i'm in such a weird spot, coming-out wise. Like, I'm really open about my pansexuality, and I tell all my friends and acquaintances (and strangers, even) about it, but I still feel mostly closeted. Like, I'm never going to tell my parents. I'm never going to tell any of my family. And it's so scary because... what if I fall in love with a woman? What will I do? How could I ask someone to love me when I won't even admit to my closest relatives that I love her? And because of that fear I hold back from women because I don't want to hurt any girl like I've been hurt. It's just a weird place to be, man.







