She was a simple object to Mickey-something that was familiar and stuck to him. Why venture out when you can have safety? Those thoughts frustrated him even more. He couldn't help but feel better when she said she would turn him down. 

Not just for me? Then for who else? Confusion was an emotion that the Doctor did not often get and it worried him. Was it for someone else? Another person who had taken up her heart-the one he left mangled and broken? Before he could go on his rant how she doesn't have to wait for him she interjected.

The Doctor fell silent as Rose stumbled over her words.

"It's me and… Well… your-I mean our-baby." In that moment he could have sworn his hearts stopped. Of course it was possible-even if Rose was on birth control.

"Doctor, say something." Rose's voice was stressed-definitely not good for the baby.

"How far along?" His words were whispered.

"Two months. And yes, I'm sure it's yours because you were the only person I've had sex with in the last three years." Rose's voice was equally as quiet.

The Doctor made a split decision-he didn't care how he was going to do it. But he was.

"Rose."

"Yes Doctor?"

"I'm coming to get you." 

[badwolfthroughtimeandspace]

Fic War: Rose and the Doctor

Fic War Prompt: Ten/Rose, angst. Plot Summary: Ten risks everything to be with Rose when he discovers that she’s pregnant, only to have his world crushed when both Rose and his unborn son both die during labour. extra: he can’t use the tardis to travel back.

For chapter one click on here:)

Chapter Two: Trial and Error

"Hello?" There was no sound on the other end and then a throat cleared.

"Yes, Agent Tyler, we have a mission for you to complete…" Rose listened attentively to the details, promised to be there within the hour and began to get ready for work-her former thoughts muffled again. 

As Rose drove to Torchwood she began to realize that she was no longer taken by the things from this world-she was used to them (granted it had been a month). Something she never wanted to do-get used to anything. Rose craved new cultures, new species, something new and different every time. But most importantly she craved her Doctor.

When she entered the building she muffled her thoughts once again. Mickey came to her with a grin on his face as he greeted her. He had no idea of the baby-Pete and her mum were the only ones that knew due to the fact she was so early in her pregnancy and the baby was half alien. Rose gave Mickey a tight smile. 

"So Rose… If you weren't busy this Friday night, would you wanna go out an see a movie?" Mickey asked her out regularly-only waiting a couple of weeks for her to 'recover' from losing her Doctor.

Rose's smile disappeared,  "I'm sorry Micky, I have a previous engagement." With the couch, Jen and Berrys (Rose found it comical that that was the name for her favorite brand of ice cream-which back in her world was Ben and Jerrys), a movie and my pajamas. Rose thought in her head but wouldn't dare add.

"Come on Rose-it's been a month, you must be over him by now!" Mickey was frustrated and Rose narrowed her eyes and took a deep breath. 

"I said I'm busy. And it's none of your business to know where I am at with that." Rose growled at him and went on her way. Mickey had pushed a button that wasn't ready to be pushed and it made Rose's wall of protection crumble around her. She went to the loo and locked it behind her. A few tears escaped her eyes before a wave of nausea hit her. "Oh no." Rose moaned and emptied the contents of her stomach-morning sickness. 

She rinsed her mouth out and fluffed her hair before continuing onto her office. As she walked in her cell phone began to ring again. Bloody hell, I'm here!

The number was blocked and she answered the phone-thinking it was Torchwood.

"Bloody hell! I'm here-Agent Tyler is at Torchwood!" Her voice was exasperated. 

Doctor

The Doctor stayed up for the next two days-no sleep, figuring out how to make the mobile phone work. 

But he thought it was ready. Well maybe. 

The Doctor stared at the phone for a long while, debating on what to do. Whether to be the most selfish Time Lord possible but hear his sweet Rose's voice or to continue on with his lonely life, saving worlds and universes.

He was ready.

The Doctor took a deep breath and dialed Rose's phone number. He held his breath as it rang once then turned to a 'busy signal' that soon turned to static. The connection was lost-he was so close to her voice.

Maybe this was a sign for him to leave it. Let her be.

But she was his Rose.

The Rose who taught him how to love again, the Rose who helped him balance fire and ice, fell through space with him. His Rose Tyler saved him in more ways than one. And she was gone. 

His hands tugged at his hair; why was he having such a difficult time justifying what he wanted to do. He wasn't committing a mass genocide or anything similar. He may throw the universe off course for a bit-but he would have his Rose and they could fix it together.

The Doctor hadn't come to make a decision-he put the phone down. "What am I to do?" His voice held an agony that had been accumulated over 900 years. The agony that Rose could identify and comfort. The TARDIS hummed beneath him, attempting to comfort him. He patted the console endearingly, "Thanks Old Girl." He wandered down to his room and slept for a few fitful hours with torturous dreams of Rose and him throughout their time together. When being a sleep was no longer an option-he came to a decision.

He was going to try again.

With a sigh, the Doctor walked back to the console and picked up the mobile phone. He punched in her number and stared at the glowing numbers. His hearts were pounding in his chest-he pressed 'send' and listened to the fuzzy ringing tone-holding his breath-waiting for Rose's voice on the other end. 

And his Rose answered.

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Thanks for pissing me off.

I let him know from the fucking start how messed up i was okay? I gave him the chance to leave before he saw how fucked up I actually was. I gave him the chance, but he chose to stay. I'm sorry I trusted him. I'm sorry I gave love a second chance and he stabbed me in the back. It's my fault isnt it? I thought maybe he was different. Turns out he wasn't. He left me just like everyone else. You know what? Maybe I can't sort out my own damn problems. But you know what? He told me he was there if i needed to talk. And so I talked to him about things. Then he left. I think I have a reason to be upset about it. He lead me on. He made me believe that he was truly there for me when he wasn't . I'm sorry okay? I'm sorry i can't do anything right. But it's bullshit that I can't express myself on my own damn blog without being judged. That is pure bullshit. You have no right to talk to me like I'm stupid and worthless. Maybe I'm overreacting but you're a dick. The both of you.