....Fuck.
Every year around this time, I learn something new about myself. Or at least... Come to terms with it.
Last year it was me accepting that I am polyamorous and have the capability and desire to share love with so many people. And build strong best-friendship bonds with these people.
This year... It's that I'm also aromantic. That in those close bestfriendlationships, I never want to build a life-partner relationship with anyone. Romantic love is a luxury for me, not a requirement. It is something that is okay for me to experience, but never actually want to have. Ever.
Go. Fucking. Figure. Because now I've broken the heart of one of the people for whom I care the most.
It's not fair. It's not fair for him to be hurt. But it's also not fair for him to be with someone who can't love him the way he needs and deserves to be loved. And it's not fair for me to inhibit my own development for the sake of someone to whom I can't commit a true partnership.
And all we can do is work through it together. #happyfuckingpride #ithought #selfdiscovery #wassupposedtobehappy