#cola problems

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I know I dont post often really anymore but Ive been sorta going through a rough time and today my oldest cat suddenly passed away. I had to say good bye this morning and I miss him already. Jasper was the best kitty Ive ever had and I love him with all my heart. Wherever you are now buddy, Im sure theres lots of meat and milk and you are the happiest you could be. If anything thats what I hope.

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art of @cola-problems

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Made a vampire oc based off my Halloween costume from this year, her names Briar. She’s hella old and the youngins’ dont like her cause she’s too bubbly.

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Wanted to make a ‘meet the artist’ thing cause it seemed like fun, and it was!

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So. This is Mothriel, the main oc of the comic Im developing. Im soo excited to be working on this, like I havent been this just. Happy to draw. in forever. Feels pretty good.

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Its like a small little funny thing every time I talk about my ADHD around my mom cause it makes her super uncomfy cause I went completely undiagnosed until I was 25 and she believed I was simply lazy and sabotaging my life to spite her but aha…I was just neurodivergent.

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So I got approved for a loan today ._. And on the one hand this means Im deeper in debt again, but on the other I can now officially leave Indiana. 8 years later than I wanted to, but I actually get to leave. I’m not stuck here anymore, I can fucking go. 

And it feels like not a big deal? I’m just moving? But it’s such a damn relief. For the first time since I was a teenager I don’t feel stuck. I can actually do shit. I can go places, I can maybe actually start some kind of life?

It just feels like a door opened and now there’s all these possibilities, good and bad, but they’re there. And I get to choose where I go from here. Because I can finally go!

Just ugh I’m so happy.

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I’ve been experimenting with Delilah’s outfit, this isn’t her new design but it is cute! : )