The start of my story
It took me a long time trying to figure out how my blog was going to be named and what I will be posting. Recently I have been trough some big changes in my life and I decided I wanted to post about those events. I also happen to like drawing and sketching, so I also will be posting things I made.
With this first post I want to share some struggles i am experiencing while starting my new education. I advance, apologies for the long post, but I hope you will read it and share you thoughts about it. Maybe give some tips if you’d like.
At the start of this school year I started following a 4 year long bachelor program about cultural heritage. It took me long enough to find this course in the first place, since I had no clue what to study next after my course media design. I didn’t want to work after that education. I hate working behind a pc all day from 9am till 5pm. I really liked art history though, but there was no bachelor program just for arts history.. So that wasn’t really an option.
eventually after some time discussing this with my teachers during that education, and of course my parents, I came to the conclusion that I also liked museums and thinking about how to come up with- and create an exhibition.
With that information I came out at the bachelor I am following now. Cultural heritage. After a few weeks I already noticed that it wasn’t really what i had expected. I thought there would be taught a lot of art history, and how to create an exhibition. But instead it was more cultural history (big difference), more technical stuff about exhibitions and housekeeping of collections in depots.
Sure it was and still is interesting, and I really like my workgroup. We laugh really hard about the dumbest jokes and often go out for drinks together.
After these couple of months I am starting to notice that I really have a hard time motivating myself to do my homework and read the literature. I still go to every class and participate actively in them, but I feel a lot of doubt about it.
That doubt is really bothering me, and I don’t know how to act against it. I don’t want to quit my education because I don’t want to do nothing for half a year. And if i continue and finish the first year i have all my studypoints and I wil be able to follow any bachelor or college education I want.
During a talk with my study counselor about this issue, she said that if i don’t like this education, that it will be damn hard to keep motivating myself to finish my first year. So I really have to think hard about this if I will be able to keep on motivating my self to study, without exhausting myself.
Now what am I going to do?? Or I push myself to finish this year, with risking exhaustion because I have to put to much effort in to it. Or I quit, and I wouldn’t have any idea what to do for the rest of the year. Plus I don’t have any idea about what kind of bachelor I would sign in for after that half year. I am going to have to make a decision though.. but what I don’t know yet.
Thank you for reading my story. I think that probably a lot of you also struggle with choosing an education. And If you also have struggles like this, I would like to invite you to share those with me (or with anyone else!). Share it in a repost or in a private message, whatever suits you.
Because after typing this whole post I already feel relieved to have this story of my chest, and I hope maybe you too. :)
