I’M SORRY I’M SORRY I’M SORRY • Sellik
» Star Wars / Sellik … Sellik is tasked to kill Y/N, a suspected spy. He’s good friends with them which is why Hux wants him to be the one to kill them.
Set in the Duel of the Fates Universe.
A/N: I needed to write about a bb boy hesitating but still killing his friend over a misunderstanding oof.
Status : Close Friends, Colleagues Relationship : Professional, Platonic
WORD COUNT: 960
A friend saying goodbye because of their need to complete a duty.
“B-But sir,” stammered Sellik as he lost his proper posture at the kill order he was given. “we have no proof that Captain Y/N is the spy we are looking for and—”
“Are you defying my orders, Commander Sellik?” Hux turned around to him, a scowl on his face.
A spy had been running around the Capitol and Hux believes they had finally pinpointed them. The suspected spy was a friend of Sellik himself, a captain of the First Order, you.
“I entrusted you this duty of exterminating our pest because I want you to prove you aren’t a co-conspirator of Captain L/N. I know the bond you two share.” Hux threateningly marched towards the commander. “I had received enough intel to make the conclusion that we have found our spy, and you are to not question my judgement.”
Before Sellik could object further, wanting to defend you, a firm knock came at the door of Hux’s chamber and there you were, peeking from the crack of the door. Sellik and Hux turned to you saluting before you came in.
“Chancellor,” you said, straightening your back. “I was told to meet you as soon as I could.”
Sellik and Hux shared a look, one you didn’t understand of course. Hux gave Sellik a firm nod, prompting him to execute the order he was given. Hesitantly, Sellik lifted his head high and met you halfway into the room. You smiled at your friend, your fate unbeknownst to you.
Sellik’s heart ached when he saw your smile. You had been the one to keep him afloat for every down he’d face while you two worked in the First Order. He wished he could save you from himself, but Hux was watching and he was watching intently.
You saluted to greet Sellik, more than glad to have his company in Hux’s. “Good to see you, Commander Sellik.” you said with a wide smile. “What can I help you with today—”
Sellik drew his pistol that hung from his side and shot you square in the chest. You sustained the knock back, but not the damage. The shot had knocked the air out of you and so you struggled to gasp for it. You staggered forward, and snapping out of his state of shock, Sellik caught you and held you gingerly in his arms.
You shook violently from the pain as Sellik held you and you held onto him. You tried to spit out words to ask him about his betrayal, but nothing would come out except failed gasps for air. He shushed you quietly as to not let Hux hear and was struggling to say anything than repeating apologies.
“I-I’m sorry, Y/N.” he said, his words almost getting trapped in his throat. “I’m sorry. I’m sorry…”
Tears had begun to fall from his eyes and sobs were wracking his chest as he tried not to let them out. Hux was still watching and he wasn’t going to look away until he saw you dead.
“H-Hux thinks you’re the spy.” Sellik carefully whispered in your ear between the shaking of his voice. He gripped onto your uniform to stop your shaking, but he was shaking just as violently too. “He wanted me to kill you because he wanted me to prove my l-loyalty. I’m sorry for being so selfish, Y/N, I’m so s-sorry.”
He buried his face in the crevice of your neck and quietly sobbed, leaving tear stains on your well-pressed uniform. You smelled of fresh mint and clean linen. He always recognized that smell to be yours when you walked through the hallway. Sometimes, you’d even leave your scent on the belongings he’d lend you.
It always made him smile when he thought of you, but after this, he wasn’t sure of what to do with your memory. He still had his pistol in his hand knowing he had to pull the trigger one more time to finish what he started. Sellik didn’t want to lose you — he didn’t want to lose his only friend.
He paused his sobbing when he felt your hand grip his wrist that had the pistol. Sellik responded by his hand through your hair from the back of your head to comfort you however he could though it was almost over for you. You chuckled though it had gaps and hurt your chest.
“If it’s to help your position, Sel. Then—” you said but were cut off by your knees giving in on you, having Sellik to catch you and support your weight. “I forgive you. It’s alright, Sellik. You hear me? I forgive you. I… I love you.”
Sellik clenched his at your final words and pressed his lips against your ear. “I-I love you, Y/N.”
Your forgiveness gave Sellik the strength to lift his pistol’s barrel to your chest again and pull the trigger. Much to his dismay, he felt the life leave you as if it were his own leaving his body. Your shaking stopped which gave him some comfort, but the lack of heartbeat easily overpowered that.
His pistol clattered to the floor when he let it go to properly pull you closer. He couldn’t say anything other than ‘I love you’s as he carefully settled you on the floor.
The light in your eyes that used to light up his day had gone out and so were the rosiness of your cheeks that he adored so much.
It wasn’t long after until the actual spy had been caught, but of course, Hux didn’t care about the miscalculation he had made that lead to your death. Sellik had proved his loyalty to Hux by killing you anyway, but ultimately, he failed to show his loyalty towards you.